Cain

She looked at me for a long moment before biting her lip and nodding slowly. I could sense her hesitation, but I also sensed something that was driving me insane. Her trust in me. Her trust in me when it came to her heart, her mind, and her body.

I pull the rope on the robe and I heard her breath hitch as her body became exposed to me. When I looked down at her naked body, it was unfathomable to me how she couldn't see how incredibly sexy she was.

If I could take an image in my mind of her at this exact moment, I could've. I noticed her nervousness when she began looking away from me and her hand slightly moved to cover herself. With a swift motion, I grabbed her wrist and pinned it above her head before giving her a serious look.

"Don't do that," I said. "Not with me."

Her eyes softened and I could see the walls around her begin to slowly crumble down. I wanted to take my time with her. I wanted her to feel the love I couldn't vocalize to her yet. I just didn't know how to do it...without sex.

But for her, I'd do my damned best to figure it out.

I took her soft lips into mine slowly before pulling away and gliding my tongue to her neck. I felt her body writhe under me and I ignored my hard-on. This was about her. Control yourself.

I was trying my absolute hardest to, but when I sucked spot on her neck, she moaned and my mind raced. I felt her begin to loosen up beneath me as I continued touching her, and I smiled against her skin.

"You're so fucking beautiful," I whispered as I looked back down at her.

Her skin flamed and she tried to suppress a smile as she looked into my eyes. "Stop..."

"I love this part," I said as I kissed her forehead. "This part," I repeated as I gave her a peck on the nose. She laughed softly and I smiled before continuing. I kissed her chin, down to her neck, and her breasts. The blanket of doubt that she always seemed to hold around herself, was almost gone right now.

She tensed once again when I got to her stomach but I peeked up at her and kissed it. "I love this too. Stop being so worried." My eyes remained on her as I kissed down her body and she bit her lip when I made it between her legs.

I wanted nothing more than to taste her and make her forget all of her worries with my tongue, but life just seemed to hate me. My phone rang from the nightstand and I rolled my eyes before dropping my head against the mattress in irritation.

I would've ignored it, but Iris had some strange obsession with not wanting to ignore people. She leaned over to get my phone for me, and when her eyes fell on the screen, her smile dropped. She hesitantly gave me my phone before attempting to move off the bed, but I quickly grabbed her and pulled her onto my lap.

"What's wrong?" I questioned. She tried to mumble "nothing" and move away from me, but I held her firmly. After a few moments, she gave up trying to move away and sighed. "What is it?"

"I'm just giving you privacy so you can talk to your little friend," she said dismissively.

My little what?

I grabbed my phone from the side of the bed and let out an irritated breath when I saw Mia's contact flashing across the screen. "I don't need privacy from you, Iris. You're my girlfriend so just stay here. I'd want you to answer calls with guys around me as well."

"Okay, well then answer it," she said as she gestures towards it.

"Are you jealous?" I teased.

"Answer the phone, Cain."

"Oooh, okay okay." I picked up the phone and placed it on speaker and Iris remained quiet on my lap. "What do you want, Mia?"

"I just called to let you know that I'm leaving," she said. "I'm going to stay at this hospital in Juva for a few months."

"Good," I muttered.

"I just wanted to apologize to you for everything I've done to you," she said. "I should've made up my mind years ago. I regret not saying yes the first time you asked me out."

Iris's head snapped towards me and I gave her an apologetic look. 'Asked her out?' She mouthed. I nodded weakly and sighed before turning my attention back to whatever Mia was rambling on about.

"I'm not the one you should be apologizing to," I said. "You seriously hurt Iris, Mia. I already told you I'd kill you if she died. Now, because of you, there's a chance she will. Not to mention you stabbing her grandfather."

"I know," she whispered. "I'm going to get help. I promise I'll apologize when I get back, but for my mental health—"

"Are you fucking kidding me?" I spewed. "You won't apologize because of your mental health?!"

"I just don't think it's good for me."

"Why is it always about you?!" I snapped. "She almost died and the least you could fucking do is apologize."

"Don't you care about how I'm doing?" She asked. "I'm going to a fucking hospital, Cain. You told me you loved me a couple of weeks ago, how can you be so cold now?!"

I froze at Mia's mention of the word love and I glanced at Iris. Her eyes were focused on the floor and I knew then and there that's I had just ruined any sort of progress that we had.

"Listen, my flight is here so I need to leave," she said. "But please wait for me, Cain. I'll be better when I come back."

