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At that exact moment, I couldn't feel anything around me. I knew that Jimin and Jin were shaking my shoulders while Hobi was saying something...but none of them went into my brain.

There was only one question inside my mind which was running from South to North. Was I  being a fool all this long!? When these sort of things were riding a roller coaster in my subconscious mind,  that's exactly when I noticed Namjoon standing right in front of the door, his eyes directly on me.

I felt the need to break every single furniture around me for a reason to which I'm myself not sure about.

Why?

Why am I reacting this way?

Why do I want to hold his shirt and shout at him?

Why do I want to just run away from here?

But again,

Why do I want to just leave this off as if nothing happened..?

And why do I feel that the tweet is not real at all...?

Putting everything aside, trying my best to control the tears from my eyes, I looked up again, to see Namjoon and spoke at the same time.

"Umm, Jimin..weren't we planning on s-seeing the sunrise..we still have time right? Why don't we go? Now?" I asked as he said agreed to it almost immediately and called the driver to pick us up.

"I'm coming too"

"I'm joining you guys too Noona"

Tae and Jungkook said as Jimin held my hands, pulling me out while I faked a smile to the rest of them.

"Please move Namjoon." Was all I said with my eyes piercing his as he was standing exactly at the front of the door.

His eyes completely went wide when I called him Namjoon. What else does he expect me to do at the moment?

All that I needed was for me to go away somewhere. Right now.

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AT THE HAN RIVER:
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JIMIN's POV:

She is not fine. At all. The pain in her eyes was very much visible and the fact that she is trying her level best to control the tears from not falling was also evident.

And I'm not liking this at all.

The sun was almost gonna rise and she was standing there holding Jungkook.

"Tae, quick take a picture of Me and kook!" She said holding Jungkook with both her hands while both of them kept glancing at me with a  sad face.

We didn't like her to be in this state.

"Noona...are you okay?" Taehyung asked to which her reply was what which made me irritated.

"Okay? What do you mean Tae I'm completely fine. Did anything happen?!" She said showing off her big fake smile as she held Jungkook's hands and started running.

A lot of people change in different ways over the years, but the Byeol I know hasn't changed even a bit.

"Noona, don't you want to go home..?" Jungkook asked holding her wrists.

"Why? Can't I happily spend time with you guys?" Okay, that's when I lost my cool.

She is pretending as if everything is fine when she is not good.

"Noona. Pour it." I said standing in front of her.

"What chim..? Heyy look the sun is raising!!"

"NOONA POUR IT OUT WILL YOU?!" I shouted, holding her by her shoulders, making her face me.

And that's when the tears which she had been holding for soo long started flowing out.

"How long..how long do you guys think that this has been happening? or wait. Was I just being in my own imaginary world thinking that I was in love and was being loved..? I just..I just don't understand Mangae.." she started speaking wiping her tears off her face.

"Or even now I don't know if the way I'm reacting is correct or wrong.. you know..the moment I read that single tweet my heart just shattered...I felt like I was going crazy for a moment.."

I really can't deny that. In general, if a person reads that tweet, it's soo obvious that the woman just mentioned about her and Namjoon hyung having sex.

"No one will just put up something like that without something happening in reality right? Is that..is that why he didn't even bother to come back with me yesterday..not even a proper bye..and all those continuous texts..were all to her only?" She said her lips shivering as Taehyung went and hugged her as she began crying more, Jungkook joining them from behind.

Here I am. Not knowing what to do. Not being able to look at this state of hers. Here I am not being able to confront my hyung.

"You three tell me. It was all going good. Suddenly I see this tweet and...how am I expected to take this?" She asked releasing from the hug.

"But even now I know that maybe this is just some cover-up and something else would have only happened but..."

"But what Noona..tell me"

"I...I really don't have any right over him Jimin..do I? What am I? His wife? His girlfriend? I just simply don't have a tag..so yeah..." She said completely breaking down as she sat down immediately.

This is fucked up.

I don't know why but the next thing I did was call Hobi hyung.

He picked it up within the second ring and answered in a whispering tone.

"Yaa Jiminah! Where are you guys? Is... Byeol okay?!"

"Hyung...she..she is crying." I said as tears formed in my eyes even without my conscious.

"SHE IS CRYINGGGGGG?" he shouted making me flinch.

