"yeh raat bheegi bheegi
yeh mast fizayeein"

JANHAVI

Ishan ji came closer to me. "You don't seem to be okay."
I opened my mouth to say something but he interrupted me. "Kya kya bola usne? Aapko mere baare mein kuch jaanna tha toh mujhe hi puch leti. Main utna bhi bura nahi hu ki jhooth bolunga"

Damn he is misunderstanding me!

"Ishan ji I didn't...."
"You wanted to know main kaisa insaan hu? Toh phir aur kuch din reh leti mere saath?"
"Main..."
"Did she show you our pictures together? Did you judge me?"

He was overthinking. I had to stop him. I put a hand on shoulders as a gesture for him to stop.

"Ishan ji aisi koi baat nahi hai. I didn't go to her for any of these okay?"
"Toh kyu gayi thi? Kyu?" he voice was breaking down.
"I.. I just wanted to know why she cheated on you."
"And what did she reply?" he laughed.

I looked down. I couldn't convey whatever she actually said.

He came closer to me. We had never been this close before.

"Janhavi ji?" he whispered with a desperate look on his face.

I gulped down, the close proximity making my throat dry. "Mai..." I was stuttering.

"Ishan ji whatever she said doesn't matter. All that matters is that she is not a good person and you won't be happy with her" I said in one breath.

Ishan ji chuckled, "So you went to her to patch up things between us?"

I nodded slowly, no voice coming out my throat.

"Why do you hate me so much?" He asked.
"Hate? You?" I looked up at him with confusion.
"Yes... Or else why would you try to get rid of me so bad?"
"I'm trying to get rid of you? Seriously... Wait Ishan ji are you drunk?"
"A bit I guess"
"Ishan ji I'm no way trying to get rid of you. I was just trying to..."
He cut me off "Make my life better?"
"Ishan ji I know how it feels to be betrayed by your loved one's. It had really hurt me when you told me how you felt alone after being.. you know.. by her"

The word cheating is better not used.

"I just wanted to know that..." I became quiet, literally out of words.
"Janhavi.. staying with you doesn't make me feel alone u know" he whispered, his lips very close to my ears.

I looked into his eyes, the dark brown eyes that were already boring into me.

Is the divorce affecting him?
No why would it? I am unworthy of him.

I looked down, unable to stand his intense gaze.

"Janhavi why do you also want to leave me? Am I that bad? Everyone leaves me?" He is teary?

"Ishan ji you are the nicest person I've ever met" I passed him a tight smile.

He came closer, placing both of his hands on my shoulders.

"Then why are you leaving me? Why do you want a divorce?"

Okay cool down, he's just drunk.

"You should go to sleep Ishan ji"
"And you should answer me" he said.

What's happening to me? breathe Janhavi breath.

"Ishan ji is it only me who wants the divorce?" I asked him.
"Yes obviously" he said to my utter surprise.
"But you urged the lawyer to make it as soon as possible, even if it's illegal?"
"Just because I thought you wouldn't want to live with me for six more months" he replied.
I looked at him with disbelief in my eyes.

So both of us were having misunderstandings.

"I like your company" he said.
"Me too" I replied honestly.
"Can't we just give it a try?"

No Ishan ji we can't. I'm not suitable for someone like you. You deserve the world.

I looked down, unable to face him.

"Good night Ishan ji" was all I could say and went to our bedroom.

"Good night" I heard him mutter.

ISHAN

"Good night Ishan ji" she said and went away.

This is the worst thing I've ever done. I'm never ever listening to Shubi ever again. We spend literally three hours planning this whole drama.

Literally he made me act drunk???

God bless me! And all this just to get rejected. But in the corner of my mind, I knew perfectly well that if I hadn't acted drunk, I wouldn't have been able to ask all that and.... get that close to her.

Her hair smelt so nice.

Why am I getting carried away!

But I couldn't understand one thing. If it wasn't the hate or dislike for me then why was she so keen for a divorce? I know our marriage is a bit complicated but it's similar like a arranged marriage only? Why is she so hesitant?

She went to Aditi to patchup things between us just because I said I felt betrayed and lonely? I'm so sure Aditi had insulted her but still she was so calm and composed.

Did she show our intimate kinda nude pictures to her?Oh my god what if she actually showed them to her?

But I'm not her husband after all, I don't think it even affected her.

I went to the bedroom, to see that the lights were on but Janhavi.. ji. Shit I called her Janhavi while being... sorry, acting drunk.

She had already slept,  or pretending to sleep atleast.

I pulled the sheet over her and I could sense that she was wide awake, but kept her eyes closed as tight as possible so that she doesn't have to face me.

I pulled out my phone to see 31 texts from Shubi.
Kya huya? Did she agree in cancelling the divorce? Tune acche se acting nahi ki haina?.......

Me
Kya bekar suggestion di tune Bhai

Shubi
Pani pher diya na tune pura?

Me
Bohot acchi acting ki maine. Par Maine divorce ki baat boli to goodnight bolke chali gayi🙂

Shubi
Both of you are so fucked up

Me
I k

Shubi
Did you do the close aane waala part?

Me
Haan she was flustered.
Bro her hair smells amazing I'll have to ask the shampoo brand someday.

Shubi
How do you manage to be so creepy? Smelling her hair? Did I ask you to get 'sooo' close?

Me
What's wrong in that?
I'm her husband after all.

Shubi
Caught you in 4k

Me
What?

Shubi
You called yourself her husband baby 🐥
You ARE IN LOVE WITH HER

Me
I'm definitely not.
It was just a slip of tongue
I did all these just because you were begging me to

Shubi
You know this is a lie. Come on Ishu
Even if I accept that you are not in 'LOVE' with her, then also you have got attached to her trust me.

Maybe he's right?

Me
Okay I surrender dude
I like her.

Shubi
That's more like my boy😘

Me
Good night 🙄

Shubi
Bhabhi ji se conversation end karne ki skills bhi sikh rahe ho🌚

Me
Just shut up 

Shubi
Haan abhi aur meri baat pasand ayegi kaise

Me
Chal benstokes sone ja

Shubi
Haan haan Jaa Raha hu. Good night 😘
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