chapter zero: prologue

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❝She was the kind of woman who always kept to herself. She was one of the very few who actually cared about others, but just didn't know how to express it. You had to break into those cocoa-colored eyes of hers, those calamitous, unilluminated lips that showed the world just how perfect she truly was everyone time she smiled. You had to escape her frightened and worried stare, and then you might just happen to make it to the other side of that mysterious girl who always skipped her classes, trusted nobody, and was constantly being lied to. If you were fortunate enough, you might get the opportunity to enter her angelic and enticing side that would show you way more than what is introduced to the eye.❞

❝As a society, we believe what we want to believe.❞

❝If your grandfather is dying, you'll do everything you can to convince yourself that isn't true. Pretend he is the guardian who took care of you your entire life. For some people, that could be the exact case, for others it may not even be close to that.❞

❝You love him so much that you will persuade yourself to believe that, even though he is expeditiously getting closer and closer to death everyday, you believe that he will overcome his cancerous disease and he will be healthy just like he used to be.❞

❝You know that isn't true.❞

❝You know that this is one of the last chances you will ever get with him.❞

❝You choose to believe that due to the fact that he attended every soccer practice and game of yours, every performance of you singing your lungs out at the talent show, he was there for you. For Halloween as a little kid, he would stay up all night creating a custom-made costume that would impress your friends and everyone else on the special day, and you love him so much for that.❞

❝You want to believe he would be getting better and eventually he would be able to at least spend a few more years with you.❞

❝You do this because you can't bare the thought that soon, the grandparent you moved up to the status of your parent, would be leaving this Earth and that you could've done better and you might've been able to prevent the illness that is growing in his lungs and taking control over his body.❞

❝The answer is that we, as a society, choose to believe in the wrong things even though we know that we failed to believe in the correct ones, for that is how our hope assures us that everything is going to be okay.❞

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-Beau