It's hurt, but I keep it myself so no one else can be hurt

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Jungkook pov

I'm hunting in my wardrobe, trying to find something decent to wear with a big smile plastered on my face.. the day finally came after 2 weeks when I'm going out with her, okay going out with everyone but I make sure she have her attention on me.

What color should I wear? I want to match our clothes, we should look like a couple, I closed my eyes and let out a scream feeling nervous because I'm going to ask her for date today.

" Gosh" I Said praying to gad for not getting me reject, I pull out my binoculars and look at the balcony maybe I can find what color she is wearing and wear the same, damm I'm lucky she have her balcony door open.

But she is nowhere to see, I didn't move and waited there for sometime and yeah she walk with holding her phone, her full focus on her phone and she is wearing a white dress.. I grin because I know what to do now.

I moved in before she could catch me staring, and swim again in my sea of clothes to find the best white one, I found it and went to bath, a man need to smell good for date, okay dinner with juniors.

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I waited while leaning against my jeep, I think I'm early, yeah I'm 10 minutes early and now I'm waiting for kang to come so we can make to town nearby. I didn't visited my parents just because of this dinner and I'm hoping everything will go good.

A smile break on my face when she come into my view, with white dress she is looking like ethereal, the most gorgeous women I have met after my mother, she is so beautiful..everything is faded around her, my eyes are just on her figure.

I was busy admiring her that I didn't notice when they come so close to me and now standing in front of me " sir" Sunjun wave his hands in front of my face breaking my chain if thought " yeah?" I said and they all giggle, looking at Kang.. teasing her obviously.

" Let's go" I Said smiling at her face, there is no makeup on her face, her hairs are tied up showing her delicate neck, I gulp " what about us?" Jackson asked and I shurg, I allowed them to have dinner but never said anything about going with us.

" asked your yoongi hyung " I Said and open the door for Kang, she hesitated and gave a akward smile to them and sat inside " bye guys, see you soon" I said sarcastically and also sit on the driver seat, wave at them and started the jeep, just hoping they didn't get help from yoongi.

Author pov

Y/n keep her gaze straight trying not to look at the man beside her, her instinct are on peak.. she is very careful whenever he make a move, she have her doubts in her mind.

" you are looking beautiful " he complimented while staring at her side profile, " thank you" she said without sparing a glance at him, she don't want to compliment him back to lead him or anything if that even make sense.

" lets continue our game?" Jungkook said and she nodded with hesitation, she have no choice" what happened with your parents? " He asked and her eyes harden with sudden anger, jaw clicked, fist formed on side but a evil smile adoring her face " They left me and never come back" she answered in extra calm voice, which didn't fit with Jungkook, she sounds different.

" What do mean by that?" Jungkook look confused as ever, he know she is orphan but what she mean by they left her?," they never come back, or maybe someone never let them reach me" she said last sentence very low and jungkook didn't catches it, he nodded in understanding making a conclusion that she didn't want to talk about it.

"What about your family? " before jungkook could ask anything she asked him, she saw something flicker in his eyes and his grip tighten on steering wheel " My mom, she is house wife, she also own a bakery and you are well aware of my dad" he answered simply, she nodded..a meaningful smile formed her face, so he is playing dumb that's good, she think internally.

" how you end up in the situation? " He gulp before asking he don't want to make her uncomfortable by stepping the line and ask anything she don't want to answer, y/n expected this question and she take a deep breath before answering.

" you see, I grown up in orphanage.. later at the age of 20 I become a teacher there, one day I find out something suspicious they were selling kids to sex workers, the kids which were mentally retarded or any physical inability, as they are not adopted by any.." she took a pause before continuing.

"I threatened to free them, even went to cops but you know corruption, they sold me also, giving the drugs which made me loose my sanity, I died everyday.. but nothing is more powerful then your will, so we together made out of that hell" at the end she had this proud smile at her face.

Jungkook didn't said anything, he let the information sink in his brain and look at y/n who is not seems affected by discussing about the event, she own so much respect in his eyes" you are so strong " he said touching her cheeks from back of his hand, catching her off guard, a admiring smile spread across his face.

" thank you" she said removing his hands from her face gently but he held her hands instead, clutching it closer.. fixing gear liver with it, she hold the hem of her dress tightly, not liking his behavior at all, but jungkook he is lost in the moment that he didn't realized her state or maybe she is a very good at masking her emotions.

He is driving slowly so he can get to spend more time with her but to his disappointment they hear voice of honk followed by" Nonna" by Sunjun, starling both of them, y/n took the chance to remove her hands from jungkook's, he didn't noticed it.

"Snail" Haneul said grinning at them, they are side by side, yoongi is driving the van while Haneul is at passenger seat, sunjun and Jackson are at back seat, Jae have boring look because she is being 3rd wheel.

