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"Oh I used to say,
I would never fall in love again until I found her".

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After that day, all Jungkook could think about was you. He didn't even know your name, where you were from, anything...he just knew your eyes and your birthmark. Even after a month, he could recall them as they were. Sometimes, he would lay on his bed and think about what you think of him. He still had that scarf and it reminds him of your innocence.

He gave that hat to his mother and she was very worried on the thought that he actually broke the curfew. If his father ever got to knew about this, he was going to be in so much trouble. But, nonetheless, she loved the hat. She was quite proud of his son for doing that too because it shows that he is actually not that much scared of his cruel father. She kissed him on his head and hugged him tightly, showing that she is scared but in reality, it was because of a little win.

Of Course she knew about what his father did to him, how brutal he could be at times and what kind of punishments Jungkook goes through every time. But this made her realise that she hadn't raised a coward but a brave boy.

Jungkook's family used to do donations every year for the sake of their reputation. People called his father generous but in reality it was nothing but just a show off. A sick act to show people that he thinks of people and helps them. Sometimes, Jungkook would accompany them too.

This time they've decided to donate to some orphanage in the town. At first Jungkook was reluctant to go but on the peer pressure from his mother, he had to agree to go. So, he was getting ready to go there. It's great though because he hadn't had to go to school today. "Ready, Jungkook?" His mom asked as she stood by his room door wearing a beautiful black dress with the hat he gave her. He smiled and nodded. She told him to come downstairs and left with an adorable smile.

Jungkook went downstairs where his father was sitting, texting someone on his phone. When he heard footsteps, he looked up to see his son. Jeons has a lineage of wonderful Genes which are passed from generation to generation, which is visible too. Jungkook looks most like his father and he actually doesn't like this fact but he can't do a thing but to live with it.

"Let's go, then," the older man said and stood up, buttoning his blazer.

The Jeons left their mansion and sat in their luxurious car. They drove off to the orphanage. The weather was sunny that day. A few white clouds were scattered here and there. Jungkook has always adored the sky. He would often look at it, he just loves it.

In a few minutes they reached their destination. Jungkook got out of the car and looked at the orphanage. It was quite beautiful and green. Unlike the physical appearance that he got from his father, his inner soul is completely opposite to him. He actually is kind, just like his mother. He likes helping people because it makes him happy. He sometimes helped needy people by giving them his monthly allowance. He was a generous boy.

They went inside the place and there were so many children of different ages running, playing, laughing and some studying too. They all looked happy. He also passed innocent smiles to children there which were returned to him very nicely. They walked through a few hallways to reach the office of the owner of the orphanage.

"Òh well well, look who we have here? Welcome to my little paradise, Mr. Jeon!" The owner greeted and shakes his hand with Mr. Jeon.

He passed a Hello to his wife. They all sat down on the chairs and water was served. Jungkook was looking around in the office when his attention went towards the window and outside it. He looked at a bunch of girls playing together. He was looking at them interestingly when his eyes fall on someone.

He concentrated his eyes to have a better look and his orbs widen at the sight of that person. Is that really her?' he thought. After looking for a few more seconds he figured out that that's literally the one he had been thinking about all day long for one month. His lips curled up into an excited smile. So many questions popped up into his mind but he cared less about them at that moment

"Jungkook? What happened? I called your name three times," his father shook him a little to get his attention.

"Oh y-yes. I need to use the washroom," he reasoned.

"It's okay. It's at the end of the corridor. You can go use it," the owner said with a smile.

Jungkook looked at his mom and stood up. He awkwardly left the room and ran towards the place where he saw you. After a few seconds, he was standing in front of that ground and then he saw you again.

You were playing with your friends, laughing and running here and there trying not to get caught by one of them. Your hair were swaying beautifully in the air and the thing that disturbee him was the bandage on your right calf. He hoped that it's nothing very serious. He just continued looking at you with a wide grin when a ball hit his leg, diverting his attention to it.

A boy, around the age of 9 or 10 years, ran towards him.

"I am sorry. It was by mistake," the kid said and picked up the ball.

"It's okay, buddy. It happens," Jungkook said as he pat the younger's head.

The boy smiled and asked him," Who are you? Are you new here?"

Jungkook thought a little and then answered," I am Jeon Jungkook and I am here with my family. We came to meet the owner here".

The younger one made an 'o' mouth and nodded.

"Who are you?" Jungkook asked the boy.

The boy took him to the nearby bench and made him sit there. He sits beside him.

"I am Min Ho," he answered. Jungkook nodded and looked towards you again. You were sitting on the ground with your friends, trying to catch your breath.

"Umm who is she?" He asked, without even thinking about it. The younger one looked at Jungkook, who shook his head.

"I am sorry. I shouldn't be asking," he said.

"Are you asking about the girl in the blue dress?" The boy asked, dodging off his apology. Jungkook nodded.

"Y/N. She is one of the most loved girls here," he told him. The older one smiled and recited your name again in his mind.

"Why?" The boy questioned.

