November 2, 2021

Syn

I groggily shifted on my bed and groaned as I woke up from my sleep. I frowned at the faint dream I had but couldn't remember and sat up in the bed. I expected to feel as tired as I normally did when I woke up, but I didn't. There was a new refreshing feeling sitting in me. There was no tiredness or headaches. I was just...fine.

I glanced at the clock to see that it was 5 am and I rolled my eyes. I guess I didn't get as much sleep as I thought. Regardless of that, I felt okay so I got out of the bed and turned my light on before heading to the bathroom. I took off my jacket and my phone fell out and onto the floor with a loud clatter.

I was going to ignore it and continue getting ready to shower, but when I moved to my pants, my eyes fell on my phone screen. My eyes zeroed in on the date and my head spun. November 2nd?! The last thing I remembered was the Halloween party, so did I really sleep for two days? I picked up my phone immediately and saw that I had several missed calls from everyone. The most being from Hades and D most likely wanting to discuss why I hadn't made it to any meetings or work.

"What the fuck," I whispered as I thought back to that night. The fact that I had managed to sleep for almost two days was something that I couldn't grasp. I didn't recall having any nightmares or dreams about a past I wished didn't exist. The only lingering thought on my mind when I woke up was Queen.

Granted, I thought about her all that time, but this was different. As if my memories of her were wrapped around me like some security blanket, I didn't think bad thoughts. Only good ones, about her.

January 28, 2017

I shuffled around in bed, not being able to go to sleep. I was still on guard after everything that happened tonight. The thought of someone coming here to hurt anyone in the house wasn't what kept me up though. It was the kid a few doors down from me, and the woman sleeping in the room opposite to me.

Every move she seemed to make in her bed echoed through my door and to my ears. How could I peacefully sleep when she was making so much noise?

I had to admit that she was beginning to get under my skin. I was annoyed that I even let her look at me the way that she did. Unlike everyone else's stares, hers wasn't one of fear or anger...it looked like curiosity. There was obviously something else, but I had no idea what to call it or what it was.

I closed my eyes at the sound of her soft snores and sighed. She was even annoying while she was sleeping. Frustration roamed through my body like a disease and I pushed the blankets off of me and sat up in the bed. This wasn't going to work.

The need to somehow get closer to her was becoming overpowering and I hated every fucking second of it. I needed to get away from her before I did something I'd regret, and I needed to do it now.

I rushed out of the room and walked into the dark living room. It was empty as I expected since it was the middle of the night and I lowered myself to the couch with a sigh. The quiet and darkness in the living room let me relax on the couch and I lay back and closed my eyes. I felt myself drift off into sleep until I heard an opening of a door in the corridor. Completely alert and on guard, I looked towards the corridor and waited for whoever it was.

When I saw Queen round the corner, I rolled my eyes. Her arms were flailing in the dark as she tried to take small steps and I shook my head.

A smart person would've turned on a damn light, but of course, she failed to do that.

You're attracted to an idiot, Syn...

Looks like it.

Instead of going where she seemed to try to go, she made her way closer and closer to me. Her sweet smell began to fill my air as she got closer to me and my jaw clenched. Are you doing this on purpose?

I remained frozen as she neared the couch. I expected her to try to kill me or try something weird, but when she proceeded to continue walking past me, I looked at her in confusion. It didn't take me long to realize that I WANTED her to try something and when she didn't, an irritating nag appeared in my head telling me to take her. Telling me that if she wasn't going to do something, I should.

With that voice going nonstop, I moved my leg off of the couch and in front of where Queen was walking. As expected and as I wanted, she tripped over it. With a yelp, she landed on my chest and I let out an "Oomph" that made her freeze on top of me. My mind raced wildly at thoughts of what I could do to her soft body was on top of me, but I controlled myself as to not scare her away.

I lifted my arm above my head to turn the lamp on, and when I looked back at her, I could see the embarrassment flooding her face. "What are you doing, Queen?"

