I just wanna say things won't happen exactly like they happened in greys mostly because it's just how I want it to work but some things will happen like they did

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I went to freshen myself up once Meredith and Alex went back to work and then I found Owen, I had to tell him everything before I leave to go to the meeting.

"Owen, do you have a minute?" I asked seeing as he was chief of surgery

"Sure, what's wrong Belle?" Owen asked and I took him into a empty room, it was the closest place to go.

"I've just been diagnosed with stage three Breast cancer, I'm starting chemotherapy tomorrow and I know I should have told you sooner that I was waiting for a diagnosis like this but I didn't want anyone to worry until I actually knew myself. Mer' Derek and Alex knew but I wanted to keep it to myself. I'll have to take some time off starting from now because Barbara from oncology wants to keep me in for observation especially after previously with chemo. I have my first round of chemo tomorrow" I explained to Owen who looked sorry for me.

"Thank you for telling me Annabelle, and I'll make sure everything is put in place for you. If you want me to tell anyone I'll do it. And anything else you need you just have to ask." Owen have me a small smile and I nodded

"Would you tell everyone, I can't do that. I need to get myself to a meeting because after that news I'm struggling so much. I need to change and get out of here. I'll probably come back later after the meeting but right now I can't handle telling everyone." I said to Owen who nodded.

"Thank you" I said. I then said my goodbyes and quickly went to change into my normal clothes which was a pair of black jeans with a white turtle neck top. I grabbed my phone and car keys before making a swift exit from the hospital and to my car. I found the closest meeting and immediately drove myself their....

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I sat in the hall where the meeting was being held, it wasn't the biggest one I've been to but everyone looked friendly. I sat beside a dark haired woman who gave me a small smile. A few people had began speaking and then the woman who had sat beside me. Her name was Amelia Shepherd...

"Shepherd??" I thought to myself. I knew Derek had sisters and one of them was called Amelia but this could just be a coincidence, right? A few more people told us about them

"Hi I'm Annabelle Grey and I'm a recovering drug addict and if I'm honest I'm struggling real bad right now" I paused.

"A few weeks ago I brought again but I didn't use, I was tempted but my sister and her husband found me asleep with it and got rid. I was tempted to buy again today especially after the news I had received." I paused. I always find talking about things in these meeting help more than anything.

"I just found out that I have stage 3 cancer, they wanted me to start chemo today but i was going to be admitted so asked to start tomorrow" I said.

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After the meeting I was stood at the coffee station when Amelia came over to me.

"Hi, I'm sorry to hear about your diagnosis" Amelia said with a small smile.

"Oh, hi." I said snapping myself out of a little day dream I was in

"Sorry, I'm Amelia Shepherd, should have introduced myself before saying that" Amelia said with a small laugh while still smiling.

"Annabelle Grey, but you can call me Anna' or Belle'. This is probably a strange question but are you related to Kelsey and Derek Shepherd?" I asked biting my lip.

"I am, is that a problem" Amelia asked and I shook my head.

"Not at all. I was just wondering, I wasn't too sure if it was just a coincidence. Your brothers my sisters husband, I knew he had sisters, I'm friends with Kelsey" I paused

"I didn't know you were in town" i then said.

"Just got in this morning, I was going to see your sister and Derek after this" Amelia said.

"We their both at the hospital and probably in a meeting right now with Owen, I asked him to tell everyone my diagnosis. I didn't think I could face telling everyone. Mer shouldn't need to be in their but probably is. I could give you a lift to if you need?" I offered Amelia.

"You don't have to do that you know, I could get a Taxi" Amelia said while I shook my head. I didn't think I should be on my own right now, my state was of mind wasn't the best as it was especially after the diagnosis.

"I know I don't have to... but umm..." I paused looking down.

"I don't think I should be on my own right now.  If I am on my own I'd probably do something stupid, if you get where I'm coming from" I mumbled the ending.

"Plus you are the only person who hasn't giving me the look of sympathy. Something that I'm happy about right now" I then shrugged.

"I'll take you up on that offer then" Amelia smiled while drinking the coffee she had picked up.

"So this is your third time with cancer?" Amelia asked and I nodded while we made our way to my car.

"Yep, first time was leukaemia, second time was when I was a teenager, brain cancer; that time was when I first used. I had surgery and it left me in constant pain, The only way I could get through school and even med school was using and then I was in remission, Derek managed to solve the mystery to why I was in constant pain, but called it a mystery because to me it was. Anyway you until a few weeks ago I was fine, I was having symptoms but I didn't think anything off it, but then I told my sister and she got me to have tests and then here we are, today I got the diagnosis and honestly I'm terrified, I don't want to die, I'm not ready to die, I still want to see Zola and Bailey grow up" I paused as I realised it was like I was giving Amelia my whole life story.

"Sorry, you don't need that. I shouldn't have just blurted all that out. Sorry" I rambled on which made Amelia laugh.

