Author's note :And today, the sadistic side of me awakened, and I suddenly had the urge to make y'all cry, or at least a little upset, sorry, not sorry :) also, what's an enemies to lovers without jealousy and heartache involved in it? No fun then!

05/03/22

Dear Diary,

I've never ever hated your jackass owner more than today.

If he hates me, why doesn't he act like it?

Does he have a split personality disorder?

Because each time, he's got a new personality with me.

And then he chooses accordingly which personality shall meet me for the timebeing.

Like today, some girl showed up.

I don't even know her.

And seeing her with him...

It gave me a strange feeling I cannot describe.

I got a strange pang in my chest.

Could it be jealousy?

Why would I get jealous of him with someone?

Sara hated the feeling.

She didn't like seeing Shubman smile, chuckle and laugh in that girl's presence.

She was a model, working for a brand she'd never heard of before.

And the way she leaned in, her high pitched giggles echoing in the café, Shubman pressed back a smile.

Neither of the girls seemed to notice it.

She turned turned away, heaving a deep breath, to find Jugnu and Seb occupying the chair at the opposite side.

" All good? You seem pale." Jugnu asked out of concern.

" I'm fine." She nodded at him.

" Sure?"

" Yes KP. I'm absolutely fine."

" Then why did your knuckles turn white seeing that model there?" Seb arched a brow and she shook her head, unable to find an appropriate reason.

" Are they...collaborating for the shoot?"

" No...Um..." The boys switched glances among each other, hesitating to tell her the truth.

" Then?"

" Never mind them, talk to us!"

" What's there to hide?" She asked with a frown and Seb sighed.

" She...asked him out on date."

" And...he said yes, right?"

Jugnu gulped, followed by a nod.

She forced a smile.
" That's nice. He'll finally annoy someone else instead of me. I'm glad."

But she wasn't.

She was anything but glad.

Her heart ached as she saw the blonde press a chaste kiss on his cheek and she quickly turned away.

" I'm tired of this asshole's antics." Jugnu muttered under his breath to Seb, wanting to smack himself and Shubman both for letting her do that.

Seb only sighed causing Sara to frown.

" What's up?"

" Oh no nothing! I'm just too hungry, lets order?"

" Sure." 

She handed him the menu and the heartache deepened as she heard the girl giggle yet again, followed by Shubman's laugh.

" Jugnu!" He called out to his best-friend.

Jugnu ignored him, pretending to not have heard him.

Her brows furrowed.

" Jugnu...he called you."

" Oh did he? I'm sorry I zoned out. Be right back." He pushed back the chair and Sara heard him introduce the man to the girl.

" Is that girl there your girlfriend?" She heard the blonde ask him.

" Oh no." Jugnu chuckled forcefully.
" She's my best-friend. She's got a boyfriend. He's in India."

Shubman frowned, one of the deepest frowns etched on his lips.

" What're you—"

" I should go." Jugnu gritted out, a sweet smile etched on his lips.
" Enjoy your date Shubi! It was nice meeting you Maria."

He turned away, sitting back down.

" What're you on about? I don't have a boyfriend!"

" She would've misunderstood!"

Sara nodded.

Got rumours with me, and goes for dates with someone else. She thought, holding back a scoff.

" You're so nice! I will love to spend more time with you." They heard Maria tell him.

" So are you, you're pretty and sweet."

Sara's head hung down as Seb ordered for them, she told him whatever she wanted.

What about fake dating?

Everything is wrong with me when it comes to you Sara.

Tumse jyada tumhaari khamoshi aur aasu se nafrat hai mujhe.

Why did he give her mixed signals?

Why did she think of them as signals in the first place?

Why was her heart aching?

Shubman Gill did not like her, she did not like him.

And it was best if she did not let him affect her.

Neither him, nor his confusing words, nor his pretty smiles or soothing chuckles.

She was going to talk to him about taking down the rumours once he was back.

It'd be so awkward if the girl found out Shubman had rumours with her.

Besides if he was going to date her, it would be best if the rumours were taken down.

They weren't true anyway.

And he'd agree this time, she was sure he would.

She was going to be his girlfriend.

He wouldn't want to hurt her.

" I'll be back. I need to use the washroom." She told the boys who nodded at her.

Grabbing her phone, she strided to the washroom.

Standing by the mirror, she splashed water on her face, clenching the fob.

" Boy problems?" A soft voice asked and she recognised her almost immediately.

" Aditi?"

She smiled at her.

" What's making you upset? I hate seeing a frown on your face. Your smiles are bright enough to light up an entire room but your frowns can make everyone around you upset. What's up sunshine? Your crestfallen face breaks my heart."

She attempted to smile but failed miserably.

" I don't know. I just...don't like it. Seeing him with that girl." She confessed in a whisper.

" You like him don't you?"

" No..I don't know what it is Aditi. It's just confusing. He keeps switching with me. If he hates me, why doesn't he just stick to that? Easy for both him and me. Why be civil with me out of the blue? And if he was anyway planning on getting a girlfriend, why didn't he let my PR team deny and take down the rumours? Why become so confusing?"

" Men." Aditi let out a mirthless chuckle.
" But not all men. I'd kill Ishan if he does that to me. He won't pull shit like that anyway. Want me to slap some sense into him?"

" No, no don't. I'm fine."

" Are you though?"

" I will be. How are you here by the way?"

" In London or in this café?"

" Both."

" Work purpose. Let's catch up someday since we're both here?"

" Yes definitely. I should go now, Jugnu and Seb must be waiting."

Aditi nodded, and as she watched her walk out, she let out a bemused chuckle.

" Two fools heads over heels with each other, and aren't even willing to accept it. This push and pull game will only lead them to breaking each other's hearts." She shook her head as she pulled her phone out to call Ishan to tell him how stupid his best-friend was being.