A/N: This chapter is suuuper long! it's mainly smut, and I tried to spice it up, sooo... Enjoy? ;)

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With a long sigh, Yeosang looks around him. He has made a huge mess, but there is no time for cleaning it up right now.

It is Seonghwa's birthday, and Yeosang has spent hours in the bathroom to look absolutely perfect for his boyfriend's celebration - and for their time alone later as well.

He has parted his hair the best he could, parted in the middle and slightly curled to the sides. A hint of dark eyeshadow around his eyes, and a rosy tint on his lips. Most of the time has been on his body though, showering and shaving everywhere - and afterwards rubbing himself all over with lotion, to make his skin silky smooth.

A black shirt is hanging loosely around his body, with the three upper buttons open, but not more than that or he will reveal the surprise he has prepared for Seonghwa.

Wooyoung knocks on the door again, yelling at Yeosang to finish up so he can go pee. With a last look in the mirror, Yeosang smirks to himself before unlocking the door.

"Goddamnit, you've taken forever!" the younger shouts, as soon as the door is opened. He peeks behind Yeosang, and with a sigh he looks at the mess that has been left behind. "You're cleaning that up later!"

"Tomorrow, I promise. Won't be home tonight," Yeosang laughs cheekily, and adds a wink on top that makes Wooyoung cringe.

"San has already called a cab, we will leave as soon as I've peed!" Wooyoung grumbles, as he pushes Yeosang out of the bathroom and closes the door between them.

In the living room is San waiting, with Jeonghan sitting next to him on the couch, both looking stunning with their fluffy blonde hair and dressed in beautiful suits, busy fixing each other's ties.

"Oh, someone's gonna get lucky tonight!" San grins, when he sees Yeosang. "And I'm not only talking about myself!"

"Okay, let's go, let's go, let's go!" Wooyoung shouts behind them, as he comes storming out from the bathroom again.

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Fried chicken and a lot of cheers later, the group of friends are starting to get louder - or it might just be the fact that Mingi and Wooyoung are both in the same place once again. Seonghwa has chosen a fried chicken restaurant for his birthday, Noona Holdak in Hongdae where he used to go all the time with Hongjoong during their university days.

And now here they are, gathered around the wooden table that has been covered in plates of delicious food; Yeosang and Seonghwa, Yunho, Hongjoong, Mingi - but no wife tonight, as she apparently is too pregnant by now to go anywhere, San and Jeonghan, and Wooyoung and Yuna.

It took a while for Hongjoong to come around, and Yeosang did his best to stay neutral at work - but at the same time listen to Hongjoong whenever he needed it. But it eventually happened, and Hongjoong had indeed missed Seonghwa just as much, as the other way around.

The next step was to talk to Mingi and Yunho, something that Hongjoong offered to do first - and then bring Seonghwa with him the following time. Yeosang had been waiting at home, biting his nails out of nervousness for how it would turn out. When Seonghwa finally showed up outside his door, the older looked exhausted but with a weak smile on his face.

The two taller guys had been grilling him all night, but it did turn out fairly well, as both of them trusted Hongjoong's decision of giving Seonghwa a chance. Seonghwa met up with his three former friends multiple times, and the weary eyes he would return with slowly started to lighten up. In the end there was only one real issue left, and that was how Mingi kept insisting that Tzuyu should be charge for what she did. But Seonghwa did not want anymore problems with his ex-wife, and nothing that could potentially end up hurting his daughter as well.

It wasn't that Seonghwa had forgiven Tzuyu, and he never will - he only barely manages to be around her, for Rosie's sake. It's been a while since Mingi last brought the issue up, and it seems like it has finally been put behind them, as much as possible at least.

"I haven't been to Hongdae for quite some time, but it feels good to be back!" Yunho says, smiling brightly as he looks out the window, at the street outside.

While the others talk away, Yeosang keep shifting around on his chair. His surprise for Seonghwa is getting a little uncomfortable, but he is stubborn and does his best to sit through the itching and the strange pressure of pulling he feels whenever he positions himself in a wrong way. It's also turning him on a little, wearing this secret under his clothes and sitting next to Seonghwa who looks like an absolute dream tonight - and that certainly doesn't help with the discomfort.

Seonghwa keeps looking at him with a wondering look, when Yeosang moves around with a small frown on his face, but he instantly covers it up with a smile at the older.

"You look amazing," Seonghwa whispers in his ear, causing Yeosang's cheeks to blush a little.

"Just wait for later then," he whispers back, and it is hard to hold back from just jumping on to older right in the middle of the restaurant.