"Hm?" Jungkook asked, dumbfounded.

"Why did you ask?" The boy asked.

"Nothing. She just looks more lively than any other child here. Is she the owner's daughter?" He asked another question.

"No. She is just like us but she is more attached to the caretakers here than anyone else. I have heard that she is here since she was 5 months old...maybe that's why," the boy answered and Jungkook nods.

"Don't you dare like her now. She is my friend," the boy warned him, blushing a little.

Jungkook laughed out," Is she your girlfriend?"

"No...but I like her!" The boy answered.

Jungkook chuckled and say," I wouldn't dare, little boy. You scared me!"

The boy knew that Jungkook was making fun of him. He humphed and got up to leave.

"Hey, hey. Wait!" Jungkook called out but the boy ran away. He laughed to himself at what just happened.

Suddenly his phone rang, it was his mom. He picked it up and she told him to come back to the office. Jungkook almost forgot about it. He told her an ok and made his way towards the room after glancing at you for one last time.

'Y/N, that's a beautiful name' he whispered to himself.

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After that day, he would usually go to the orphanage while going back to his house. He would tell his driver to take him there but not tell his father. The driver agreed when Jungkook promised to give him some extra money for that. So, he would just go there and tried to find you from outside of the place. The playground of the orphanage was right in front of the fences. He told his driver to wait a little far away from the place as he didn't want to get caught. He would walk to the fences and hide behind some trees everyday. It was easy for him to spot you playing around at that time of the day.

One day he was able to find your room as it was right in front of the playground. It was not very visible from that much distance but he had seen you enough times now that he could recognise you from far away. He used to hate those days when it would rain and he couldn't go there. But on most days, he never skipped to see you at least once a day. That point of time was the best time of his day.

It's been 3 months since he started this and now he has developed a liking for you and he didn't mind it at all. He sometimes wanted to cross the fence and go talk to you but always stopped himself because he was afraid. What if you get scared of him? What if she thinks you're a stalker? What if she complains about you? There were so many what ifs and he couldn't stop overthinking about them.

He sometimes stopped going there too because he knows that in this way nothing will happen. And you were way too young at that time. He sometimes felt bad about it and stopped it. He diverts his mind towards other things but at the end of the day, all he thinks about was you.

He stopped this all for one month but one day he again went there because he couldn't sleep at night. He gave it a lot of thought and decided to just see you one last time. Hopefully, you aren't asleep at that time. He looked at you through the window of your room, dancing slowly to some music he couldn't hear. He looked at you, all mesmerised at how your body moves. He gazed at you until you stopped dancing and turned off the lights to sleep.

On his way home, he was again thinking about you. Did he really want to let you go? He did but it doesn't seem possible for him. He slipped the scarf out from his pocket and looked at it. He sighed out, still thinking about you and walked home.

Slowly slowly, days turn into weeks, weeks turn into months and now it's going to be a year since he has met you for the first time. He told his friends about you too but they just shrugged it off saying that he was out of his mind. Some told him that it's bad to like someone who is so young. To be honest this is the reason why Jungkook was not making a move . You were still very young and maybe a little naive too.

But things change when his father decided to send him abroad for his higher studies. He wanted Jungkook to stay there till his high school and a little further to learn how to start buisness and everything. On knowing this, he was so sad. He was only 15 and had to leave his family, house and friends just because of his father. He didn't even know why his dad wants him to study abroad. It was never a plan. It's all so sudden but nonetheless,he has to follow it.

A night before his flight, he goes to the orphanage to look at you maybe the last time. He cries at his helplessness but can't do anything. The day he flies to another country, he thinks that you will not stay in his mind that much. Maybe he will lose his crush on you but he was all wrong. He did get busy in his hectic schedule, made new friends and a few girlfriends too but at some nights, he still thinks of your hazel eyes.

In America, be did everything he was afraid of doing in Korea. He would go to parties, bunk classes sometimes, lost his virginity and had a lot of sex. No gonna lie, he was indeed the most popular guy in school. Girls were all over him and be loved the attention he received. He loved his life there but homesickness was still there. He missed his mother the most. He would call her sometimes and cry to her because he misses her so much. She would always consol him and tell him that it's just a matter of few years. As soon as he passes his high school and learn how to run a business, he will be back in Korea.

When he turned 20, he was very happy to finally come back to his home after graduation. He missed everything so much. You are just a long gone memory in his mind. He still thinks of you often but does not miss you. When he arrived in Korea, no one came to pick him up from the airport because of their busy schedule. He was ok with it, because he knows that work sometimes is very much. So, his driver came to pick him up.

On his way home, he came across the orphanage again.

"Can you please stop here?" He asked his driver.

"Again, young master. I thought you would forget this," the old man said and stopped the car.

"I almost did," he said with a smile and exit the car.

The orphanage was still the same. You must be 16 by now. His heart started beating fast at the thought of you again. He wondered if you were still there. He hid behind the tree and looked inside. The playground was empty and the window of your room was shut and curtains were pulled together. He looked around a little but when he found nothing, he sighed.

