I chuckled mirthlessly while writing this because at this point I'm convinced not only would I be called delusional, but dumb too.

But I guess delusions are all you can feed on when you ship a couple who've had only one public appearance ( wouldn't even call it an official public appearance) despite being together for the past seven/eight years.

After her story, I've seen umpteen core members of the fandom put stories that this is the end for them, they'll continue supporting them individually and will be back if the end is all worth it and that shattered my heart watching all those stories, because I really really looked up to them, in fact they were a reason why my faith turned stronger than it was, but I respect their opinion.

Now, coming to why I wrote this, I might not be a very very old fan, but I'm a fan nonetheless and a big one, I don't feel posting one story or liking one post defines your love life, I've had friends in toxic relationships so I'd relate to that basis and like a post or post something too, no big deal really, and if that's not the case I feel it could be a PR strategy too, I have a gut feeling they're attempting to cover up something, some plan they're up their sleeve they don't want us to know, I might be wrong too, we never know but my gut feeling says that.

I did not start the journey to leave it midway because this once I do really feel it is worth it, maybe I'm being stupid, dumb, emotional, but I'm here to stay, regardless of the end result, everyone who stayed for so long and don't want to any further, I respect your opinion.

I wasn't meaning to post about this but here we go, if you feel I'm intending to leave too, i'm not. I'm here to stay, so rest assured.

I might take down a few books I've not started writing because I currently have very little time to spare for writing but Wildest Dreams, Bed Chem, Style and blue will be still there.

I'll be completing Apocalypse soon since I've drafts ready for it, they only need editing.

Take care and thank you for all your support so far <3