"Yoongi hyung just brought in Namjoon and has started talking to him. We need to know what exactly happened. We are all standing here only."

That's when an idea popped up in my head.

"Hyung, do me a favour. Let the call keep running. I want Noona to hear what all happened directly from Namjoon hyung's mouth itself."

"That's a good idea. I'll do that. But are you sure about this, because as much as this can solve things, this can also complicate things Jiminah.."

"I don't care hyung. I want her to listen and know what happened. That's it." I replied and sat on my knees in front of her as all the three saw my face with confusion as I put the phone on speaker.

"Okay, then Jiminah. I'll do it. I'm only doing this for Byeol and Namjoon."

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AT THE DORM:
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NAMJOON'S POV:

They saw it. She saw it.

I messed up. I made her dream come true. I broke the promise which I made just yesterday.

I just wanted to run away somewhere, but again I actually wanted to fall into my feet, place my head on her lap and explain everything until she stops me.

I cannot dare to lose her at any cause. This is all a misunderstanding...

I stood near the door, without knowing if I should go in or..

I was just completely blank as what happened the previous day and the pain on my Y/N's face just too much handle.

I hurt her. Very badly. But her silence is what is killing me.

Definitely, if I was in her place I would have slapped the other person, saying that they cheated me but..

"Please move, Namjoon" she said as Jimin took her hands and the four of them left the dorm making me dumbstruck.

Did she just call me Namjoon? That word hadn't come out of her mouth for over a long time..but what else can I expect from her. She has the right to be angry with me.

If only I hadn't left the her yesterday..

Once they left the dorm, Suga hyung got up from the seat and pulled me inside with a force while Jin hyung locked the door.

His grip over my hands was too strong that it started paining a bit.

"Hyung stop! What are you doing?!" I asked pulling my hand away from his grasp. I was already in a bad state..where is even taking me? But again, it's a good thing only. I have to give my explanation to them too.

Just when Yoongi hyung started to say something, a phone's vibration on the table interrupted him.

Y/N's phone.

Yoongi hyung took the phone in his hands and the call got cut at the exact same moment.

He saw the screen, scrolling it a bit and sighed.

Jin hyung and Hoseok's expression were not good too.

"What am I doing? I should be asking you. WHAT ARE YOU DOING NAMJOONAH?!" he shouted as I stood there facing the three of them, not knowing what to do.

"See this. Just see this." He said showing her phones lock screen, which had a lot of messages and calls from..Jay.

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13 missed calls from Jay💀💜
5 new messages from Jay💀💜
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Jay💀💜
Byeol

Jay💀💜
Byeol!!

Jay💀💜
Pick up your
phone!!

Jay💀💜
Are you okay?

Jay💀💜
I just saw
the tweet.

Jay💀💜
All this is
Nothing..

Jay💀💜
Stay strong!

Jay💀💜
Plsss reply
girlll

Jay💀💜
You're making me
worried

Jay💀💜
This must be
a misunderstanding

Jay💀💜
Don't take
this to
Your head..pls

Jay💀💜
Don't be
sensitive af!!

Jay💀💜
Pls be okay..
I love you

I messed up big time. I know that she is sensitive and I shd'nt have let this happen...

"You read that didn't you?"

"Yes hy-

"SHE IS CRYINGGGGGG?!?" I heard Hoseok shouting over his phone.

My heart literally clenched when I heard that She was crying. How badly I wish I could pull her into a kiss.

"You heard this too. Okay, chuck a that. Do you remember the way both of you ended sleeping? The day when we all stayed at Byeol's dorm? You both were literally glued to each other as if there was no tomorrow. And yesterday you were all romantic towards her in a live show in front of millions of people. Okay, leave that too. Didn't you like just make a confession to all us just before few days?!"

"Yes hyung..yes." I said as all the things that hyung was uttering were completely true, but was only poking me even more.

"Then what in the world happened yesterday? And what the hell is this tweet?? Well, before that do tell us one thing. I definitely remember you telling all of us that you were going to visit Younha only that day but you came back and told us that Sejin hyung called you. Why would you do that? What is happening Namjoonah?" And that's the point when I knew that I shdnt be hiding anything. At least not anymore..

