17| "I'm just destruction. I will destroy you too."

She groaned, cussing at herself. "What the fuck I thought last night!!" A cry left her mouth as she banged her head on the oak table. "That guy has made me crazy!! Fuck you!" She ruffles her hair in frustration. "He is gonna come her—" horror crossed her face when the door knocked. She shakes her head, not wanting to believe it. A loud bang could be heard on the door followed by a faint voice calling her. 

"No! God, help me!" She begged, almost tearing up. Last night was embarrassing—so much embarrassing! If only she would have not gotten drunk but as they say "it's no use crying over spilt milk." 

Now, she has to deal with that—doesn't matter how. She inhales and healed long breaths, a method she has learned over years while dealing with anxiety—the method he told her. "Why am I even panicking? It's not a big deal...I was drunk!" 

She walks towards the door, not forgetting to wear her black cap. She opens the door to find Jungkook standing there, his hand in the air, almost hitting her chest.

A big smile tugged at Jungkook's lips when he saw her. A feeling of pride and overjoy rushed in his veins as his shoulders raised a bit. "What are you doing here?" She questioned her tone as usual, flat and deep.

Jungkook chuckled, a chuckle radiating happiness. "Came to meet my dear friend." He chirped, flashing his bunny smile. Friend—dear. The words ring in her mind over and over again. She gulped the lump in her throat that started hurting her throat.

Her eyes glossed at the words—words she heard after years. Jungkook smiled, raising his brows. "What? You said that you're my friend last night." Lie, again a lie. She clearly remembers what happened last night and she never called him her friend.

Shall we go back to last night? Let's see.....

She shake her head, everything was becoming blurry. "The alcohol is getting me." She mumbles, almost inaudible. Jungkook slurps the noodles, focused on the ramen that he got after a lot of whining. Suddenly, he heard sniffing from the front. He lifts his head to witness her head hung low, tears falling on the table.

"Is she crying?" He mumbles, noodles hanging from his mouth, his doe-eyes wide, staring at her in confusion. "It's all because of  me!" She whispers to herself, tears streaming down her face. 

"I should've died! I don't deserve to be happy!" She sobs, getting up from the chair. The alcohol was showing its effect, spilling the emotions that she has buried deep inside her. Even though she was drunk, no one could tell that because her composure was as usual. Jungkook blinks his eyes, staring at her going outside without telling him. 

"What happened to her suddenly?" He thought, staring at her disappearing figure. He quickly ate the noodles hanging from his mouth and ran behind her not forgetting to pick up the remaining food so he could devour it later.

Jungkook's brown orbs roam here and there in search of her. Everything was so dark—dark and dull like her life. He couldn't see anything—like she didn't let anyone see what was buried deep inside her. The faint light glowing behind Jungkook, making him appear like an angel—an angel that came into her life.

He squinted his eyes when he saw a figure sitting near a closed shop, smoking a cigarette. Now, he was sure that she was Shadow.

Jungkook sighed, walking towards her. "What are you doing here?" He questioned, holding his babies carefully in his hands. She lifts her head, inhaling smoke. "Who are you? Leave me alone." She claims, exhaling the smoke through her nose.

Jungkook tilts his head, confusion getting the best of him. "What–I'm your handsome neighbor, your friend."  She scoffed, clicking her tongue. "Don't try to act smart boy. I don't have friends."

Her words were simple but they held so much sadness in them. Jungkook smiled sadly. "But I'm willing to be your friend—" she grits her teeth, throwing the cigarette from her finger, getting annoyed with him. "Shut the fuck up! And go away! I don't need friends!" She shouts, glaring at him.

Jungkook squint's his eyes. Something was unusual in her behavior. The way she was standing—and swaying in her place. He gets closer to her, trying to sniff her. "What are you doing?" He ignores her and gets closer to her.

"You're drunk?" He says, disbelief laced in his voice. "I'm not drunk. Get the fuck away from me you asshole!" She pushes him, clenching her jaw.

"Let's go home, you're drunk." She frowns at him, clenching her fists. "What the fuck do you want from me?! Fucking leave me alone! You're always bothering me! I would punch the shit out of you!"

