Queen

"You dumbass bitch," I whispered to myself as I looked in the mirror. "You're strong, what the hell happened in there?"

You can't lie, it was amazing.

"Ugh true," I said to myself. "But never, ever again."

Correction, not until he tells you the truth.

"Yes, that," I said unsurely. I'd be insane to never be with Syn intimately again. The best I could do was stay strong until he was honest with me. Then and then only would I MAYBE, let everything go.

I looked at my frazzled hair and bloody neck and images of what happened passed through my mind. My hand trailed over the healed part of my neck and I sighed. Damn.

I let out a breath and walked away from the mirror before I could have any more sexual thoughts. I turned on the shower and stepped into the hot water and let it glide over my skin. I closed my eyes to wash my hair and my imagination began to run wild.

I pictured Syn coming in here and taking me against the cool wall as he did in the past and I ran my hand down my face. Get a grip, Queen. I opened my eyes and continued cleaning my body of all traces of the sins we just committed in the room.

When I was done, I air dried as I blow-dried my wet hair in front of the mirror. After a few minutes, I ran a hand through my dry hair and put on a towel as I opened the door. I walked out of the restroom to see the sheets on the bed completely changed.

My eyes landed on Syn sitting on the edge of the bed with new pants on and a towel on his head. He held a book in his hands and I stopped myself from admiring him any more than I already had. He looked up in my direction when he felt his eyes on me and I stopped myself from smiling at the thick-framed glasses he was wearing.

I walked past him without saying anything and scurried straight to the closet. "You smell good," I heard him say lowly.

I smiled now that I was alone in the closet and put on my vanilla coconut-scented lotion. Satisfied with my misty riser body, I looked for something to wear.

If I was alone I would've worn another random oversized shirt but seeing as I wasn't, I picked up a see-through black nightie and slid it onto my body. The silk material loosely hugged my curves and ended a smile distance below my butt.

I paired it with black panties and glanced at myself in the mirror before I walked into the room. My eyes fell on Syn again but he wasn't on the floor or the edge of the bed. He was now leaning against the headboard with his ankles crossed as he read the book.

He looked adorable as the white fluffy towel was draped over his head and my cheeks hurt as I tried not to smile. It wasn't until I saw him earlier that I realized how much I missed him over this past month.

I cleared my throat as I walked to the bed and he looked in my direction. His eyes glimmered as he eyed my choice in nightwear and I crawled onto the bed.

"You're matching," he said.

"I am," I muttered.

"That's me," he said softly as he looked back at the book.

"Don't get too happy, this is rare. I just happened to have the same color," I said.

He laughed softly and I sat against the headboard and glanced at the clock beside me. I didn't notice how late it was until now and my head swung back in Syn's direction. His eyes were glued to what he was reading and I looked around awkwardly.

If things were normal between the both of us I would've kissed him and snuggled into his arms, but they weren't.

"You have something to say," he said dryly as he read.

"You changed the sheets," I pointed out.

"Obviously."

"Thanks," I mumbled as I played with the edge of my gown.

"Mhmm."

"What are you reading?"

"A book."

"I see that, but what book?" I asked curiously or make conversation. If he was going to stay in here and not sleep yet, there was no point in there being an awkward silence.

Instead of answering he raised the book and my mouth dropped when I read the title. "Seriously?"

"It's a rather interesting book," he said.

"Why are you reading it?" I groaned.

"Bezy recommended it."

My eyes widened as I searched his features for any hint of humor. When I found none, I looked at him in shock. "Bezy read it?!"

"Yes."

"You knew he was reading it?!"

"Yes."

"And you let him?!"

"I did."

"Why would you do that?"

"Because he can make his own decisions," he said simply.

"That's the thing though, he can't, Syn. These are adult books and he can't make the deci-"

"You should have more faith in him," Syn said calmly. "You'd be surprised at some of the logical decisions he can make."

"What makes you say that?

"I spent a month with the man, Princess. He's smarter than you give him credit for," he said.

"You act like I think he's stupid." He raised a brow at me and I gave him a look in response. "What?"

"You treat him like a kid, Queen," Syn said.

"Because he-"

"Because he what?" He asked with a smirk as he faced me.

I squinted my eyes as I realized I fell into the trap he set for me and I shook my head. "Never mind."

He looked back at the book and I sighed as I clasped my hands together and sat alone. I hated how strange it felt between the two of us when we were usually so close. I knew that I could stop it and just let him back in but what would that say? That he could ghost me for a month and it'd be okay?

No.

"I love the tattoo," he said.

I blinked out of my thoughts and looked in his direction. "Thanks."

"Why did you get it?" He asked.

I sighed as I recounted the moment I got it and I shook my head. "I was grieving," she said. "I got drunk with Xavier one night and we got tattoos of your name."

"Xavier has one too?" He asked.

"Yup, I had to stop him from getting it on his forehead," I admitted.

Syn laughed softly and shook his head. "I suppose this means I should get the both of your names tattooed on me, huh?"

"No, it's fine," I said as I ignored the fluttering in my chest at the idea.

"Why?"

"You don't have to."

"I want to," he said as he turned to me. Our eyes connected as we looked at one another and we got lost in our own world until I looked away.

"Do what you want," I replied lowly.

"I will."

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Author's Note
Ughhh, forgive him Queen😭

I wanna see that tattoo 😭
When it comes to Bezy reading the book, who do y'all agree with?
Lmk your thoughts ✨