FLASHBACK:

THE PREVIOUS NIGHT:

Younha, this is all too much. She has been like texting me almost every day ever since I met her that day at the cafe.

Not that the cafe encounter was very smooth or something. But I still remember the way she was throwing herself on me.

And now she is texting me again saying that there is an emergency, which I definitely don't believe..and wants to meet me right now.

I don't want to leave Y/n and go anywhere at all. Not even a bit. But this woman is spamming me very badly. Oh god.

And on another side Y/N had been calling me and yes, I want to go and spend time with her too.

But this woman is taking the shit out of me.

"Hmm..Y/N" I called her without taking my eyes off my screen.

"What?" She asked me and I knew at that instant that she was irritated as I wasn't paying attention to her.

"You go to the dorm first." I said not meeting her eyes again.

I'm sorry baby.. hurting you is not my intention.

"But.." she started but I interrupted right away.

"There is somewhere I need to go..right now..I'll be back in half an hour." I said getting up as I pulled my coat over my body.

"Get home safely alright. See you." I said and left her without even accepting the hug as I knew that if I give in, I wouldn't be able to move away from her.

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Here she is. Standing right in front of me. Younha.

But first of all. Didn't she get any other place for us to meet? Some random hotel? With the waiters moving here and there. I dare not remove my mask.

She was all alone, gulping down the hot alcohol eyeing me up and down.

"I really didn't want to be rude but what is that you want Younha ssi? You've been texting and calling me like every day. And do you even know what time it is right now? I'm sure that we could have had our conversation some time later too!" I said as she came forward gulping down a full glass yet again.

"You are right. We could have had our conversation later. But she wouldn't have left you.. correct?"

What is talking about?

"What do yo-"

"How is she? How is Ms. World known Byeol? She is fine right? Yeah, of course, she will. Now that she is having you.."

What the hell? Why is she bringing Y/N here?!

"Now where is this topic even going Younha ssi? What is your problem?" I asked, no shouted as she drank another full glass of her alcohol. At this rate, I'm sure that she is gonna end up being tipsy.

"What is my problem? YOU. YOU ARE MY PROBLEM KIM NAMJOON." she said holding her glass in one hand and reached me placing her other hand around my neck.

And again. I don't like this close contact.

"You need to calm down
You are drunk. Please sit." I said trying to take her hands off me but it only made her stick to me even more.

"I...I want you Namjoon. I like you sooo muchhh. Ever since you stepped inside my office for winter flower's collaboration...only you've been there on my brain..I really like you.." oh my lord.

"If you still didn't get a hint of that..you really must be a fool.."

I knew it and this is exactly what I never wanted to happen.

"Younha ssi. You are really drunk and you don't know what you are saying. Please call your manager and go back to your house safely." I said trying my best to control myself as I didn't like her bringing in Y/N into our conversation at all.

"See, even now you care for me. Don't you?. I know I know. That Byeol is just a toy for you and she is most probably just using you for the time sake. You come to me Namjooniee..I know you actually like me too. Screw that woman Byeol. Let her go somewhere..." And that's exactly when I lost it.

"WILL YOU STOP THIS SHIT FOR GOD SAKE? THERE IS SOMEONE WHOM I CARE AND LOVE AND WHO WOULD BE WAITING FOR ME EVEN NOW. AND THAT SOMEONE IS BYEOL ONLY. SO JUST CUT THIS OUT. PLEASE." I shouted pushing her away from my grasp which only made her laugh loudly.

"Oh god Namjoon...do you think I can't make you mine? Do you think I can't make her disappear out of your sight? What does she even have that I don't have huh?" She asked gulping down the whole bottle of that liquor.

"What she has that you don't have? She has my heart. And you know what? Fuck you. Do whatever the hell you want. You won't be able to achieve what you want. Goodbye." I said raising my mask back and turned towards the exit.

"Namj-"

Great. She lost her conscious.

She was lying down like the pathetic woman she is. Now, what do I do?

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PRESENT:

"Now you itself tell me hyung. What would you have done at the moment? She just fell down, losing her conscious after spattering all rubbish. Her manager wasn't there. There wasn't anyone except for the perverts who were eyeing her badly. So I was put in a situation where I really couldn't leave a woman just like that..and I didn't want unnecessary chaos or want Y/N or you guys to think something else and that's why I changed the name last time.. " I said taking a long breath while the others stood speechless.

