I sat down on the floor, frustratingly hanging my head low. Why am I so clumsy?

It was the fourth thing I broke today,

I extended my hands to find the pieces parts of the lampshade I broke. First the glass, second the ceramic bowl and third another glass. Here I was with my victorious fourth damage, the lamp near the window.  My body seems out of control, what's happening today?

I was trying to walk through the living room and get close to the window to sit by it, the usual place I liked the most. The salty cold wind that blew through the window was always refreshing. Jungkook had set a seat near the window so I can enjoy it. Following the ropes, I got there and sat for hours till he finishes with his work.

Sometimes I wondered where the money came from because Jungkook didn't have a job to earn money. He couldn't afford to leave me all alone in the house for hours. He left the house only twice all this time and he made sure that he arrived home within half an hour.

After sometime, I realised that they had saved their money here as well. Man, they thought about everything after all, they were prepared for anything. Until Jungkook was done with household things I waited near the window I liked. He was playing both roles of my protector and a strong man who has a sick person to take care of.

I always wore my blindfold. The bright and smoky images sometimes dangled infront of my eyes. It happened once in a while. Other times it was pitch black. Since it was hurting my eyes, Jungkook made me wear the blindfold all the time, not letting the bright but blur silhouettes flashed in front of me.

Today the day started pretty normally, but some kind of weird rush was there. It was like my adrenaline level was high, making me react quickly made loose control of my own actions.

I felt the presence of him near me as I was sulking. I realised that he was sweeping the broken pieces of the lamp as I heard the cluttering sound of the glasses. That's the fourth time he's doing it and he didn't complain at least one time, he didn't even sighed with frustration, I felt so miserable.

I couldn't help him, and I couldn't stop giving him more chaos as well. Why am I like this?

"I keep messing up things, don't I? I can't do at least one thing without messing up. You guys were right, I am a huge trouble maker," I slid my hand to untie the silk cloth that was covering my eyes, throwing it away from me. What's the point of wearing it even,

I hugged my knees and buried my face in there, filled with agony, filled vexation that I couldn't get rid of. I caught my hair frustratingly, with a clenching heart.

When will I ever learn to do things right? All of a sudden two warm arms wrapped me from behind. His hands were around my waist hugging me tightly from the back. He pulled me closer to him moving my head away from my knees.

" Y/n it's okay," he whispered to my ears with a caressing voice. I shook my head to sides.

"It's not ok, I wish there was a way I could dump all my feelings to the dumpster right now," My voice was flat and mono toned. I had enough of everything. Even I had enough, is there possibly anything I could do anything about that? The answer to that was a big no. I couldn't do anything else about that either. I felt pity for myself, helpless and broken,

He enfolded me even more, inching his face closer to mine, close enough to his soft cheeks brush against mine,

"You are doing your best Y/n. Don't blame yourself"

Every single word he said, rang  like jingles in my mind. I was dumbfounded but his voice was  distracting me.

"Let me show you something," how can he show something that I can't see at all? I leaned my head on him and closed my eyes with a sigh,

" But you know that I can't see Jungkook,"

" You will, I promise," 

Jungkook made me stand up with him. He tangled his hand with mine and guided me to somewhere I didn't know.

"Where are we going?"

"It's a surprise," his voice was mysterious yet it made me more curious.

What kind of surprise? And also the biggest question is, how am I going to see the surprise?

I felt a leather material brushing my legs as we stopped in a certain place. He gently clasped me from my shoulders and made me sit on the bench that was covered with leather. I  was seeing little bright lights since my eyes weren't covered with the blindfold, but not bright enough to see anything or recognise where I was. He took my hands and brushed against a surface,

I felt the exterior of polished cold tiles as I touched them. It wasn't a rough surface, it was something smooth. I pressed one of my fingers to confirm my doubts. And it was, yes they were Piano tiles,

" Can you feel it? Do you know what it is?" Even his voice was so melodious like piano tiles. I nodded,

"It's ...It's a piano," I ran my fingers along with the keyboard, making the room echo with the deep notes.  Beautiful deep sound. We used to have a piano when I was younger back then.

Jungkook enveloped his arms with mine, making his hands down to reach mine. He took my hands upon his, making my palm rest on his. I felt the warmth of his long fingers. His head rested on the crook of my neck, his breath was brushing me,

It was familiar with something that happened back then. It was exactly like when we did the gun practice. But vibes are different. It was existing and nervous, but this was calm and peaceful yet both made me feel butterflies.

