"tere bina guzara
ae dil hai mushkil"

ISHAN

All the rituals were done and today we were supposed to return back to Mumbai.

The morning started with Shiku waking me up by poking fingers into my eyes. "Are utho na kitna sote hai ye!", he was saying pointing at me.

"Are baba uth Gaya", I said sitting up.

He made a face at me and went away. I was in slumber when someone entered the room.

"Tum uth gaye?", said Janhavi.

I looked up to see her dressed in a pale blue sari, with the pallu open and her hair, open and dripping wet. She was looking ethereal.

"Dekh kya rahe ho?", she asked consciously looking at herself.

"Tumhe" I replied honestly.

She opened her mouth but closed it again. Pressing her lips tightly, she came closer to me. She bended forward to have a clear view of my face.

Is she going to kiss me?
Shit shit shit I haven't brushed yet!

"Tumhari tabiyat thik haina? You look very tired.", she said putting her palm on my forehead to check my temperature.

Kya soch raha tha main. Chutiya

"Why is your heart beating so fast? Bahar tak sunaai de rahi hai! Your temperature is kinda high as well", she asked in a concerned tone.

She looked at me with questioning eyes.

"Should I call a doctor?", she asked.

"Dil ki kya galti? Aap hamare itne kareeb kadhi rahengi to dhadkan to badhegi hi na? Upar se itni sundar dikhrahi hain", I said touching her cheeks.

"You're acting like a schoolboy jisne pehli baar apne crush ko sari mein dekha ho", she said chuckling and blushing.

I was blushing so badly that I couldn't muster up a reply.

She smirked at me.

Suddenly, my phone started buzzing, interrupting the seclusion. I looked at the caller ID to see that my lawyer was calling.

As soon as I picked up the phone and put it on speaker so that Janhavi would be able to hear as well, the lawyer started speaking, seemingly annoyed.

"Ishan sir I called Vivaan sir thrice, he didn't pick up the call so I finally called you. Sir you know very well that divorce cases take atleast six months. Maine bohot difficulty se ye hearing itni jaldi arrange karwaya tha. I understand that you have an emergency but kal hi hearing ka last date hai. If you guys postpone it then main aur kuch nahi kar paunga. You'll have to wait for atleast six months for the divorce then", he finished at a go.

A looked up at Janhavi to see her reaction. She looked very tensed and had started sweating in a cold AC room. She was looking down, not making an eye contact at me intentionally.

"Ishan sir? You're there?", spoke the lawyer to break my trance.

"Uh yes wait a moment", I said.

I looked at Janhavi again, if I saw even a trace of sadness on her face, I'll cancel this fucking divorce.

But no, she was not sad. She seemed to be mentally preparing herself, she was looking determined.

So she is ready for the divorce.

She looked up at me, and smiled faintly. I searched her eyes for a hint of pain? But there was none. They were looking calm yet fierce and beautiful ofcourse.... This ain't the time to get lost in her eyes.

Yes ofcourse she is ready.

"Uh, I guess we will make it to the court tomorrow. Please text me the timings and other details", I said.

"Okay sir thank you", and he hanged the call.

Before I could say anything to Janhavi, she left the room.

JANHAVI

Not gonna lie, I get so flattered by his flirting skills. And he looks so kissable when he blushes!! Oh yes, I forgot to mention, over the past few days of us living in Bihar, I have got rid of Ishan 'ji' and call him just Ishan. I have also discovered a new side of him. Man he flirts soo well!

I couldn't help but smirk at his furious blushing.

Just then his phone rang, he picked up the call and put in on speaker. It was the lawyer. He told us that we need to strictly visit the court by tomorrow.

The blush that had crept on my cheeks instantly vanished. Oh yes, we are going through a divorce case. The fact that my Maa was no more was already too much to bear, now loosing Ishan ji? I can't.

Urghh god what am I even thinking.

Okay Janhavi you got this, you spent the half of your life alone and that's your destiny. Did you even expect that someone would actually last in your life?

Yes you did I guess...

But that ain't happening. You are too simple and undeserving for someone like Ishan.

Just get a hold on yourself and stop thinking shit.

I looked up at Ishan ji, who was already looking at me. He was literally boring into my eyes.

What if he cancels the divorce?

Keep your crappy thoughts to yourself!

I couldn't let him see my vulnerability, that I'm already so attached to him. I tried my best to put up a confident look and smiled at him. Don't know how good I did but, Ishan ji seemed persuaded.

Or maybe that's what he wants, maybe he cares for me just because he's such a gentleman. Just because I'm his wife till now.... Just because we are getting separated. Just because I won't have him by my side anymore.

"Uh, I guess we will make it to the court tomorrow. Please text me the timings and other details",he said.

And this was it...The end of my hopes.

I ran out the room, and definitely a tear left my eyes.. perhaps something had got into my eyes? Isn't it?

Suddenly, a intriguing memory hit me, flashes of Ishan kissing me... directly on the lips. He was literally lying on me, his bare chest touching the visible cleavage of mine, and kissing me intensely. The feeling was ethereal..

What the fuck? Have I totally lost it?

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