The phone hung up, and Iris slowly got up from my lap. When she was this quiet, I learned that she was the most pissed. "Iris," I called lowly as I watched her pull her robe together and tie it. "I-..."

"Shhh," she sounded as she held a finger up. "I'm going to tell you what we're going to do, okay?"

I nodded and she ran a hand through her hair before shaking her head. "We're going to forget about the doll and about killing her."

"What the fuck?" I asked in shock. "No, we're not!"

"Yes, we are," she said. "She's getting help. I don't feel right hurting someone who's not responsible for their actions."

"She's responsible for her actions!" I argued. "She'll come back in a few months and this entire cycle will be repeated, Iris. I refuse to let her even get the fucking chance to hurt you again."

"I'm telling you right here and right now, That I'm letting it go, Cain. So if you were doing this for me in the first place, why can't YOU let it go?!" She yelled.

"You just heard her on the phone," I started in a low tone. "She's not apologetic at all. Not in the least fucking bit!"

"Cain you know," she said. "Hate is a form of love. Maybe you're not as over her as you thought. Especially considering you loved her a few weeks ago."

"Iris, it's not—,"

"I honestly don't want to hear it, Cain," she did with a voice full of disappointment. "That's the past, but I need to know where your head is at this very second. If you have to decide between the two of us, then you should leave now. I'm not going to be an option."

"It's not an option, Iris. I don't want to be with anyone else but you, I promise."

She looked me directly in the eyes and held up two fingers before moving them between us. "So are we right here?"

"We're right here," I smiled as I locked eyes with hers.

"You're with me?"

"I'm with you," I assured her as her fingers kept my gaze on her dark eyes.

"One hundred percent?"

"One million percent."

"Okay," she nodded as she dropped her hand.

"That's it?" I questioned in confusion as she walked to her dresser.

"What do you mean?"

"Aren't you going to yell at me or something?"

"What's the point in yelling?" She asked as she faced me. "Will it make you listen to me more?"

"Not really," I said honestly.

"But you heard me?"

"I heard you."

"Okay then, that's it," she shrugged. "Just always be honest with me, and we'll be great."

"I will," I nodded as I grinned in her direction. Happiness floated throughout my chest as I realized that we may have conquered our first challenge. Without fighting either. It was a weird feeling of accomplishment, but it made me excited about our future.

"I'm going to go get dressed," she muttered as she held her clothes against her. She moved in front of me and gave me a sloppy kiss on the forehead that made me push her away, and she laughed as she walked into the restroom.

When the door shut, I let out the smile I was holding back and laid against the bed. I almost let the joyous feeling consume me until I stepped back and looked at the big picture.

As happy as I was right now, Iris was going to die. She still hadn't made up her mind about turning, and because of that, I had to have some sort of guard up. It would already kill me if she died, but I'd be obliterated if I gave her all of me and she left.

As I thought bout the possibility of the short future that we would have, my mind floated to Mia. I understood Iris's view, but that was only because she didn't know that I loved her. Whatever I felt for Mia during all these years was poison. One that I was willingly taking, but didn't notice the side effects until I was done with it.

Iris on the other hand felt like a cure. She was fixing whatever damaged Mia had done to me, and the damage I had done to myself from fighting for her for so long. She deserved the entire world, but because of Mia, she may never see it all.

That thought completely replaced every single happy bone in my body, and rage took over. Mia didn't deserve another chance. I was sure she was on her hundredth one and I know for a fact if she came back, she'd hurt someone I loved. Whether it be Queen or Iris. I couldn't risk it.

With that thought running in my mind, I knew there was only one thing to do. Mia can't come back.

I picked up my phone and dialed one of my men and held it against my ear. After a couple of rings, he answered and I took a deep breath. "Hey boss, what's up?"

"Mia Everton," I said as my chest aches. "I want her found and brought to the warehouse."

"Yes, sir." I hung up the phone at his confirmation and I set my phone down beside me. This wasn't painful because I "loved" Mia, it was painful because she used to be important to me. It was unfortunate that this was the way things would end.

My phone buzzed from beside me and I frowned as I picked it up. It was a notification from one of the men I just hung up on seconds ago and I inserted why he wanted. I opened the text and paused at his message as I thought about it.

Z: Dead or Alive?
12:38 a.m.

Me: I don't care.
12:41 a.m.

Forgive me, Iris.

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Author's Note
Oh Chile 😓

Who's side are u on here? Cain or Iris?💀
What do you think will happen?😔
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