ALESSANDRO'S POV

I woke up in the middle of the night. I check the clock on my nightstand, it's two in the morning. I tried to go back to sleep, moving from side to side but nothing worked. I turned on my back, staring up at the ceiling, waiting for a miracle for my eyes to shut, yet it never happened.

I sat on the bed with a slight headache reaching down my neck. I was about to shake my head, but then remembered that wouldn't help. I placed both my hands on the soft mattress and pushed myself up, guess I won't be getting any more sleep for the night. I walked in the bathroom with half my eyes open, god just knock me out right here. I sighed before running my hands down my face, only if I was normal.

Since I was young I have had this sleeping issue. It started when I was strictly training. I would lay on the bed for hours, just sit there looking at the ceiling, waiting for sleep to take me. To take away all the thoughts, worries, but it never did.

Sleeping was the only thing that kept me going for the next day, it was these couple hours where I would find peace. Although, it never lasted. I would wake up late at night and if I woke up, it's over for the night. It's this chemical thing in my body that pushes away all the slumber left in me.

I let the cold water arouse my face, watching it dripping down my face slowly. I grabbed a towel, soaking in the water on my face. I went back to the room. I stood in the middle, thinking what to do at two o'clock, past midnight. I will never get out of this misery. I let myself walk towards the door and got out. I reached the first floor as I made my way towards the kitchen. I opened the fridge, grabbed the cartoon of apple juice along with a glass and rested my body on the front of the fridge, drinking in silence.

I stood there, waiting for the thoughts to kick in, to fill in the silence, but it never came. When I finished my non helpful drink, I didn't feel like washing the glass so I left it in the sink. Maybe I can explore this place a little bit. We're leaving tomorrow, so why not.

This house is all right. This place originally was my father's. He would visit on the weekends, business and shipments. I own a couple of houses down the city. This one was closer to Armando's house so it would be easier to take off from here. It's a basic two floor house with two kitchens along with many bedrooms connected to its own bathroom and a long balcony in the front of the house. I enjoyed sitting on a balcony for hours, it didn't bother me, it never did. In a million years, I would never get over how dark the sky flatter, holding glowing stars. The feeling on its own is marvellous.

I decided to take off from the kitchen, the balcony is calling me. I chuckled before making my way out, heading to the balcony. I walked down the hallway, a slight feeling of excitement running through my veins. I stood in front of the glass door for a second before grabbing the knob and getting in. The second I opened the door, steeping my foot inside, I felt the arctic air create chills down my body, leaving a smile on my face. I closed the door behind me, getting closer to the barrier. I rested my arms as I looked up, feeling everything vanish, blur, as if nothing ever existed in this world. It's peaceful.

I've always wondered how life would be if each person had their own world, where each one of us were the only one living in it, creating, working, failing, succeeding, everything on our own. Life is already a circle of working on yourself, getting it on your own, teaching you to be self-determining. Only if you give it a chance, allow it to show you the beauty it holds. The happy ending, that's waiting for you. This world surrounds us with many gifts, blessings to make us stronger, secure. It will get difficult, you will want to give up. But sometimes, the world doesn't let you give up. That's why you fight for air until the last breath you take. Even your own body won't let you give up. You just have to open your eyes and realize how important you are, not to the world, but to yourself.

Know your worth, grow strength to be able to stand in front of any complication, any obstacle because if you don't start right now, you'll find yourself at the finishing line without your happy ending. That's why you never despair.

I was lost deeply in my thoughts, when I recognized the sound of the same twin turbo I have been hearing for the last two months. I took my arms off the barrier, getting closer to the edge of the balcony. Venom was in her car, driving towards the gates. I saw her get out, disappearing into the fog. I kept staring in the dark for a few seconds. No time to waste.

I rushed out of the balcony, going back to my room. I walked in and went straight to my to my nightstand, I grabbed the keys of my Supra. I made my way downstairs, getting out of the house. I wasn't going to follow her, I'm just going with her and I know I was never invited but I couldn't care less.