"I needed water," she said lowly with an apologetic expression on her face. "I'm so sorry." She looked around the room nervously before looking back to me and I turned the light off once again, not acknowledging her apology.

She must've taken my silence as me letting her go because she tried to move away, but my arm around her kept her in place. She tried once again and annoyance began to take root in my mind.

"Stay." She stopped moving on top of me and to get more comfortable, I removed one leg from under her to the floor and raised my other knee. It just so happened that my thigh was now between her legs, and I wouldn't have thought much about it if it wasn't for her heartbeat accelerating and the intake of breath she took.

I looked at her to see her lip between her teeth and I watched as she silently moved onto me instead of trying to get away again. Her legs straddled me as she slightly moved her hips and a groan escaped me as she was positioned directly over my dick.

She was just trying to leave seconds ago and now she was getting comfortable? What? She laid her head on my chest and I let out a shaky breath as her fingers glided across my chest. They seemed to fall onto a particular scar that she ran her fingers over delicately, and I closed my eyes.

I'd been with girls before, but no one had touched me the way that she had. The gentle and calming nature in which she did it relaxed me. And instead of stopping her as I usually did, I closed my eyes and got lost in it.

I cleared my throat when I felt the atmosphere around us get more intimate. I wanted to stop, I mean...I needed to, but I couldn't...and didn't as my own hand began moving along her back as I mimicked the same gentle touching that she had.

"Comfortable?" I questioned as I felt her own heart beat against mine. The feeling was so euphoric and it almost felt as if we were sharing a heart for a moment.

"I'd be more comfortable in a bed," she muttered. I could hear the small tinge of attitude in her voice, but I was no longer holding her back. She could leave at any moment if she desired, but she wasn't for some reason.

"You want me to take you to a bed?" My question was purely innocent, but the way she froze once again made me realize just how suggestive it sounded.

"No. That's not what I said." I scoffed at her response and we fell quiet. We continued our light touching and I let myself relax enough that I was near sleep once again, but this time...being woke up didn't bother me.

Queen's soft lips gently fell onto mine quickly and my eyes opened in shock. Out of all the things I predicted happening between us, her kissing me first was the last thing I imagined. The kiss was short-lived as she moved to lay back down on my chest, but I was not going for it. There was no way I was going to let that be it.

I sat up with her in my lap and pulled her to me with an arm around her waist. I buried my other hand in her hair and looked at her lips. I knew if I kissed her I wouldn't be able to let go. As with most things that I enjoyed doing after thoroughly learning how she'd become an obsession of mine. I knew better than to do it, but my mind wasn't in control right now. It was my lower body that was getting harder and more uncontrollable by the second.

Just do it, and forget about her...

I repeated the mantra in my mind as my lips moved to hers, but as soon as our lips connected, she kissed me back just as feverishly. It was unexpected, but I knew then and there that as many times as I would tell myself that this was a one-time thing...

It was all lies.

I smiled at the distant memory as I looked at the wall absentmindedly. I'd been so caught up lately in wishing that I felt nothing, that I hadn't thought about how amazing it was to feel something. If I couldn't feel, I wouldn't have ever known just how momentous that moment was in the history of her and I.

Before now, I thought about honoring her wishes and letting her go. It was a fleeting thought yet it was so profound that I found myself beginning to delete old pictures of us.

The full 180 going on inside of me right now was making another smile appear on my face. As far away as she was, she was still my home. She brought me a peace that I hadn't experienced in so long, and thoughts of her alone were making me feel like I was on top of the world. I can't let that go.

Call her a drug, or call me obsessed, but I'd wait for her as long as I needed to.

What if she doesn't come back?

Then I'll go get her.

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Author's Note

So he fr did trip her🧍🏾‍♀️
I hope y'all don't mind shorter author's notes lmao, someone recently told me it distracts from the story so🙄 I'll keep it short❤️
Lmk your thoughts ✨