𝐎𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 1997
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𝐒𝐨𝐧𝐲𝐚'𝐬 𝐏𝐎𝐕

After The grueling match which was the WWF's first ever Hell In A Cell match which Shawn won thanks to Kane aka Glenn. Shawn wanted to celebrate after the match but Paul and I agreed that wasn't a good idea so we all went to the hotel we were all staying at, The Next Morning I woke up to the sound of my Nokia Phone Ring. I answered the call and was immediately hit with tragic news, It Was My Friend Brian Pillman's wife Melanie she informed me that Brian had passed away due to a heart attack.

No one ever wants to hear the news of someone they love and care about is gone, Brian was my first friend in WCW he was the only guy who wasn't a Dick. And when he and I partnered up together it was a perfect. He and I became fast friends and I even gotten to know his Wife Melanie and his children. But Brian also had demons, there were countless times when I would catch him doing drugs and I would plead with him not to do it, but he tried his best to over come it and he was doing really well sadly his heart gave up on him.

Three days after the funeral Shawn asked me to come over and hang out with him, I didn't know if I wanted to leave my house but he offered beer and I couldn't resist. I quickly throw on my white tank and light blue washed jeans, and my black leather jacket.
I arrived in front of Shawn's house and parked my car then got out, walked up the driveway and sees him him washing his car.

"Hey Sawyer." Shawn put down the water hose and have me a hug "..How ya feeling?"

"Okay I guess could be better." I Said

"I know poor Brian it wasn't his time, 35 is too young to go man." Shawn Said

"All I could think about is his family and poor Melanie, their gonna have to live in a world without their dad...I can't imagine." I Said leaning against the car

"Mhm." Shawn Said

"I don't think I can handle another friend dying Shawn." I Said

"What do you mean?" Shawn Asks

"Back in high school I lost a friend, she was my best friend her name was Bailey. She was so cool and so sweet, we did everything together, but Bailey also had a troubled past her dad was a drug dealer and her Mom was a struggling alcoholic, and sadly Bailey got into drugs at a very young age due to her father." I Said

"Really...how old was she?" Shawn Asks

"She was 12, Bailey did almost everything weed, percs, and even smoked cigarettes." I Said

"And how did your parents feel about you hanging around her?" Shawn Asked

"I never told my parents because I knew that if I told them they would stop me from seeing her. So I tried my best to convince her to not do drugs...she would blow me off." I Said trying to fight back the tears, Shawn moves closer to me

"So how'd she die?" Shawn Asked

"It was the beginning of our sophomore year, she was started hanging around the wrong crowd and started dating this older guy from another school. Basically she started being very distant from me, and the drug use got worse and worse." I couldn't fight back the tears anymore and they just fell "...It was around thanksgiving break and Bailey called me asking me to come over, I just knew it from her voice something was wrong...I left my house and arrived at her house and...." I Said

"Sonya...." Shawn Said

"I entered the house and went upstairs to her bedroom, opened her room door and saw her there...just lying there on her back with her eyes open. I tried looking for a pulse but there just wasn't...she was gone and there was nothing I could do to save her." I Said

Shawn pulled me into a deep hug as I continued to sob into his chest, being wrapped up in arms feels so good. I don't know what it is but Shawn gives the best hugs, if I could I would stay like this forever.
After crying for what felt like forever, Shawn and I let go but I lifted my head up and stared into those beautiful blue eyes that drives me crazy, he wipes away my tears thank god I didn't wear any make up.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to start crying, it's just all of this is making me very emotional...I'm sorry." I Said

"No No don't be, seeing you cry like this honestly hurts me. And it makes me want to be honest with you." Shawn Said

I looked at him furrowing my brows "What do you mean?"

"You and I have been friends for a while now and I consider you a really close friend of mines hell you cleaned puke off my face, After hearing what you just told me....I feel like it's time to come clean with you." Shawn Said

"Okay.." I Said

"I also use drugs.." Shawn Said

Hearing those four words broke my heart, I can't believe what I'm hearing right now.

"What....how long have you been like this?" I Asked

"For a really long time now, when I first started I was clean but when I started tagging with Marty...that's when my drug use began." Shawn Said

"Oh Shawn..do you use drugs at work?" Shawn looks at the ground, I sigh "You do don't you." I Said

"Yes but If I'm being honest I want to get better but it's just so hard...I mean taking the drugs yes it feels good but if I'm being honest, Sonya I don't wanna die." Shawn Said

"So what are you saying do you want to quit?" I Said

"Yeah not only for myself but for you as well, I care about you Sonya I really do. I love having you around it makes my day better honestly...I have to see that smile of yours at least once a day." Shawn Said

I smiled at him and feeling sad can't believe he was a drug user, I mean how could I not have noticed this whole time. After hearing what he said I sure hope he's being genuine on his long journey to being sober. Shawn and I went inside his house and he showed me his drug collection and he asked for my help to dispose all of them and this made me proud of him because I know it's gonna be a difficult road for him, that I'll be happy to support him on.