"It's fine Annabelle, I also know we've only just met but you needed to get it off your chest and if you ever need to have someone to talk to then you can talk to me. Even if I don't stay here in Seattle" Amelia said which made me smile. I knew I would have liked that, she was beautiful and her smile; wow that just melted my heart. It was weird, I've never noticed someone's smile before, well I have but not the way I have with Amelia's. The two of us got into the car and I pulled out of the parking lot

"Are you sure. I know it's too much for me to handle. It'll probably even be hard to Meredith to handle especially becuase she's helped me through the last two times." I shrugged

"I'm sure Annabelle. We all need someone to talk to who's not family" Amelia reminded me, I knew that was true but technically we were family.

"If we're being technical we are technically family. Or sorta family" i shrugged again with a little laugh.

"Well we can be whatever you want us to be, family, friends or just supporters of each other" Amelia said to me

"Friends sounds nice." I said with a smile. My phone began ringing as I turned a corner on the journey to the hospital. It was Maggie, Meredith's and mine half sister.

"Would you mind putting that on speaker for me. It's my other sister. She'll probably not be happy that I didn't tell her personally about the diagnosis" I said. Although Meredith and I haven't long gotten to know Maggie, I've actually gotten closer to her than Mer has right now.

"Hey Maggie! What's up? I'm currently heading back to the hospital" I said once Amelia pressed the answer button and put the phone on speaker.

"Why didn't you tell me you were being tested for breast cancer?" Maggie said without a hello.

"Told you so" I mouthed to Amelia while I looked towards her while waiting at a traffic light.

"What no hello?" I paused waiting for her to answer me.

"Sorry. Hi. Now why didn't you tell me" Maggie said making me roll my eyes. I was glad she couldn't see me right now.

"I didn't tell anyone. The ones people who knew was Mer, Derek and Alex. I didn't want people fussing over me, I still don't. It's not my first rodeo" I said

"And I had to hear about your diagnosis from Owen! You couldn't tell me yourself!" Maggie said and I could feel myself welling up, tears were in my eyes and I felt like I was going to throw up, not a feeling I haven't felt in a long time.

"Look Maggie I didn't want a fuss being made. I didn't want people to worry before their was even anything to worry about and as for not telling you, I'm honestly not sorry for that." I said probably sounding selfish but it was true

"Alex and Meredith were with me when I got the news, I told Owen because I'm going to need time off and left the hospital like right away because I did what was best for me and went to a meeting, look can we talk about this later? I'm driving, I feel sick and I just don't want to be discussing this over the phone" I cut myself short just having to finish this little argument with my sister.

"Fine, I'll come and find you" Maggie said.

"Bye" I said and nodding to Amelia who hung up for me.

"I'm sorry about that." I said deciding it was best to pull over for a second, I pulled over to the side of the road and parked the car before quickly unbuckling my seatbelt and climbing out of the car and threw up. I should have seen this coming, i had been feeling sick for a few days, I worked through it yesterday, I've been trying to push through and now things have came to a sort of halt it hit me.

"I can't have a bug!" I mumbled.

"Okay Amelia, I know you've never driven my car but currently I think it's best. I should have rested sooner as it's hitting me all at once." I speak quickly as Amelia gets out the car to check on me.

"I was thinking you were rather pale. How long have you been feeling like this?" Amelia asked, before I could answer I was bent over throwing up once again

"Drunk drivers" I heard a woman say which made me sigh

"Mind your own damn business" I said leaning against the car

"I saw you were driving. It's obvious you are drunk!" The woman glared at me

"First of all like she said mind your own damn business and second of all try being diagnosed with form of cancer and get back to me on how you feel! If she was drunk then she wouldn't have gotten into the drivers seat. She's way smarter than that now leave" Amelia stood up for me while I was sick once again, she didn't even have to stand up for me.

"Thank you, and I've been feeling sick for weeks, i put it down to anxiety, this is the first time I've actually been sick. I think it's because I've finally slowed down rather than pushing myself and all that" I shrugged finally feeling like I could get into the car again.

"Right when we get to Grey Sloan I'm going to take you to your oncologist and I'm getting your sister. You aren't going to change my mind over that" Amelia said

"I'm fine Amelia, I don't need to see my oncologist until I'm admitted" I tried to change Amelia's mind

"No Annabelle! Your cancer could be worse than anyone thinks." I had to agree with her in that. I knew their was a possibility that the cancer was making me sick but I didn't want to believe it.

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At the hospital Amelia took me to Meredith who then with Amelia's help took me up to Barbara my oncologist. Who admitted me with me being severely dehydrated and realised I had an infection as well as the flu. It just wasn't my day.

"Thank you for today Amelia." I said before Amelia left to go home well technically to Derek and Meredith's but that was fine, I was tired and in all honestly I just wanted to sleep, as they say sleep is the best medicine although being a doctor I kind of have to disagree with that saying but sometimes sleep IS the best medicine.

Written: 22/07/22
Posted: 08/10/22

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