Pain is a difficult word, it's hard to describe and it's impossible to describe when it is internal. I felt the exact same way that day.

It was raining hard outside and it was a storm inside. The old ticking noise was enough to let us know that it was going to take a long time for mother to come.

The silence was broken by the man standing in front of me. My brother Satish.

"Emily" He grabbed my hand with his and my hand went straight on his brown cheeks that soon went red.

Anna gasped while Ravya being confused chuckled.

"Why are you here?" I said looking at the floor. Tears were stuck in my eyes pledging to not come out.

Another round of silence surrounded the room with suspense.

"I asked you something " i said.

Nothing came in response.

"WHY ARE YOU HERE!?" I shouted out with rage.

"To meet mom" Satish said silently kneeling his head.

"After 5 years of being missing?" I said.

There was silence.

"It is funny you know. How audacious a person can be after leaving his family, forgetting about his own mother and only sending letter to ask for money. And now after 5 years you came, probably for money.. Or maybe your acting career went downhill. I mean i never saw you in big screen" I said while Ravya chuckled.

"See. I won't argue nor will‌ i deny. I just came here to see my mother" Shatish said calmly.

"The same mother who's heart you shattered? The same mother who waited for so long for you but you never came back? She was alone. All alone, only me and George were with her while you and dad left us" I said with a painted sour smile.

"Why? Can you answer me? Why? You left us when we were in our bad times, and now when finally we are living in peace, you came" i said.

"I can never deny Emily. I never can. I left you and ma.. Just to let you know, i did not come for money. Yes it is true that i had asked for money before in my initial day in the battlefield of job.. But now i'm in a good place.. I am not here to ask for money. I'm here to give you and ma some token of appreciation " Satish said.

I laughed. I looked at him and smiled.
" If you think that you can bury the amount of pain you gave by your money, then you are wrong. Money can never hide the pain.
And you are talking about appreciation? Mr Satish Smith, a mother's love and struggle can never be repayed by money" i said.

Satish hung his head down and looked at me and said"Emily, you have grown alot.. You are now a big girl.. This is not the same Emily i saw before leaving."

"The old Emily died Satish da.. You and your father killed that Emily with trauma and pain. But you won't understand. You were never here" i said while tears rolled down my cheeks.

"I loved you alot Satish da.. You were my older brother.. My mentor.. My friend who used to play hide and seek with me but i didn't know that you would hide from us for forever. Did you even think about me before leaving? Forget about me, did you even think about your own mother? The mother who beared all the pain for nine months to give birth to a imbecile creature like you who leaves his own mother" i said.

Satish took a step backward and said "i was selfish. I was coward."

"YOU STILL ARE! SATISH DA YOU STILL ARE! I AM DISGUSTED FOR CALLING YOU MY BROTHER. IF YOU WEREN'T A SELFISH PERSON, YOU WOULD NOT THROW MONEY AT YOUR MOTHER'S FACE IN NAME OF APPRECIATION AFTER LEAVING US." I shouted at Satish.

Satish fell on the floor.

Anna ran to me and looked at me "He fainted.. It's okay Emily. It's okay.. It was not your fault. Just.. Ravya can you sprinkle some water on his eyes?"

Ravya nodded and fetched the glass of water and sprinkled some on the eyes of Satish da whom i once found loving but hatred now while Anna guided me to the chair.
Time changes everything but some things never change. I was worried for him and still am.

"Emily come with me.. Sit here..Ravya? Is he awake?" Anna asked while grabbing a bottle for me to drink water.
Ravya nodded her head" He is kinda responding."

"Didi? What is thw nowise?" George's innocent sleepy voice broke the tension of the room.

"Idiot? You woke up? " I asked while ruffling his messy hair.

"Yes captain. I woke up. Who is that?" George said pointing at Satish who now stood up with the help of a chair.

"Trash can George.. A living trash can" i said..

Anna and Ravya was chuckling while george laughed.

"Hahaa hey trash can! What arw you doin here?" George said.

"No now pirate, don't say that or else mum will scold me and won't buy me any ice cream. You know as she says not to curse any unknown person" i said smirking.

Satish sighed "Is that George? I remember him as a little baby.. Look at you.. You have grown so much.. You know , i'm you-"

I didn't let him finish his sentence and said "Nobody. He is your nobody. Now George go upstairs and do your homework."

George nodded and saluted before leaving.

"Call mother. We have to wait for the boss of this house before throwing this piece of garbage" i said ro Anna.

"I know.. I deserve this.. And i'm here to undo my actions" Satish said.

I got up from my sit and went towards Satish "That's your mistake Satish.. Once you do something, that is parmanent. You can never undo it. Real life is not a cinema canvas that you will do whatever you want." i said.

Anna clapped and finally stopped after earning a smack from Ravya.

"Anyways, it will take some time for ma to come, so wait outside. I don't want any more pollution in my house. Anna stay inside and take care of George, i'm gonna walk Ravya to her house. It's kinda getting late.. And lock the door. I don't trust this person" i said looking at satish.

We were walking in the narrow streets under the moonlight struggling to shine among the arrogant clouds.

"So.. What about your elder brother?" Ravya asked"Ofcourse answer if you are comfortable ."

"Hey.. It's okay.. He was my brother.. Now i barely recognise him. He is drowned in the pool of arrogance just like dad. He left the house 5 years back when he was 19. He sent us later only to ask for money. He went to Mumbai but i heard that he ended up as a struggling actor turned into spotboy. But now i don't know.. " i said looking at the sky.

"Oh.."

"It's just that.. He came from nowhere.. And suddenly he wants to join the family whom he deceived. We tried so hard to find him.. But he never came. I just hate this life." i said.

"Hey. It's okay.. Don't worry , i won't say that same thing everyone says.. I know you are alone.. Everyone is.. But always remember there are people who loves you dearly" Ravya said "To start with that.. Have some chocolate."

I took the half eaten chocolate bar from her hand and gave a munch.

"That is yummy bruh-" i said while munching.

"I know. I know." Ravya said.

"Isn't the sky looking beautiful? " Ravya said.

"It surely is.. Always it is. But it has pain too within it.. Pain is everywhere.. Life is pain and without it there is not meaning of life" i said.

Ravya nodded.

I went back home after dropping Ravya at her house.
Satish was not in front of the door.. He was not outside.. That meant, either he left or he went inside.
I knocked the door and it was answered by Anna " Come inside. Aunty has arrived."
I stepped inside finding mother sitting on a chair silently. She looked like she has seen a ghost.

"I should go Emily.. It's quite late..No need to drop me home.. Aunty needs you.

Anna left and left me dumbfounded as well.

I knew this was gonna be tough but didn't know this was going to be this tough.

Mum sighed and started talking "We need to talk"

I sat on the chair and looked at mum with a hardened face.

"Listen Satish, go to wherever you came from. I don't have the amout of energy nor willingness to talk to you. I want to be with my family without any strangers right now. Come tomorrow to the lake side at 4pm. We will talk" mom said.

Pain.

A word with name
That is the pain
With no defination.

Tinkling with the sorrow,
stuck in the golden heart.
Stuck like a arrow in cane.

Not a single drop of blood,
Not a single drop flood.
Flood of blood flowing inside
With a broken heart
That can't be mended.

Pain is lame,
Pain is like a train,
Thriving on the track
Murdering thousand names.

Pain is a phase,
Glowing with rage.
Envy flowing from the brain.
Pain is fame.

-littlewriter🌱

Author's note:

Hi everyone! How're you guys? If you ask about me then i'm drowned in projects.
Did you like today's chapter?
Take care and stay hydrated.

This has happened with me so many times.
Well Indian things.