TW: MENTION OF RAPE

𝙕𝙤𝙮𝙖 - 𝙎𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧 1 𝙤𝙛 𝙕𝙖𝙖𝙧𝙖

I am the golden goose of the family.

I have had this tittle ever since I first my first word which was "Ariana Grande" yes, I actually said that.

After that, everyone assumed I wanted to be an actresses and I went along with it.

Mainly because I had no choice.

In other family's, they hope on someone being a doctor.

In our family, being anything other then a movie star is a disappointment.

I like to take my frustration out on Zaara because she's the oldest and doesn't get pampered every single damn day.

Grandma and Grandpa use to do that to me before they passed, and now my uncle's and my parent's are here.

They don't live with us thankfully but they know everything about our house like they actually do live here.

I have 6 cousins, 3 kids to each uncle and I don't like any of them.

I guess it's safe to say I just don't like my family in general.

Perhaps if I knew Rayyana, I would like her.

But then again perhaps she was stuck up just like the rest.

I also don't like Humna because she actually enjoys the fame.

Every day she's either causing drama on set, or at home.

Her phone is her oxygen.

I also don't like Zaara because she treats me differently, she calls me a bitch and what not and I do not like being called a female dog.

I also don't like her because Zaara is allowed to study whereas I was pulled out of school after high school to start my career. 

It wasn't fair since I wanted to be something other then a movie star but hey, it is what it is. 

I actually remembered the first ever serious T.V show I was in. It was called "With the wind" and I was starred beside Noah Schnapp. 

My crush to this day. 

But then, everything went crashing down because of a specific director. 

My director's name was Anthony, and he and my father were pretty close which was why Anthony was my only director. My father had flat out refused me to work on anything else until With The Wind was finished which was boring. Anyway, after it was completed Anthony invited me and Noah out to dinner. 

I told everyone I had to use the restroom and while I was there, Anthony came in and locked the door behind him. I was scared since I was only 12, and thankfully he didn't do anything besides use his finger but it still hurt, and I still hated it. 

Afterwards while I was cleaning up, Anthony said it was my fault since I was showing him "crazy eyes" through the show. I quickly called father's driver and I told father that I never wanted to work with Anthony. When he asked me why, I hesitated and was scared that he would blame me so I just said that I didn't like him. 

Ever since then, Father has never mentioned Anthony which I am grateful for. 

And because of him, I have hatred towards myself. 

Why did he do that to me? 

Why am I like this? 

Why do I have trust issues now? 

I am Zoya martin, the golden goose and the favourite child. 

But I am also the one who is the most broken in my family. 

Ironic, isn't it?