Yoongi glared at jungkook but he didn't noticed rather y/n did and smile in response, glad at fact he came," Let's race" Sunjun said again pointing at jungkook " sorry to crush your dream boy but no race in my zone " yoongi said keeping his van at normal speed.

Jungkook is cursing yoongi for ruining their peaceful talk inside his mind, y/n is relieved and she look out of window, a meaningful smile formed her face, her eyes are staring at trees which look like they are moving but the fact is jeep is moving.

"Are you asleep? " Jungkook asked but she didn't answered pretending to asleep is better than leading a useless conversation. She us working in her mind.

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"Sit here" jungkook said pulling a chair for her, I'm not handicap,this is what she want to say but she just nodded and sat down " are you dating already? " Sunjun wishper in her ear and she made a disgust face " yuck" he laughed at her face which look like she'll vomit anytime " it's matter of time anyway " he said back but y/n could reply Jungkook speak up.

" it's treat from me so go on order anything you want" he announced and a roar of cheers left the table," I'm going to make him beggar today" Sunjun wishper again making y/n laugh at his childish act.

Yoongi is seated in front of y/n while jungkook is on her right side while Sunjun on left, Jae and Haneul are either side of yoongi, Jackson took a extra chair and sat there awkwardly.

Jae is envy same goes to yoongi, they both are glaring y/n and jungkook while Sunjun and Jackson are talking about something, Haneul have his phone and he is busy with it.

Their order come and the waiter gave a polite smile to soldiers of their country, very honoured to serve them " enjoy your meal" he left with a salute making them happy too.

They finished their meal with a little chit chat, jungkook nudging his hands at y/n's now and then, it was normal gesture for him but she want to stab him with fork " I'm full" Jackson and Jae said together and laughed a little, other chuckle, they were the last one to finish.

" we'll be out for a walk" jungkook said after paying bill and dragged y/n out with him, Sunjun was about to follow them but get held by yoongi " don't disturb them " he said but his mind is screaming inside exact opposite.

Jungkook smile as soon as they reached the street, it's almost empty.. the yellow street light is making very small part of road visible, after that everything is black and they are walking mindlessly" Is anything important sir?" Y/n asked, glaring at his fingers around her wrist.

" Jungkook" he corrected wrapping her hands around his arm" so there is anything important jungkook? " She asked keeping distance between them and jungkook stopped walking when he found out the perfect place for them to talk, a bench .

He remove dry leaves from it and sat down patting his side to make her sit " do you like star gazing? " Jungkook asked and y/n know the fact he love star gazing so much, she have seen him many time looking at Sky alone from balcony " Maybe" she shurg cause she don't know if stars are her things but if you remove stars then the darkness is the thing she like.

" you didn't tell me how I'm looking?, we are matching " he point out and then she noticed indeed they are matching " you look handsome " she said, nodding her head but to Jungkook it sound like she is forcing word out.

" Okay so I'm not going to make it complicated, I like you, let's date?" He asked while looking at Sky, not moving his eyes away from, he don't have guts to get rejected at face, so he try to come up a strong, y/n look at his side profile.. she know he'll ask but this is so soon " are you kidding me? " She asked to double check.

This made him look at her face, he close the distance between them and stare at her eyes with dangerous look, face are so close to eachother if one move they'll end up kissing " if I kiss you now, you're still going to think I'm kidding? " He asked dropping his gaze at lips before looking back at her eyes letting her know he is not joking.

" Major Jeon, maintain your distance " y/n said pushing him harshly, jungkook look at her with mixed emotions, the voice she used right now was totally different, it was full of dominance, which gave him shiver for some reason or maybe he is wrong .

" I'm not into dating" she declared truthfully before getting up from bench and start making her way toward yoongi's van, other are waiting there" where do you think you're going?" Jungkook asked and blocked her path for moving step further, she just rejected him and crushed his hope, it's hurting..

" Move" she said, trying to walk past him but only to get pulled back " I was the one whom you come with, I'm going to drop you" he said before telling her to follow him " will you leave me alone if I came with you?" She asked back.

He stopped with a smirk playing on his lips " Maybe " he said making her groan because of his answer, she walk in his jeep waving at other with a awkward smile, jungkook get to know she must be cursing him inside her mind.

He smile sadly at her rejection, the women he liked first time rejected him, but a determination light up in his eyes, maybe not now but she'll say yes, he'll make her his, everything will be fine he is sure, he is cooking plans without knowing future have their own plans.

Author note

Now chapters have many detailed and hint on them, try to spot it.. I know you can.

Y/n reaction about her parents, and what she meant by Jungkook playing dumb?

The story she tell him, then what about her dream?

She rejected his proposal, what future held for them?

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Everything we know is perspective,
Not the truth

To be continue..