I got in, putting the key into the ignition and drove off. I pushed harder on the gas brake, hoping she didn't go far. The cars arrived here about six hours after we finished with the russians. I realized we will be staying here for a couple days and Venom would probably need her car so I called Dante and made him ship the cars to us.

I have to go visit Armando's family tomorrow. They're the most delightful, kind hearted people I have ever met. They always find a way to make you smile. I never smiled but there were these couple of people who filled up my loneliness, replacing all the irate, rage with pure, genuine joy.

I enjoyed being alone. I didn't need gatherings nor a huge hang out to have fun with my life. I didn't need to be normal. A lot of people in my world always wish for a normal life, a normal job, however I never did. This life sure is violent, vigorous, but so am I.

I loved each second of it, the feeling of winning in the end was irreplaceable. Of course there was the feeling of failure, losing after you worked your hardest but when you get back up and win, succeeding the way you should and deserve is priceless. It will get lonely and it will get difficult, well this is life. This is the world we live in. You either fight it, or watch it defeat you.

And when you're fighting, it's not a battle between you and life, it's between you and your incertain self. That little hesitant voice, the one that makes you back away from what's right. The one that will make you regret becoming a better person, and you're part is to shut it.

I kept speeding, a slight feeling of worry running through my body that I won't find her, but it all went away when I saw the back of her car. I got distracted from her car by a sound of lightning before it started raining, really hard. I listened to the sound, closing my eyes for a second, taking a moment to appreciate nature at its best. I looked up at the sky, watching the light fill in the darkness above us. My eyes found their way back to Venom's car, she was in front of me with a couple of miles. I rolled down the windows, feeling the cold water falling from the sky hitting my face with the fresh oxygen travelling through my lungs, letting out a soft sigh of peace. I pushed harder on the gas brake, feeling my heart beat faster. I don't know what it is, that feeling filling up my body, wanting to stay there forever. I felt placid, serenity.

I finally reached Venom's car. I looked to my right out of the window, waiting for her to notice me. And when she did my whole world stopped, the same effect she had on me since the day I saw her in the basement. Since the day I have been able to look into her magical, iridescent eyes. They matched the alluring sky, brightening the darkness in them by a sharp, powerful lightning. I could get lost in these eyes over and over for the rest of my life. Just by looking in them made the whole world invisible, where only her light, heavenly hazel eyes existed.

I felt a smile grow on my face, with a feeling of warmth rushing through my face. I kept my eyes on her, not letting go, how could I. She finally turned her head, catching my eyes, holding them invincibly, allowing me to drown in them peacefully. She kept one hand on the wheel, but both her eyes on me. I felt distinctive. At this moment we're living, this moment we're allowed to live, I felt grateful. It might not be at its best but right now, it didn't matter. Nothing mattered, at this moment it all felt unreal, it felt we're both escaping reality, escaping this world. Leaving it all behind, fly away with a storm, fly away to a place it can't reach us, leaving us in a peaceful place where it's only the two of us. A world where this moment lasts as it ends, a world with no words, no actions, just looking into each other's eyes with no worry and with no one but her.

I let out a loud sigh as I moved my head gently, keeping the same smile on my face. God what is she doing to me, what are you doing to me Venom.

I watched her wet divine hair fly out of the window, remembering the first time I saw her letting it down. Same position, same situation. She looked absolutely stunning, like she always does. I swear I saw her smile and not a small, polite smile. Her smile lighted her whole face and mostly lighted my heart.

I felt a sharp, warm feeling hit my heart deeply. I couldn't get rid of it, and I didn't want to. Her smile is so compassionate, dazzling. The one that held this strong effect on you, the one that makes you attached in a matter of a second. And It all went away in one struck of lightning.

Her car disappeared from my side with the sound of the clouds crashing into each other. I looked back at the front, she was speeding, really really fast. I felt my smile turn into a smirk before I grabbed the stick shift, pushing harder on the gas brake as the freezing air hit my face.