The sun is setting outside, and the city is covered with a dreamy glow, and everything just feels like the most amazing dream ever. Yeosang's face is hurting from smiling so much - but it's worth every second of the delightful pain of it. In a few months he will be back at Yonsei to get his Master's degree, and he is back with Seonghwa too. In some ways it feels like going back to the beginning again, and this time he is ready to live life to the fullest, and cherish every single moment of it.

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Hours later, Yeosang and Seonghwa are finally alone and back at Seonghwa's apartment. Yeosang's head is spinning a little from all the beer, but it does make him feel a tad more courageous - something that is definitely needed tonight.

They tumble into the bedroom, lips locked together and hands ready to explore - but Yeosang keeps moving Seonghwa's hands away from him. When he is pushed onto the bed, and Seonghwa is on top of him, his arms are being pinned above his head by the older.

Seonghwa kisses him down the neck, while slowly started to feel his body through the shirt. When the older's hand reaches Yeosang's chest, he suddenly stops and looks at Yeosang with curious eyes.

"Yeosang," Seonghwa whispers, and his fingers gently stroke over the shirt where the feeling of another fabric underneath has caught his attention. "What is this?"

He then lets go of Yeosang's wrists, and is just about to unbutton the younger's shirt, when Yeosang stops him.

"Just a little surprise," Yeosang smirks, as he gently pushes Seonghwa away. "Put your hands behind your back."

Seonghwa raises a brow, while his eyes can't stop traveling down Yeosang's chest, but he does as he is told. Yeosang moves around on the bed, and quickly ties the older's hands together behind his back, using the tie that has been thrown next to them.

"What are you up to?" Seonghwa chuckles, when Yeosang is pushing him around to make him sit leaning against the headboard of the bed.

Without saying a word, just wearing a playful smile on his lips, Yeosang slides out of the bed, grabs his bag on the way, and heads for the bathroom. Before disappeared behind the door, he looks back at Seonghwa, who is watching him with curious eyes and red cheeks from excitement.

Yeosang closes the door, and quickly undresses. While looking at himself in the mirror, he grabs Seonghwa's thin black robe from the wall, and slowly puts in on. His eyes glance over his own body in the reflection, and he makes sure that every little detail is perfect - and ready for Seonghwa to completely ruin.

He has no idea how he came up with this, it isn't something he has ever done before - but he knew he wanted to surprise Seonghwa, and suddenly he found himself standing in a women's lingerie store.

With his eyes following every little move, he lets his fingers run over the black lace that is decorating his body - from the thin bralette to the panties, and down the garter belt that holds up the thigh high stockings.

From his bag he finds an eyeliner and the lip tint to freshen up his makeup before finally leaving the bathroom again, with the robe held closed with his hand at his chest.

Seonghwa is looking as curiously at him, as before, and Yeosang quickly gets back into bed before revealing too much. But the older is fast as well, and his eyes instantly fall to the delicate nylon stockings on his boyfriend's legs.

"Baby, what is going on?" Seonghwa asks, before biting in his lower lip. His eyes are still staring at the first part of Yeosang's surprise for him.

With his free hand, Yeosang pushes Seonghwa back to make sure his back is pressed against the headboard again, and while looking deeply into the older's eyes, he leans in to let their lips meet.

"Happy birthday, my love," he whispers, when the kiss ends - wet and leaving both of them needy for more.

Yeosang then straddles down over Seonghwa's lap, and slowly unclenches his hand to let the rope slowly slide down his shoulders. As it happens, he watches every little move and reaction coming from Seonghwa. The older's eyes widen up in surprise, and his lips part and a small gasp manages to escape.

"Oh my God..." he whispers, but his voice has already turned raspy. "I'd almost forgotten how kinky you are... Although this... Wow..."

"Do you like it?" Yeosang asks teasingly, with his fingers running seductively around the soft lace.

"I-I don't know what to say... You look... So beautiful..." Seonghwa mumbles, clearly too busy studying every little detail in front of him. "You... You've been wearing this all night? Wasn't it uncomfortable?"

Seonghwa's breathing is getting heavier, and a few gasps are let loose as well, whenever Yeosang strokes his hand between his legs. The older is already hard, and it pleases Yeosang that his surprise has been well received.

"Extremely," Yeosang replies. "Especially since I kept getting hard, thinking about what you'd do to me when you saw it."

"Why did you tie me up then?"

"Ssh, sweetie. You talk to much." With a playful smile, Yeosang places a finger over Seonghwa's mouth, while he slowly moves to sit right on top of the bulge that is begging to be let loose from the older's pants.

A deeply frustrated groan comes from the older, who frowns at the inability to touch his boyfriend, and Yeosang loves being in control like this. He leaves kisses and shallow bite marks on Seonghwa's neck, while listening to the moans that only gets louder each time Yeosang rolls his hips.