He inhales, ignoring the urge to forcefully take her home. "See, you're drunk and you can't stay alone." She grunts, ruffling her hair in frustration.

"Boy, I'm drunk every day—drunk in pain or drunk on alcohol! Leave me the fuck alone!" Jungkook closes his eyes in frustration but he sucks in a breath, trying to calm himself. Again her words hit deep in his heart, clenching his chest.

He sighs, walking towards her. He doesn't say anything, clutches her wrist, and starts to take her toward their car. She bites her lips, getting ready to punch Jungkook. "You piece of shit—" Jungkook turns his face towards her and the punch land on his face.

He groans, his hand raising towards his face. She pants, throwing a punch again at his face. Jungkook stumbles, groaning in pain. "What the fuck I did?" He closes his eyes when he saw her targeting his stomach but the punch never came.

He opened his eyes to see her on the ground. Panic raises in his body when he saw her lying there. He runs near her, shaking her. "What happened to her?" He whispers to himself. Soon the panic turns into a facepalm when he heard her lightly snoring.

"This girl." He clicks his tongue, chuckling a bit. "Ow, it hurts though. What is she? A girl or a boy?" He mumbles, trying to get her on his back. "She's light. Ah! Such a relief." Jungkook takes the sleeping girl towards their car.

They reach their home with her mumbling lots of cussing and apologizing. "She's something." He shakes his head, taking off the seatbelt.

"What if I just take her cap off and see her face?" He thinks, his hands itching to take that cap off but he retrieves his hand back when he remembers the punches and her threats to kill him. "I shouldn't take advantage of her drunken state."

"Shadow...." He softly shakes her, trying to wake her up.

"Shadow—this sounds so weird." This time he shakes her with force. She opens her eyes, rubbing them, and her lower lip pushes forward in a pout. She yawns, stretching her body. She looks to her side, a frown etched on her brows.

"What are you doing in MY car?" She interrogates, leaning closer to him. "We went to the convenience store and you are the one who offered me, you were drunk and punched me out of nowhere and after that, you slept soundly as if nothing happened, so, as good neighbors I am, I decided to take you home now don't say that you don't remember that you didn't punch me cause I have proof and that hurts!" Jungkook said in one breath, his hands raised on his sides.

She blinks her eyes, nothing was making sense right now but she just wanted to kill him because he disturbed her damn sleep. "Get the fuck out of here." She said, nodding towards his house.

Jungkook scoffed, his tongue grazing the walls of his insides. He doesn't say anything and gets out of the car, not forgetting to close the door with a bang.

She sighs, taking off her cap. "He's so annoyingly sweet—sweaty and annoying!" She slaps herself lightly on the cheek. "What am I saying? Have I gone mad? This man makes me crazy agh! I hate him so much!!"

Jungkook snaps his fingers, snapping her into reality. "What are you thinking about?" He queries. Her gaze travels towards the bruise near his left eye and one on his right cheek. She purses her lips, feeling guilty.

"Go away!" Jungkook squint his eyes when her voice came out softer than usual. "Did something happen to you? Oh! Do you have a headache? I got this medic—" She closes the door when interfering with him in between. "Why are you doing this?" She closes her eyes in frustration, ruffling her hair.

Jungkook sighs, his smile turning into a gloomy tug on his lips. "She doesn't like me." With a heavy heart, he walks back to the house, his yellow rose falling from his hands.

She bites her lips, watching him from the window. "Why do you want to get hurt? Don't come near me....please."  She closes her eyes, her mood becoming gloomy all of a sudden. "I'm just destruction. I will destroy you too."

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I'm back

I'm sorry for the late updates but I'm trying my best.

Oh, did I tell you guys we adopted
A PUPPY??!!
Yes yes, we did but I forgot to tell you guys in my last two updates.
Anyways her name is Benzene (It was Onyx before. I named her that bit mo one like it so they changed it TT)

Let me show you, my cute daughter

Look at her sleeping! Oh my God so cute!!!