"I am giving you five seconds to go away from me, otherwise" he whispered as he raised his head, looking directly into her teary eyes.

"l am going to ruin you tonight" he said as his eyes darkened

As soon as she heard these words, the ground slipped beneath her feet. she looked into his in horror eyes with her teary eyes. 

 she knew he was not in his right mind, because he was drunk.

"P-please let me go" she whispered while trying to calm herself down.

he smirked looking at her teary eyes. 

"Why, don't you want me... or do you still want that fucking Taehyung" he said with darkened eyes as He touched her cheek with the back of his hand. her eyes became wide in shock listening to him... 

"So he was telling the truth..." he said as he chuckled, backing away from her with his eyes not leaving for a second. 

"l-l" she trying to speak but words are not forming.

 suddenly, He picked up the flower pot from the table next to him and threw it hard on the ground, shattering the glass pot into the pieces. She got scared and retreated further, if she had her way she would have gone inside the wall, but she went as far away from him as she could. 

she looked down in fear at the pieces of the broken glass pot and then looked at the person standing in front of her, who was already looking at her like he would eat her up any moment.

"go to sleep now!!!" he said in cold tone as he take out the box of cigarette from his pocket, He was so angry that the veins on his neck and hands were visible. 

"but-" she said as she was about to come towards him but than

"I SAID FUCKING GO TO SLEEP IF YOU DON'T WANT GET FUCKED RIGHT FUCKING NOW" he shouted looking at her with anger in his eyes. 

she looked down and started walking towards the bed. She climbed onto the bed and covered her face with the duvet.

Hearing this from him, broke her heart like this flower pot. it's not like she liked him that's why his words hurt her but the way he said this thing so casually in his anger, that's hurt her very much. Slowly she is accepting the fact that she cannot get love or care from anyone.
a tear escaped from her eyes thinking all of this. she wiped her tears but, her tears were not stopping, she wanted to cry her out, but the knot in her throat ,Wasn't letting her do it.

meanwhile he was standing in their shared room balcony, with cigarette in his hand, looking forward in the dark night. He didn't know what was going on in his mind, because of which he was getting angry.

 thinking that he is not her first was messing his mind. he was feeling cheated. he don't know what to do, what to say.

but he can't deny that the part of him was hurting. he puffed the cigarette in irritation as he don't want to think about her.

he placed his hand on his chest, he was feeling something there, Which he felt 10 years ago, when he lost the hope of his life, his mother. 

suddenly, his head started hurting badly. The cigarette fell from his hand and he held his head with both his hands because of the pain. 

he screamed in pain as it was too much for him to endure.

 as soon as y/n heard his scream, she quickly got up from the bed and marched towards the balcony, from where the scream is coming from.

The ground slipped beneath her feet, she was in shock, looking at him. She started coming towards him slowly.

as soon as he saw her, He put his hand forward to stop her.

"Go away, don't come near me" he said as She could tell by looking at him that he was in a lot of pain. He again held his head with both his hands.

ignoring his words, she again started to come towards him.

"I SAID FUCKING GO AWAY FROM HERE" he shouted making her flinch. he thought that now she will leave,

But she was not going to leave from here, and there was no way she was going to leave him in such a situation. No matter how much he shouts at her, no matter how much he push her away from him, she is not going to leave him or anyone in such a situation.

she again started coming towards him with slow steps. he was in so much pain that he didn't even realizes that she is coming towards him.

as soon as she reach to him, she hugged him with her hands wrapped around his neck and started caressing his back.

he started to push her away from him, but give up soon as his pain started to faded away slowly just by her hug.

giving up, he also hugged her, wrapping his arms around her waist, pulling her more closed to himself, while all the time, she was caressing his back slowly to calm him down.

"why is he behaving like this? why is he having panic attacks? What is it that hurts him? why is it hurting him so much? " her mind was filled with all of these question, but have no one, who can give the answers of all her question.

she feel him calming down. she wanted to ask him about his panic attacks but she knew, it was for no use, he not gonna tell her anything. so she have to find another away, to find her all the answer.

lost in her own thought, she didn't realize that she was hugging him all the time and he also don't want to let her go.

they both were hugging each other under the moonlight, one's mind was filled with her question whereas one's mind was filled with her.

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