While unbuttoning Seonghwa's shirt, Yeosang lets his lips follow his fingers downwards, licking and kissing the soft skin, until every button has been opened. He then moves back up, to let his tongue play around Seonghwa's nipples.

"Ah... Yeosang..." the older complains, and every muscle in his body is starting to tense up.

"Didn't I tell you to stay quiet?" Yeosang whispers, as he closes his teeth around Seonghwa' left nipple. Not too hard - but hard enough to make the older make a short cry of surprise. "Well, if you can't behave..."

The robe is thrown onto the floor, when Yeosang moves away from Seonghwa's lap, causing the older to almost let out another complaint - but he manages to stop himself and sucks his lips in to stay quiet. Yeosang sends him a mischievous smile, while getting the bottle of lube from the night stand.

He lets the cooling, sticky drops run down his fingers, before carefully smearing it all around - eyes staring intensely into Seonghwa's the whole time. Yeosang then straddles back over Seonghwa's legs again, but this time further down to make sure he doesn't touch Seonghwa's throbbing erection at all.

Begging eyes are watching him, while he slowly moves his hand down and slips his fingers underneath the black lace between his legs. He leans backwards, supporting himself with his other hand against the mattress, when he starts playing with himself in front of Seonghwa, who looks like he could explode in his pants at any given second.

Yeosang makes sure to move his hips just right, and small moans roll over his lips, as he begins to finger himself. Of course he would much rather have Seonghwa fill him out with his big cock, but at the same time there is something so wonderfully arousing about teasing the older like this. And Yeosang knows he will get what he wants in the end, no matter what.

Seonghwa is biting his lower lip, small drops of sweat trickles down his forehead, and his cheeks are flushed - but he stays as quiet as he can.

"How much do you want me right now?" Yeosang playfully asks between his own heated moans from his fingers moving in and out. "You can speak."

"So... So much..." Seonghwa replies with a gulp. "Baby, you have no idea... Please..."

Just the way Seonghwa is looking at him would be enough to get Yeosang off, but he slowly pulls his fingers out and moves back up to sit right in front of Seonghwa's crotch. The older is exhaling  fast and sharply, when Yeosang finally starts to unbuckle his belt and unzip his pants.

His clothes being are pulled down to his knees, and Seonghwa closes his eyes with a loud moan of pleasure streaming from his mouth, when Yeosang's tongue runs along the tip of his hard cock. Yeosang licks away the pre-cum that is glistening at the top, and smiles from the sounds that are coming from his boyfriend, when he slowly begins to take him further into his mouth.

He sucks it well and good, just the way he knows Seonghwa likes it and as soon as it is nice and wet, he adds lube all around it. Seonghwa's eyes widen up once again, and he chokes on a gasp, when Yeosang finally pulls the lace panties to the side and lets him inside.

Yeosang makes a small hiss behind his gritted teeth, as he slowly lets himself get stretched out even more, by Seonghwa's cock. After slow and cautious moves, adjusting to his boyfriend's size, Yeosang starts to feel ready to take in more. He presses his lips onto Seonghwa's, dives his tongue into the older's mouth as well as a deep moan, when all of Seonghwa's length is pushed inside of him.

"F-fuck..." Seonghwa pants, as he breaks the kiss to gasp for air.

Their lips meet again, and their tongues instantly find each other. Yeosang wraps his arms around Seonghwa's neck, while he slowly starts to move faster - taking in all of the wonderful hard cock, then moving up to only hold the very tip inside, and then down again. Seonghwa is moaning under him, his voice turning more and more raspy for each time, and his head tilts backwards against the headboard.

"What will you do if I untie you now?" Yeosang whispers in his ear, biting into the earlobe just to hear Seonghwa make a cute little whining noise.

"I'd... Fuck you harder than ever before..."

The reply is more than good enough, and the anticipation and lust is all that's left in Yeosang's mind. He quickly puts his arms around Seonghwa to untie him, and with a cheeky smile, he puts the black silk tie around his own neck. While slowly tying it, he stares into Seonghwa's eyes.

"What are you waiting for then?"

A smirk shows on Seonghwa's face, just as he grabs Yeosang by the hips and flips both of them over on the bed. Yeosang's back slams against the mattress, at the same time as Seonghwa's cock slams deep inside of him, and a loud moan of both pain and pleasure is forced out of his mouth.

Seonghwa is making a few frustrated sounds, before he suddenly rips the lace panties apart with his hands. He let's the rest stay on though, and makes sure to feel up every lacy part that is so prettily decorating Yeosang's skin.

"Sorry," he mumbles, when he leans down to kiss Yeosang's swollen lips. "I'll buy you some new ones."