"Okay Michaels are you sure ready for this?" I Asked

"Yeah I am Sawyer." Shawn Said

******

A few weeks has passed since Brian's funeral and I'm
feeling better almost, still grieving the lost of a dear friend. I'm backstage at Raw and tonight segment involves "DX" that's our new faction name thanks to Brett. We're going to be doing what all good at which is being annoying heels, I'm with Joanie in the Women's locker room looking at the signs for each member to hold up during the segment.

During the show we made our way out to the ring but decided to sit down and watch the match between Ken Shamrock & Ahmed Johnson Vs The Nation. Throughout the match we continued to lift up the signs we made backstage, I held up my sign that said "Hey Vince Nice Shoulder Pads" and Paul held up a sign that read "Who Booked this crap!" Personally that one was my favorite. After match Shawn walked over to me and whispered "..Watch This?"

"Watch What?" I Said

Before I could finish my sentence next thing I knew Shawn pulled down his pants and mooned everyone with his but, Joanie and I quickly covered him with the posters.

"Shawn stop it now pull your damn pants up." I Said trying not to laugh

"Damn it I was just starting to have fun." Shawn Said
pulling up his pants

After The Show I left the arena and walked to my car with my bag over my shoulder, I leaned against my car waiting for Shawn to come out and he did but he wasn't alone, It was Tammy Aka Sunny. She was talking with him about god knows what, she would constantly touch his arm and get closer to him every second she could seeing this instantly made my blood boil.

They talked for a couple more seconds, I got tired of waiting and went inside my car and slammed the door which caught his attention. Shawn said goodbye to Sunny and finally made his way towards my car and got inside.

"Sorry for the hold up, got a little carried away with-" Shawn Said

"Yeah Tammy I saw." I Said

"It was nothing honestly...she just asked me if I was free and—" Shawn Said

"For god sakes Shawn can't you see that she's not worth it, Tammy is a cheater and a horrible partner.
She has no respect for herself and you, she's a user don't you see that." I Said

"She doesn't use me." Shawn Said

"Yes she does...Shawn don't see the pattern, whenever her and Chris have relationship problems she runs back to you or whoever because she's slept with a few of the guys in the back." I Said

"You see you don't know what your talking about alright, you see Tammy and I even though we were sneaking around behind Chris's back...we were actually in a relationship okay nine long months." Shawn Said

"And what did she do after that she broke your heart, she went back to him because she was never gonna leave him in the first place." I Said

"Look you don't understand I—" Shawn Said

"Loved her what is that it." I Said

"Yeah I Did at some point." Shawn Said

"Do you still love her....is that why it's so hard for you to move on?" I Asked

Shawn looked at me lost for words, we sat in silence for a couple seconds but the silence was killing me because I desperately need an answer.

"Well?" I Said

"Sonya..." Shawn Said

"Unbelievable." I Scoffed Shaking my head

"I don't get why your so fucking upset." Shawn Said

"Because!....I needed to know." I said then got out the car slamming it, Shawn sat there confused and got out as well

"Why did you need to know if I still liked Tammy?" Shawn Asked

"If you still loved Tammy it would give me a reason to move on from you and let go of these feelings I have that I can't control." I Said

"You have feelings for me?" Shawn Said

"Yeah...I have for a while now, I never expected this to happen but it has. For months I've been trying to tell myself no Sonya don't fall for him but, you make it so god damn hard. Every time that I'm with you my heart skips a beat..I'm talking instant butterflies whenever I'm near you. I love how whenever we talk for hours and hours and it feels as if time just disappears." Shawn looks at me and takes a step back a little "..you make laugh, you make smile and you annoy the crap out of me which I love. I look at myself as a strong woman but when it comes to you, you somehow make me feel as if I could be more than I ever thought I could be...I can't explain it but that's just how I feel." I Said

"Sonya." Shawn Said

"I just want you...I want you so bad, when I saw you guys together at Summer Slam a part of me wanted to go over there and punch in the face and tonight as well. But I'm standing here right now pouring my heart out which is something I don't do often, so you can go be with Tammy and be in a secret toxic relationship....because I can't wait for you forever...what's it gonna be?" I Said

Shawn turned his back to me and I looked at the ground sadly, I hear footsteps coming closer and looked up before I could say anything Shawn quickly leaned over and crashed his lips with mine. I immediately kissed him back and smiled during the kiss. He wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted mines over his neck, we both pulled away slowly staring into each other's eyes catching our breath.

"You didn't let me finish earlier, what I was going to say was I told her to get lost...I wasn't gonna hang out with her and I don't plan on seeing her anymore." Shawn Said

"Really?" I Said

"Yeah you see there's this girl I work with and I'm friends with her turns out she likes me, which is great because I've always had a thing for her." Shawn Said

I rolled my eyes and shut him up quickly before he could say anything to ruin the moment, he continued  kissing me and I gave him another peck on his soft lips.

Sorry Loves For The Late Uploads, I knew once summer would come I would become lazy. But don't worry I didn't forget about this book, Finally Shawn & Sonya are together.