bitch im back

why am i back??

that's right now all i can think about is my adhd and i need to talk more now or i'll explode

i wanna ask like my parents or boyfriend or friends to help me do simple things???
like text me at 9 or so "did you brush your teeth?"
or "did you make your bed?"
or offer to help me with my work if im having a really hard time getting myself to do it
but i feel like a child asking that- i wanna be able to do it myself but it's really hard

my parents believe everyone has adhd and that mine is slightly higher but it's not that big of a deal- and it makes me feel small and like im just getting worked up over nothing-

but sometimes i'll get like sensory overloads?? like everything feels really overwhelming and i notice every sound or movement and it's really loud and i panic absjsnms

whereas it's not fuckin fun- it helps me prove to myself that it isnt just me being lazy or sensitive! sometimes everything just gets hella big and i shrink into a little ant boy

sleeping is fuckin hard dude- cause i gotta quiet my head to do that but then i'll think about like episode of the powerpuff girls i saw when i was 9 and i cant think of anything else for hours homie-