━━━ ( 💌 ) chapter four...

dear jeno,

under the shimmering moonlight was your first kiss right ? or am i perhaps wrong ? the night after you took kyungmin to the festival, the first night in which he slept over nine and finally felt free although it came with a cost if endless scoldings from his parents. the first time a human made butterflies emerge inside his stomach, and for his heart to pound like never before.

i know you're looking for me, but don't worry cause i mean no harm. some things are meant to be told. i purposely did this cause i want you to find me. then maybe after you do, everything will start to make sense. find me jeno, i'm running out of time.

 - n.jm 

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" come, i'm going to catch you don't worry," a soft whisper like a lullaby stood out amongst the many noises provided by the rustling of the leaves and the tumbling of the trees. there stood a male his arms out, a thick jacket wrapped around his waist, a brown sweater masked his built body. his smiled which made his eyes turned to a crescent like shape reassured a figure who was anxiously fumbling with his choices, a few meters above him.

the male above glanced at the empty space below him and back to the arms that were prepared to catch him. a deep breath was taken, he hoped it would calm his beating heart. but when the smile emerged from the other latter the anxiousness vanished to thin air, his heart no longer becoming a nonstop beating machine. he trusted him, and so he took a brave leap closing his eyes in the process.

" got you," he caressed the cheeks of the male who was engulfed in his arms. 

the other just buried his nose deeper to the crook of his neck, seeking for his calming scent. after he found it, the scent of coffee he radiated, he was able to mutter, " i know you won't drop me jeno."

" let's go, the festival's starting soon, " jeno released the male in his arms, settling his wiggling legs on the sturdy ground but a whine surpassed the male's mouth as jeno chuckled at his request, " alright baby kyungmin, i'll piggyback you till we reach the festival."

" that's more like it," kyungmin sighed, his fingers met jeno's blonde locks, exploring the length of his hair.

a comfortable silence laid out between them, no words were uttered just kyungmin's sigh and jeno's light humming. but suddenly a question rose to kyungmin's mind, what if faith and destiny wasn't in their side? what if time decided to be cruel and one day he would never be able to wake up because of his condition? things weren't certain, time is unpredictable and so is the future, if it was going to be the last time he would meet jeno, be in his arms then he had to take things for granted. 

" jeno, what if tomorrow something happens to my heart and i never get to wake up and see you again? "

jeno shook his head at kyungmin's ridiculous question but nonetheless he answered, " then i'll beg time to return you to me."

" silly! you think you are doctor strange or something? " kyungmin joked, the thoughts still lingering in his mind, " hmm, what if i was gone one day, will you move on with another person? "

" kyungmin-"

" no! answer my question, i want to know, " he persisted not letting jeno escape with a foolish answer this time.

jeno simply shook his head and bluntly replied," no, there is in no way i will."

" yes you will, promise me if i-"

the latter still shook his head, fastening his speed not letting kyungmin finish the sentence he would never want to hear. the younger was simply overthinking or was it that jeno wasn't ready to accept the reality that there's a slight chance it would be the last time he would have kyungmin in his arms? 

kyungmin wiggled in jeno's hold forcing the latter to let him down, he crossed his arms and offered his pinky, " promise me lee jeno, after i'm gone you will move on and find someone else that will make you happy."

jeno raised his eyebrow at the request, approaching kyungmin once his gaze landed upon the sight of the liquid pooling up in his eyes, " don't say that, you will never disappear from my life, not in a million years."

" jeno, i can't promise you a happy future, because this stupid heart of mine-" kyungmin placed his hand near the location of his heart and mercilessly landed several punches on it, to release the anger and frustration towards the condition he was born with, " this stupid heart of mine won't function properly-"

ripping his hand away from hitting his chest, jeno took kyungmin's cheek in his grasp and starred at him. his gaze could be described as a curtain, trying too hard to be strong only hiding what it really treasured.

sadness and pain.

" look at me na kyungmin, i fell in love with a boy when i met him on the local playground, he has a lot of flaws and his body is weak and fragile. but in the shadow of all those flaws, i met a fighter.  he was willing to fight for his life and freedom, willing to fake a smile so that everyone around him will be assured that he is fine. the na kyungmin i fell in love with was filled with imperfections, but the more i dig in i found all the hidden perfections—so don't tell me you don't make me happy cause the moment you offered your hand for me in that dirty playground, i have become the happiest person on earth, " jeno ended his statement still starring at the galaxy kyungmin's eyes held, he cupped his cheek and pressed their forehead together," and about time, i don't give a damn about time, so please let's just enjoy tonight and live it up like it's our last alright? "

kyungmin nodded and took a deep breath to calmnis anxious self, once he was ready a gleaming smiel spread on his face as he took jeno's hands in his, tangling it together, " alright, let's just enjoy the night."

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jeno chuckled at the sight of kyungmin practically juggling the massive amount of food in his arms, he tried offering the latter help twice but kyungmin declined it without a second thought telling jeno that he could handle it since it was just food. 

" are you sure you don't want me to help you? " once again he offered help to a struggling kyungmin.

kyungmin shook and puffed his cheeks, " are you underestimating my strength lee jeno? you aren't the only one born with eggs! "

" whatever you say then, don't call me if you end up-"

" ouch! " 

kyungmin's frail body landed on the patch of grass, the pile of food ended up scattered around the land, jeno swifltly came to his aid offering his hand while he checked if kyungmin was injured like always.

" i'm fine, just tripped not a big deal," kyungmin stated as he started picking up the packets of food on the ground.

jeno helped the younger with all the lifting and after the work was done, he eagerly dragged kyungmin by his arm to take a seat under the gleaming light provided by the moon. both of the male laid starring at the space, kyungmin laid his head on jeno's and stomach making it his own fluffy pillow. jeno played with the strands of kyungmin's brunette hair, knowing it could calm the latter.

" so, how did you enjoy today? " the elder asked kyungmin.

he sighed in reply and turned to gaze at jeno's sharp eye, " i enjoyed it, though my head still hurts from the viking ride and my dad is probably going to kill me once he finds out. still, thank you for taking me here."

" anything for you. " it was true, his love for kyungmin was so pure it would lead him to do everything and anything. 

at that moment it was just them, two boys seated on the patch of grass the moonlight providing them the shine. time finally became non-existed, the two pushed the thoughts and all the what-ifs away, their eyes only on each other, and their minds only thinking about the love that sparked between them. 

eventually jeno's gaze lowered to kyungmin's plump lips, shining and tempting him even more under the moonlight, he looked at the younger in the eye as if he was indirectly asking for his permission. kyungmin scoffed and took the first daring move to cup his cheeks as he pressed their lips together, the feeling of jeno's against his was like a warm blazing fire, it warmed up kyungmin's whole body to the point where even his heart pounded in a calmer manner. his gentle touch running down from his hair to his cheeks reassured kyungmin that for once the world was alright, it made him think he could claim time just for the both of them to share the moment. soon, after the loving kiss the couple pulled apart, minds still boring about each other jeno took the second daring move, uttering the three sincere words directed to kyungmin.

" i love you."

but he never got anything in reply.

⌨ ᶻᶻᶻ elena is typing ...
well that was a long ass ride huh ? im sorry if the chapters are too long i don't know if it's a good or a bad thing but i can't seem to write a short type of chapters since i keep on overdoing all the details and all jsjs forgive me peeps. also this chapter isn't proofread i'll probabky do it kater since your girl is quite tired rn. anyways, that will be it for today thank you for reading, stay healthy and i'll see u later ♥