"And yes, as you would have guessed, she woke up this morning and the first thing I did was leave her and come back to the dorm when she tweeted that crap." I said as Hobi came forward and hugged me tight.

"Oh god, Namjoon..What all you went through.." he said patting me.

But I only wanted to see Y/N right now..

"Namjoon, just find a way to convince Byeol too...she wasn't in a good state when she left the dorm.." Jin hyung said as I nodded my head.

"You better talk and satisfy her. Don't make her think otherwise." Suga hyung said almost in a threatening way.

But I honestly don't know how I'm gonna talk to her.

"Well, I don't think that would be needed.." Hoseok said smirking. What was that for?

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Y/N'S POV:

"Jimin let's go to the dorm. Right now. Please." I said wanting to see Joon the next moment as I stood up approaching the car in which we came.

I feel so pathetic right now after hearing Joon say everything. How can I even think of something like that? I honestly feel bad for calling him Namjoon in the first place.

Hold on. If someone has to be blamed, it's not I or Joonie.

Younha.

I swear to god, if she comes face to face I don't know what I'll do to her. She will make me disappear, is it? Let's see.

"And Taehyung ah , Jungkook ah this was the same person who was pouring out her eye before some time." Jimin said as the of them started laughing making me roll my eyes.

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Yes, we just entered the dorm and noticed Jin, Hobi, and Yoongles sitting on the couch while Mr. I'm soo innocent Joon was sitting on the floor.

I was going to run and jump on him the moment I saw him but...

Wait a minute.

I should get back at least a bit for him to leave me just like that yesterday. Shdnt I?

Yes, I will.

But at the same time I wanted to know what 'confession' yoongles was talking about to Joon.

I then kept standing at the same place looking at everyone except for Joon while he started scrunching his nose knowing what I was doing.

"Sit down Byeol ah. How long do you want to stand?  Let's watch a movie and then have our breakfast." Jin said but it only made me search for a place to sit.

All the six of them occupied the couch, leaving Joon and I alone and I exactly know what they are planning to do.

"And where do you guys expect me to sit? I'm going to sleep. Already lost it because of someone." I said looking at the others.

"But Noona, there is this place which you are comfortable in. You can sit in Rap Mon hyung's lap." Jungkook said smirking.

I know guys. I know. You were all planning for this only to happen. And I noticed Joon slowly raising his hands up, motioning me to sit.

"But don't you think that his lovable Younha would love to sit in that place more than me?" I asked raising my eyebrows but sat on his lap at the same time which made him wrap his hands around my waist. Tightly.

Go to hell Byeol. His touch is something which I can never neglect...

The movie then started and was going half the way through when I felt slow kisses all along my shoulder blade which was slowly approaching my neck.

"What are you doing Joon..?" I asked him, not wanting him to stop at all.

"Oh you can now talk is it?" He said as he started leaving wet kisses which started making me wet. Straight.

No Byeol. You can't let this happen.

Take control.

Thank god that the lights were all off and the others were deeply immersed in the film I sta-

Did something just because h-hard under my ass? Fuck.

NAMJOON'S POV:

Who in the world asked her to move that pretty ass of hers? Now I'm...hard. shit.

Well, common don't judge me. I may be RM of BTS but even I'm a man with needs. I cannot control myself all the time can I? And when it's her, directly sitting on top of my dick.. I can't help it.

And now realising what's been happening underneath surprisingly, she started grinding on me, making me lose my sanity.

She started moving her hips in the most exact way for me to feel the friction making me go crazy. It was such a big turn on, but I cannot handle it anymore. Not here at least.

"Y/N..." I called her, which only made her smirks she continued rocking. How badly I wish I could rip the clothes of her right now.

"Baby.. please stop. I-I cannot take it.." I said as she increased her speed.

"You have N-No idea as to what you are doing baby..don't make me punish you later..I swear you w-wont be able to walk.." I said as her actions stopped immediately while I bit her neck, which I'm sure would leave marks behind,  leaving open-mouthed kisses which only made her neck to bend towards the other side giving me more access to it as I continued leaving even more sloppy kisses all over her neck, making her control the sounds coming out because of what I was doing, as she covered her mouth.
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