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"Why can't I say that I'm in love?
I wanna shout it from the rooftop.
I wish that it could be like that, why can't we be like that?
Cause I'm yours".

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Three weeks later

"Yes, Mr. Im. We are pleased by the offer. Kindly tell us when you would like to schedule the meeting. We'll prepare the meeting to seal the deal," Jungkook shakes the hand of the man in his 40s.

"It was a pleasure too. Yes, We'll let you know. See you soon," Mr. Im beams.

You bow to all his acquaintances and walk towards the car with Jungkook. Finally, it's 8 PM and the day is over. You'll go home to your son now. You missed Eun Jae today. You cover yourself even more due to how cold it suddenly gets after you step out of the warm restaurant.

It's late November and the air is so chilly. Your overcoat is warm enough but you- not being a winter person, is making this difficult. Your fingers have gone numb before you even reach the car. You slide in as fast as you can, Jungkook closely follows.The driver- Seokjin starts the car and drive towards the company which is at least at the distance of 1 hour.

You sigh as you rub your hands to warm them. "Cold?" Jungkook asks you.

"My fingers have gone numb. My body can't take winters easily," you chuckle.

He takes both your hands in his and covers them with his warm ones. "Don't! They are literally cold," you protest.

"It's ok. I don't feel cold that much," he responses with a small smile. You relax in his warmth while looking at him. He turns his gaze outside the car and you also look through the window too while your hands are connected in the middle of you both.

As you're looking outside, you can't help but wonder what had happened to you both in last three weeks. After that 'talk' in his office that day, you both got so busy in the work or maybe pretended to be so busy in work. He and you would come to work but wouldn't talk to each other for a week of your training.

When Soyeon left, the whole burden just came onto your shoulders. His schedule, every morning cappuccino to his lunches to dinners with his dealers, maintaining his so called dress code and other small rules and regulations. It was all too much but you just kept on going and didn't give up. Slowly, you got indulged into this lifestyle and now you can perfectly do this. Most of all, you enjoy it all.

Work may keep you and Jungkook together but other than this, you both have grown miles apart. He barely talks to you. Yes, it was you who wanted time and space but now you are kinda regretting it too. At one side you are glad because you got too sort out your feelings and now you know what you want. However,when we flip the coin to face the other side, you find it so difficult to again get him to talk to you.

You've tried before to have some conversation with him but every time, it got interrupted. Like that one instance a week ago when you tried to start a conversation with him and suddenly Taehyung barged into the office. You quickly ran off to your office on seeing him. He's way better now, just a small bandage on his nose. Some part of you is glad that he got that punch because he not only disrespected you but also your son.

Anyways, there was this other fine day when you and Jungkook were on the terrace. You were shivering because of nervousness but still you tried to start a conversation. However again, someone called him to tell him that there are a few issues in shipment of something in Thailand and we had to leave early.

Another one, when two days ago he decided to drive you to the apartment. You were determined this time to finally talk to him but on the last moment Namjoon came with a request to let him and Jimin have a ride to home in Jungkook's car because apparently their car was not working. That day the situation in the car was so awkward because you were sitting right beside Jungkook on front seats while the couple was giving each other little smooches in the back seat. Before it went too far, Jungkook stopped them. Thank god.

You sigh at your situation now. Will you ever get a chance to talk to him? You look to his side to see him softly sleeping on the headrest of the seat. You softly scoff at him and take your hands out of his hold. His mouth is a little agape but his eyebrows are still set in a frown. Due to the new deal and also shipment issues, he couldn't get much sleep these past few days.

You scoot in closer to him and brush his messy hair that have damaged a little due to the stress he's been taking for few days. A bump comes and his head swings a little, making it slide off the seat a little. On seeing how uncomfortable his position is, you hold his head gently and make him lay on your shoulder. He doesn't even open his eyes, showing how exhausted he actually is.

It seems crazy how you ended up in this situation. You chuckle at the thought when you first met him, in the bar. You were scared to death. That first physical contact and those eyes boring into yours the whole time, you used to fantasise about them. It still feels like yesterday but it's been 3 months since that incident.

"Y/N, you good?" Seokjin asks from driver's seat.

"Yup. Perfectly fine," you speak from the backseat. You yawn a little feeling exhausted too. You lay your head on the headrest too and close you eyes. Slowly you also drift into small nap.

Seokjin looks back at you both through the rearview mirror and smiles to himself. He keeps the car slow as the other security cars also slows up behind them. They slowly and steadily reach the jeon building in one and a half hour.

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"Wake up kiddos. We're home," Seokjin wakes you both. You flutter your eyes lightly and open them. You grab your nape, it's hurting a little- maybe sore because of the position you were sleeping in. You look to your side to see Jungkook laying his head on your shoulder.