He turned to leave when he heard someone humming to some melody. He hid behind the tree and looked to his right. He saw a girl watering the plants along the fence. She brushes her hair off her shoulders making Jungkook realise that it's none other than you. He smiled widely and lean against the tree. He close his eyes and listen to the melody. He didn't even see your face. He didn't know how you looked then but all he knew was that it was you. That thing was more important than anything.

When the humming stopped he looked back and saw you walking away from the ground. You were taller than before of course and you looked beautiful too. He smiled and ran towards his car.

"Should we go, young master? Your mom must be waiting," the driver asked. Jungkook just nods as his mind was only filled with you.

On another day, Jungkook went to that place again. That time in hope of talking to you. He went there to meet the owner along with his family. He was very nervous but also a little excited about it. It's spring season and cherry blossoms were scattered everywhere in the ground. He again made some excuse to go out. He found the playground and then saw you already looking outside the window. He mustered up the courage and walked towards the room. He was a few feets away from the room when he saw another boy approaching you. He talked to you and you smiled at him.

He felt a little pang in his heart at that sight. You two started talking and laughing with each other. Jungkook felt bad...so so bad. He never got to see the face of the boy but you were looking happy with him. After that day, he thought a lot about that. Maybe he was just a friend, maybe he was just overthinking.

After a few days, he decided to go there again. This time, he had made his mind to talk to you for sure but what he saw there broke his heart into many pieces. That was the time he realised that he was in love with you all the time. He saw you with that same guy kissing each other tenderly by the window. He didn't know what to feel. His face was stern but his emotions were out of flow.

He should give up.

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"You are 20 now. Prepare yourself to become the next leader, Jungkookie. You are gonna be the leader of our clan and show your father that you are braver than him," his mom said to him as they were eating lunch.

His dad was not at home. He was out at some meeting, according to his mom. Jungkook proudly nodded and munches on his lunch.

His mom's profile had changed a lot in years. When he left abroad, she looked way too young but now, it was all different. He couldn't even recognise his mother at first but nevertheless, she still looked beautiful as ever. He just hopped everything was fine between his mom and dad when he was not there.

Jungkook's mom was from a very powerful family of Japan mafia. Everyone is afraid of them and his mom was the daughter of the previous leader of that mafia. His father would never dare to do anything that will make her or her family upset because their one strike is enough to overthrow his father's power. He was afraid of them but the thing he was doing to their daughter would definitely put him in great danger if she gets to know about that. He just hopped no one ever does.

But one day came to be the worst day of Jungkook's life. He came home after meeting his friends and straight went to the kitchen. He was drinking water when he heard someone shouting. The shouting became more clear signalling that that person is coming closer. He pulled his glock out from his back pocket. He slowly walked towards the door when he figured out that the shouting voice is of his mother.

He pulled his glock down and listened to what she was saying.

"How dare you?! How dare you even think that you could cheat on me?! You didn't even think about Jungkook! His future, his everything! You dared to have an external affair and have this!" She shouted angrily at her husband.

Jungkook looked out to see his mom holding a picture in front of his dad. 'He is having an affair?' Jungkook thought and anger started coming up in his veins.

"Babe, look I am sorry. Please don't tell your father. This will ruin everything. Think about Jungkook. Please," his dad pleaded in front of her.

His mom started crying loudly as she shook her head," You are dead, Jeonghyun. You are dead!"

She pulled out her phone and started searching for the number.

"No no,please! Don't!" His dad went close to her and took the phone out of her hold.

"I am sorry. I am really sorry. These are old photos and it's all over, ok? I promise you, love. Please, trust me. I really love you. I am so sorry," he apologised as tears ran out of his eyes. He closed the gap between them and hugged her while chanting sorry over and over again.

Then a loud voice echoed in the whole house making Jungkook flinch too. His dad pulled away from his mom- his mom's dead body. Blood was gushing out from her left rib cage.

"You...," she whispered.

"I am sorry. I had to do it," he said and take the photo out of her hand tearing it into pieces. She stumbled backward and fell down.

Jungkook was just looking at the whole scene as his whole body went numb. He killed his mother in front of him. She was dead. The only person he knows loves him. His mom, his world, his everything...he killed her.

Blood started to boil in his veins and he shouts loudly," Jeonghyun!" His father looked in Jungkook's direction.

"Jungkook?" He whispered.

Before he could speak anything, Jungkook fired through his gun shooting him right in his heart. His dad stumbled backward with the force. He lifts his gun up too but Jungkook again shoots him over and over and over again till his gun has no bullets left in it.

His father fell on the ground. Jungkook walked towards his mother and picks her head up in his lap.

"Mom...," he whispered as tears formed in his brown orbs. Heavy tears flow out as he hugged her tightly.

"Mom," he again whispered, as he cried loudly with her in his arms.

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Phew, a long ass chapter but I hope you liked it. It must have been so rushy but this was important. I love you all. Thanks for reading. Stay safe and Healthy❤

~Aster🌸