"I'll show you now,"

He took my fingers along the keys. My hands started playing the piano with his. Within a second a beautiful melody was filling the silent room,

The world stopped for once.

I was taken to a whole new world. The melodious notes made me feel lots of things at the same time, making me forget how to breathe even. It went to the high key and back to the low key making a beautiful melody together. I haven't felt anything like this before, It made my heart race like it did when I met Jungkook's colourful gaze,

So beautiful,

The sudden epiphany made me see many things that I haven't seen before. My heart was filled with a euphoric feeling that made me feel in utopia when I was with him at that moment. Music wasn't the only thing that was surrounding us. It wasn't not only some music notes, it was something that I couldn't explain in words cause the word 'beautiful' was an understatement.

Our fingers ran together like a maze, like a love maze that we were entangled with eachother. Every single note made me deeply moved from inside. It's like I finally found inner peace.

Jungkook, Jeon Jungkook you made me feel that. I want you so badly...

I blinked a couple of times, letting the tear roll down along my cheeks. It was warm. I can see our hands, it feels so real, my small hands together with his beautiful hands.

My heart beat faster and faster as the bridge of the song played. The notes hit high and high until they hit the climax.

I smiled, I smiled widely with my teary eyes. At least I was able to imagine how it looked like when our hands were together. They ran freely along the white tiles.

In the end, the melody stopped with an outro that grasped the utmost calmness and beauty in the melody, slowly ending the most beautiful thing I ever heard. It was so beautiful and colourful,

"It's so  beautiful Jungkook," I quietly said absorbing every bit of the feelings that was still remaining.

" You like it?" I smiled widely as he quired, Is that even a question?

" I love it, what's the name of the song?"

" I don't know,"

" What do you mean you don't know?" I turned around, stunned by his answer. I saw him in front of me, his face close to mine. Because I wanted to see him badly, now I have started to imagine his face in front of me. He was so handsome, handsome than ever. I wish I could see him for real.

" I didn't think of a name for it," His thin rosy lips curved in to a smile, the smile I missed so much. Oh, why am I seeing such things? It looked so real and it hurt me the fact it's not real. But I couldn't erase that image either, it was too beautiful,

"You made it?" my lips slightly parted. That amazing melody was made by him?

"Yes"

The figure I'm seeing even nodded. His lips are moving as he answers.

" I composed it, I made with all the feelings I felt, I wanted to feel, It helped me to show my true colours," That's why I felt so deep. No wonder it touched my heart so much.

"You should give it a nice name, it's so beautiful,"

I took his hand and smiled. His ink marks glistened in his milky skin. It's amusing how I still remember his tattoo designs as well.

"You know, I want to see you so badly, now I started to  imagine you," I chuckled.I looked at his hand and then his gorgeous face. The big doe eyes of his were gazing at me, I miss them.

"What's the picture you  imagined about me?" he asked with a small smile.

Why is his figure moving like that? His lips are moving. I can see his chest going up and down as well. Why am I hallucinating like this?

"You look so handsome. In my picture, you are wearing a black shirt with a blue square pattern on it. Oh, and your sleeves are rolled up to your elbows. I can even see those tattoos covering your arms. So handsome" I beamed happily.

It's a nice imagination, right?

But the next thing that happened was totally made me startled. The facial expression of my picture changed. He was no longer smiling. His eyes widened and his mouth hanged low like he was shocked by something.

" Y/n! Say that again! What did you say that I'm wearing?" He shook me from both my shoulders. His face got close to mine, breathing fast,

"Black shirt with a blue pattern on it,"

I was surprised by what I was seeing, because what I'm seeing the exactly the same thing that I feel like happening now,

"Y/N!" His surprised face was more and more clearer now. What am I seeing right now? My mind is playing games with me.

" Why? What's happening?"

"It's the exact same thing I'm wearing right now!"

My heart stopped beating for a second from his state. A shock went through my spine as my stomach jolted.

Wait,

Then I'm not imagining things?

It's real?

Everyone good there?😅 Looks like someone got a suprise 🙃

*Windshield laughter*

Who's gonna help Jungkook to name the song he made?

*Inserting windshield laughter again*

Ok I'm a freak. Forgive me 😪

🥀Mitsume teru

    Kurayami sae ye mo

    So beautiful~