Queen

I knew I felt something in my room, but I didn't think it would hurt this much. I'd never seen him as vulnerable as he looked now. My eyes fell back down on the photos on his bed and he waited for me to say something. I just didn't know how.

I would've loved to tell him everything I knew, but Lucifer asked me not to tell him about our past. So how did he find out?

"How do you know abo-"

"What happened to her?!" He asked angrily as he stood up. I looked up at him from the bed and he stared me down with a look I had never seen on him. His red eyes were burning holes in my soul and I was paralyzed to my spot on the bed.

After everything we'd been through, this was the one thing that made him angrier than I've ever seen before. "Syn," I said cautiously. "Sit down."

"Fucking tell me, Queen!"

"She was killed," I answered.

"By who?"

"The Seers," I said quietly as I fidgeted with my fingers in my lap.

"When?" He asked.

"Shortly after you died."

"Why would they do that? I gave them my soul in exchange for hers," he growled. My head moved in his direction at the words and I shook my head.

"What are you talking about?"

"I remember them coming to take her, but I gave up my soul and they told me they'd leave her alone."

"Syn, you never told me that," I whispered as my heart raced. "Why didn't you tell me?! I could've bargained with them if I knew!"

"Don't," he seethed as he held up a finger at me. "I don't remember you being there and if I didn't tell you I'm sure I had a damn good reason."

"She was my daughter. What good reason could there have been?!" I screamed. My thoughts went back to that day and my breath caught. If I had known that Syn made a deal with them, I could've brought it up.

But he kept it from me.

My anger may have been misplaced, but I glared at him and he scoffed at me. "You have no room to be upset at me. I'm not the man who kept it from you. He's gone."

I hated to admit it but he was right. I couldn't be angry at him for an action he didn't remember committing. What truly hurt the most about his words were the last two, he's gone.

I looked up at Syn as he gripped his hair and looked up at the ceiling. Tears were streaming down his face and I could feel his heartbreak as if it were my own. For me, it had been three years since she passed, but for him, it was now.

"Syn," I said softly as I stood up.

He looked down at me and his body shook as his eyes shined with fresh tears. "I can'-...I can't do this." He sat down at the edge of the bed and buried his face in his hands as he broke down.

I cried partly because of how much I missed Xavia, but a greater part of me couldn't bear to see Syn the way he was right now. This was my first time I had ever seeing him cry. Usually, it was the other way around with us.

I stepped between his legs and he wrapped his arms around my hips as he sobbed. My eyes closed, and I tried my best to comfort him, just as he would've done with me.

"I'm going to kill them all," he whispered.

"I know," I replied in a broken voice as I hugged his head.

"Stay with me," he asked against my stomach.

"I-" I stopped myself as I was about to give in to his request. He needed me right now, but I needed to go. Dimitri was forcing me to go to Juva for a few days for an interview for some magazine. He told me this was the only way he wouldn't immediately release his info on Syn after the attack in the restroom. "I can't."

"Why not?" He whispered.

A tear fell as I heard the desperation in his voice but I had no other choice. I sucked in a breath and held back every emotion that was threatening to spill out onto him. "I have to-"

"Be with your fiancé?" He asked as he pulled away. His red and puffy eyes were glued on me as he held a blank expression on his face.

"Yes," I said sadly.

"You're going to leave me right now? To be with him?" He questioned in a low voice.

"I have to..."

"Because you love him," he added. My mouth opened to say something but I couldn't find the words to say. If I said no, he'd stop me. But if I said yes, it'd hurt him. The next look on his face told me that he took my silence as a yes.

"Can you love him later?" He pleaded with a small laugh. "I need you right now."

My eyes watered and I gritted my teeth as I clasped my hands together. "Umm."

"Please," he begged. "I don't care if you love him, just don't leave me right now, Princess."

Princess? I broke down in front of him at the nickname and laid my hands on my knees. The fact that he was beginning to remember things and I was doing this to him, was one of the most painful things in the world.

He reached out to me when he saw me sobbing but I stepped back. I lifted my head to see the hurt look on his already pained face and I let out a breath.

I wasn't just doing this for Syn, I had to do it for James too. He couldn't survive visiting him in prison or worse, watching him be killed. None of us could go through that, so that meant one thing.

I need to be strong as fuck right now.

I wiped my tears and looked back down at him. "I can't, I'm sorry. Goodbye Syn." I turned to leave but I was stopped when he pushed me against the wall and looked down at me. His eyes were impossible for me to look at considering the pain that was in them, but he made me.

He guided my chin upward and I was stuck looking into his mesmerizing green eyes. "How did I marry someone like you?" He asked.

I frowned and furrowed my brows. "What do you mean?"

"You're staying with Dimitri for power, aren't you? The vampire district has become a lot more submissive since the two of you have been together."

"Syn-"

"So for power, he can hurt you, rape..." he trailed off as his eyes closed. "And you'll stay with him."

"Tell me that's not what it is," he whispered. "Tell me you're being forced, that he has something over you—I'll help you with anything."

"He has nothing—"

"Fucking lie to me, damnit!" He yelled as he slammed the wall beside me. I flinched as my body shook with tears but he held my head firmly in place. "Lie to me. I'd rather you tell me you fell out of love with me and married the wrong man than you tell me that I married a greedy, power-hungry, selfish bitch."

I removed my face from his hand and nodded. "I'm everything you think I am," I said weakly.

He dropped his hands and took a step back. "So you're going to leave me."

"I'm sorry, Syn."

"Just get out. I'm glad I don't remember you because this already hurts enough."

I stormed out of the room and straight into mine. I didn't bother to pack as I laid down onto the bed and let out everything I held in. Lying to him was horrible, but I wished he had more faith in me than that.

I suppose I couldn't blame him though, considering he didn't remember.

My phone vibrated on the bed next to me and I picked it up. My heart fell as I saw a notification from Dimitri and I held my breath as I opened it.

Dimitri: Get here before I send this to the police. View Video

I closed my eyes and clicked on the video. When I opened them, my eyes landed on an empty street with a truck I recognized as Syn's being the only thing there. I watched as Syn came into view on the camera with something over his shoulder and he opened the trunk.

When he set the unknown item down, I gasped as I saw Sebastian. Syn closed the trunk of the car and looked around the street as the video ended with a perfect image of him. Anyone that knew him would be able to tell it was him.

If his threats weren't enough to motivate me to keep up with the ruse, this was. Even if he didn't kill Sebastian, everyone would believe he did if they saw this video.

I quickly got up from the bed and finished packing my bags. I made a portal to Dimitri as quickly as I could and when I stepped in, I saw him sitting on a chair in his living room.

"Nice of you to finally join me, Princess."

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Author's Note
I hate everything.

Wow, they are just not getting on the same page at all. Queen thinks she's protecting Syn and Syn thinks she's doing it for herself...damn.
And wtf does Dimitri want?😓
Do y'all think Queen did the right thing?
Let me know ✨