trigger warning : mentions of EDs, depression, etc.

Dear Jade,
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-halosangel-)

My sweet girl, Jade. How's your tour been so far? I did see some highlights and you looked absolutely gorgeous. You are really so special and marvellous in your own way and I swear I miss you so much.

Anyways, how's Paris? I know you love everything about there and I still remember some of our moments together there. Just strolling through the streets, drinking some coffee, newspaper in hand and talking randomly about everything in our lives. Thinking about it makes me nostalgic. I know you're away for work and even though I'm in London right now, a hundred miles away from you, I crave for your presence by me whenever I watch Netflix or play a game on my PSP. Your soft giggles filling in the air, you throwing yourself on me and both of us falling on the couch together. It's like this void everywhere I walk that I feel in your absence.

I know it's your job. You're so innately talented. I'm seriously so proud of you and how you've come so far. You're no less than an angel. You've changed my life. Those moments I spent not eating a single stuff, making my mom worried for me and all my sisters got anxious about it - you came into the picture, one autumn day, at a little party. I saw you in a corner, standing alone and avoiding the crowds.

And for a moment, the world seemed to stop when you looked into my eyes.

My heart skipped a beat, giving me palpitations. There was lightning in my soul, for the first time in forever did I feel that someone understood me. You came into my life, painted it with your colours and helped me get through those gruesome eating disorders and emotional breakdowns I'd have. I remember when you stood outside the bedroom door when I locked it up and sat inside crying. I could hear faint sounds of you sobbing on the other side. It broke my heart into pieces. I couldn't see my world crumbling down anytime soon. I love you more than words can even describe.

Going on a tour is so hectic. It just reminds me of the time I had when I was in One Direction with the other lads. That jet lag, sleeping during rehearsals, eating hotel food for months and using other's toothbrushes, haha those are some fond memories. But I hope you have been taking good care of your health because you're so important to me and I don't want anything to hurt you in the slightest bit. You're beautiful just the way you are. Your hardwork is really showing off and I'm honestly so fucking proud of my babe.

I hope you're taking care. Sending you loads of hugs, kisses and cuddles. Can't wait to meet you again. Text me after your Paris show! I'm eager to know which people you met and what experiences you had.

Yours sincerely,
Zayn Malik.

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Lots of love,
Anurima.