His fingers are playing with Yeosang's hard nipples, rubbing the lace against them, and making Yeosang whine under him. Seonghwa then straightens his back, and lifts one of Yeosang's legs up to be able to thrust even deeper inside of him.

Yeosang wants to scream the older's name, but his words are being swallowed by the moans that keep pushing up in his throat. His head is spinning, and stars are already showing behind his eyelids, with every deep thrust Seonghwa makes. Their bodies slam together, harder and better than ever before, and leaving Yeosang a complete mess on the bed - his words can't beg for more, but the way he looks at Seonghwa says it all.

The older smirks again, before pulling out and turning Yeosang's body around on the mattress. He is pulled up to stand on his knees and elbows, and his body arches when Seonghwa's cock is pushing inside of him again - all of the length, all at once.

Seonghwa's hands keep drifting from Yeosang's hips, down along the garter belt and just around the edge of the stockings. His fingertips slide underneath the soft nylon, and plays around the lace trim - gently, and completely opposite to the way he so relentlessly pounds Yeosang down into the mattress.

"I can't believe how sexy you are..." the older pants behind him, with his nails digging into the skin at Yeosang's thighs.

But Yeosang still can't answer with anything but a stream of moans, deep and begging for release. Seonghwa's cock keeps hitting just the right spots, and Yeosang feels himself getting dangerously close to reaching his climax.

"S-Seonghwa... I..." he finally manages to whisper - and only a few seconds and deep thrusts later Yeosang feels his body tense up.

With Seonghwa's hand closing around his throbbing cock, Yeosang comes like never before - with one last, crying moan of the other's name. Everything is spinning all around him, and he is close to passing out, when he feels Seonghwa finish inside of him.

Everything after that seems to happen in blurry flashes, and the only thing he notices, is how the warmth of Seonghwa's body suddenly is gone. A few noises are coming from the distance, while Yeosang is snuggled up on the bed. His skin is burning, in the most amazing and oversensitive way, and he smiles into the pillow.

"Let's get cleaned up," Seonghwa suddenly whispers in his ear. "Come."

The older tries to help him up, but when Yeosang stumbles out of bed, almost falling over his own feet, it results in Seonghwa picking him out and carefully carrying him to the bathroom.

Seonghwa has prepared a bubblebath in the tub, and he helps Yeosang both get untangled from the rest of the lingerie, and afterwards get into the bath, before joining him - sitting behind him to let Yeosang rest against his chest. The warm water is calming, but Yeosang is somehow starting to feel more awake again. He plays with the foam between his fingers, and listens to how Seonghwa is humming softly behind him.

"You're amazing," Seonghwa mumbles into his hair. "This has been the best birthday ever."

"I'm glad you liked it," Yeosang chuckles, as he grabs a hold of the older's hands and with their fingers laced together, he strokes them over the surface of the water.

"I just have on question. How are you ever going to top this?" The older then asks, and he takes control of their hands and wrap both set of their arms across Yeosang's chest.

"Maybe next year I will top you?"

"Yeah, I don't think so."

"We'll see about that, next year," Yeosang grins, and although it started out as a joke, he somehow feels a little intrigued himself.

Seonghwa's fingertips are stroking down Yeosang's skin, in doodles and loving words, and sitting like this, it feels like they've never been apart at all. Yeosang smiles to himself, relieved that Seonghwa can't see his face right now, when small tears start to form at the corner's of his eyes.

Tears of happiness, of course. Yeosang has lived through so many years, thinking he would never deserve to find love, he has sabotaged himself, he has run away - and he has always found something about the other person that he could use as an excuse for not falling in love.

But with Seonghwa it has never been like that - with him it felt right from the start, and even with the world against them, here they are, together and still in love.

"Actually, I have a surprise for you too," Seonghwa whispers softly behind him. "I was going to wait for your birthday, but I think you definitely deserve to hear it now."

"Mmh?" Yeosang hums, starting to drift away in his boyfriend's loving embrace. "What is it?"

"Yeosang? Will you go to Paris with me?"

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we were strangers
starting out on a journey
never dreaming
what we'd have to go through
now here we are
I'm suddenly standing
at the beginning with you

- Richard Marx, Donna Lewis - At the Beginning

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THE END

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A/N: O M G THAT WAS IT!

(And yes, I know the title of this chapter is the same as the first one of "Just as we are" it is not a mistake.)

So... This story turned into a complete mess, and I can't thank you guys enough for sticking with me till the end! From chapter 6 to chapter 25 nothing happened as I had planned hahaha but I just went with the flow of my weird brain, but we got back on track at the very end at least! :'))

And if you haven't checked it out already; NEW SEONGSANG coming soon in "KIDS IN THE DARK" you can find it under my profile <3

Stay happy and amazing! I love you all! xx