It was all perfect. The weather, the rain, the thunder, and mostly her. I've never felt more thankful to wake up in the middle of the night. I always wished to never wake up, stay asleep like normal people, enjoy the feeling of relaxation, until today. It all changed in just an hour. Years and years of wishing, dreaming and now it all changed. I finally was able to find the beauty in waking up at night. To see this, feel this, this new feeling I couldn't figure out but was for sure precious. I always worked my hardest to find the benefits in this world, in my world. I think and dig deeply on what this is trying to teach me and what I should learn from it. To find its beauty, yet waking up was the only thing I couldn't figure out, the only darkness where I couldn't find its light. But today, I found light in the darkness. I found her in my darkness.

She made everything easy, beautiful, filled with courage and confidence. She might not show emotions nor speak to me but somehow I receive all of these emotions from her, emotions she's not even feeling.

It's crazy, absolutely demented. A woman I once hated for how great she is, for the amount of talents she had and now she's waking all these feelings, warmth, affection, intensity. Emotions I didn't know existed until the day I met her. Am I mad about it, no.

I saw her from a short distance, making a u-turn. I followed her without questioning any second of it. We kept driving down the long road. The thunderstorm was already gone. The wind softened, leaving this rainy, pure sent after it. Then I noticed she was taking the road back to the house. A part of me wanted to keep hold on the moment, take another destination, another path. Yet a part of me knew this would end either way. We'll wake up in the morning separately, each one on their own path.

I always aspired to know her, to grow close into each other's warmth. To earn loyalty and trust from her. I never wished for anyone's attention nor friendship but she's not anyone.

For the love of god, how could you not be interested in such a woman. She's full of these actions, movements, life. That pulls you down deeply, it grows your curiosity to the point you want to fill it no matter what. You would do anything, give up anything to reach the answers, to end the wonders.

But that only happens, when the opposite person allows you. Even if you find it on your own, find your own way, it won't be the same. The feeling of gaining trust and allegiance is valuable to a current point that you can't forget. You can't forget the day someone relied on you, the day they believed in you and let you into their world with the intuition of protection and conservation.

The sight of the huge gates of the house pulled me out of my astonishment. Making me give a quick sign to the guard to open them. Both of the cars were driven up the short highway and parked in the entrance. I picked up my keys, grabbing the door handle and got out. My eyes caught Venom, waiting for me at the door. I smiled softly before rushing to her side. She can get in, it was unlocked and she knew it.

We got in and stood on the small rug, letting it take in the water falling down from our wet clothes. I watched Venom slowly grab all her hair with both of her hands and squeezed it hard, making more water come out. We were both covered with wet cloth due to the rain. I looked around the house then back to where we stood and felt myself laughing. It wasn't a laugh out of embarrassment nor something being funny. It's out of joy and admiration of this moment.

We were both standing on a twenty inches of a synthetic material. Hoping it would soak in all the water and mess we caused. We couldn't move, unless we wanted to clean first thing in the morning. My eyes fell back on Venom, capturing her staring at me. My laugh vanished away when I saw the softest smile curl up her lips, making her whole face lighten up, making her eyes so clear, so alive.

The light brown suddenly melted into this bright amber. They're so soulful and deep, filled with mystery and wisdom. Resembling the warmth of the sun, the rich dark soils fertile with life, and irresistible like a bear drawn to honey.

I was ready to stay there for the rest of my life, no movement, no words. It's worth it, she's worth it.

I watched her full lips open slightly letting out a soft sigh before she walked away, leaving me all alone again. And in a second she has already disappeared into the dark. I stood there for a few minutes, taking in slowly what happened. Not that it was much but it felt so much more. I finally was able to pull myself out of it, and took myself quietly upstairs, ready for a cold shower.

I let the water hit each part of my body, letting it take away any thought left in my mind. Not wanting to disturb the little amusing feeling travelling through my body. I know deep down when I wake up in the morning it will be gone, but I'm ready to hold on as long as I can. It brought out something in me, I wanted it to last longer, to figure it out. Yet I couldn't find the source of it. What made me feel that way. I have got no IDEA.

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