You shake him lightly, calling his name and he hums before opening his eyes. Seokjin opens the door," Wake up, boy".

Jungkook looks at Seokjin. "I'm sorry I slept. Are we at the corporation?" He asks in his raspy voice. You can't see his face because first, it's dark in here and second, you're too red to look at him. This was the most closest you've been with him in three weeks. It still tingles your stomach.

"No. You two were so peacefully sleeping, I couldn't wake you up. I did the small work at the office and just drove to the mansion," Seokjin responds. You look at the front to see the mansion.

"How long did we sleep?" You ask him. "More than 2 hours I guess," Seokjin replies. You nod in astonishment but now you feel refreshed kind off.

"Ok so... I should go," you open your the door on your side after picking your purse . Jungkook also follows.

"Tomorrow is day off for you. I'm staying home for other things too," he tells you and you nod while your insides are dancing. You bow to them and turn to leave happily.

Jungkook watches you leave as Seokjin goes to park the car in the garage. The Mafia Lord sighs and turns to walk towards his big mansion.

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It's midnight and Jungkook is wide awake. Not because of work but because of all these tension constricting between you and him.

Everyday he walks into his office and it kills him when he acknowledges the fact that he can't touch you or talk to you like that. He wants to take you out, have long conversations with you, show you all the beautiful things out there in this world and show you how much you matter to him.

The thought of not having you right now irks him a lot. The very second he sees you, he just wants to pin you by the wall and kiss the choices out of you. Everytime you narrate the schedule to him, those lips tempts him so much that he barely stops himself from getting you on your knees and fuck your mouth which crosses all the boundaries of time and space.

He wants you. He just wants everything with you and this has gotten so irritating because you are taking more time than expected.

Jungkook turns to other side and looks at the moon shining brightly through the window. The room is warm and the lights are dim. He's just thinking and thinking. He has waited so many years a few days would be just nothing, atleast that's what he thought. However, the whole story here is different. A whole lot different.

He's waiting for you to just tell him that you like him in a certain way too but now he can't. He's not a pussy. He'll talk it out. Tomorrow only.

On the other side, you're laying with Eun Jae tightly hugging you. He's sound asleep, giving out small snores. You're carrassing his hair as your train of thought is wandering places. Actually only a particular place. The destination. The main station.

Jeon Jungkook.

You've been thinking a lot and it's been a long time. You literally want to just pick up your phone, find Jungkook's number and just call him to tell him that you need to talk to him. Right now.

Well, that's what you want to⁰00 do and that's what you're going do to right? Right.

You pick up your phone and without giving it a second thought, you dialed his number. After the two rings, you feel anxiety building up.

"Fuck fuck," you murmur to yourself and quickly cut the call. Your heart is beating like you've just run miles. You suddenly feel like your blood is roaring on your ears. "What the fuck was I thinking?" You claw your hair.

Then you feel your phone vibrating. It's Jungkook and your heart dropped. What are you supposed to do? Pick the call. But you're panicking like the police is right on your door. With shaking hands, you go to press the green button but before that, the call cuts.

You drop the phone on your stomach and take deep breaths. It's ok. You'll talk to him tomorrow. Yes, he'll be in his mansion. You can just walk there and knock on his door and talk to him. That's simple, right. That way simpl-

"Y/N!" You hear someone yell after the front door of the apartment opens and that someone is that person that just gave you a panic attack.

You quickly get off the bed and run towards your bedroom door to open it. After swinging the door open, you see Jungkook standing right in front of you.

"Y-You're here...?" You nervously ask.

"You called me," he says and steps towards you but keeps a good distance in between before stopping.

"Uh...I- uh. I-It was an accident. I was calling uh... Lisa," you reason up while stuttering like a toddler and fiddle with the hem of your t shirt.

"Are you sure? Like you ok? Eun Jae?" He asks, a little worried.

"Yeah...," you anxiously chuckle," Everything's good. Yeah".

You look down at the floor while Jungkook is looking at you. He bites his lip lightly before running his tongue on it.

"Fine then. I should be going," he turns to leave and you look up at him.

Your mind is screaming at you to stop him right now and get everything over with but your lips aren't forming any words. You start walking behind him too. 'Stop him. Stop him. STOP HIM!'

At the main door, before Jungkook could reach the door knob you grab his wrist. You're breathing hard and suddenly sweating too. It isn't supposed to be this hard!

He turns to looks into your eyes looking for something. Maybe a hope. Maybe an answer.

"S-Stay," you whisper to him.

There you said it... but what now?

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Like and comment:) Next chapter is halfway done. Maybe I'll update it today🤷‍♀️

~Aster🌸