i felt so nervous and my nerves were doing their work really well, i prayed the whole night for this and i asked Allah to fulfill my request.

As I was trying to steady my breath , Sumbul stepped inside my chambers with a face i didn't know how to read .

" Your majesty" He bowed down to me and my daughters and proceeded to smile " His majesty Sultan Selim Khan has finally chosen his heir"

"Will you say it already ?" i snapped at him not capable of holding my eagerness grabbing hatice's hand for support .

" His Majesty chose Şehzade Orhan as his successor" i couldn't believe what i was hearing , my heart was beating at a very dangerous pace .

"Ya Allah thank you" i prayed and hugged my daughters who were as happy as I am .

My son was now officially the next heir of the ottoman throne , as great as it sounded we worked a lot for this along with my father and now that what i wanted came true i couldn't ask Allah for more .

"Sumbul , distribute sweets and gold to all the harem . This must be celebrated in the best ways possible" I ordered him and right after that orhan arrived to see me .

"Mother" he stepped in with the biggest smile ever , my heart was full of joy when i saw him like this .

" Come here my brave prince" he grabbed my hand and kissed it for blessing and hugged me .

" You owe all of us a gift you know that ?" Gevher joked as she playfully pinched her twin brother " You will get it don't worry" he answered his sister .

« Did you bet on something without me knowing ? » Hatice asked getting irritated by her siblings .

« Well me and gevher were betting that if i become the crown prince i will get all of you to expensive gifts and now i am about to do it » i laugh as i looked over his shoulder at gevher .

« You're the future of this dynasty , this is the best gift all of us can ask for » I said ruffling his hair jokingly " I am glad you achieved this , i am so proud of you" i hugged him once again .

"None of this would have been possible without your support mother , so did grandfather . He defended me from everyone and everything given that Ibrahim has some allies with other pashas he tried to manipulate the situation" he explained feeling joyful , i couldn't imagine turhan's face when she discovers this .

" Your father will organise a feast for today's decision , go and rest and prepare yourself" I ordered  him and he quickly listened leaving me with my daughters .

" We should gift him something in the contrary isn't that right Gevher ?" i asked my eldest and she didn't like the idea " Count me out for that he's the one that should gift me something" she crossed her arms .

" I'm thinking about gifting him a sword and of course it would be one that he's always going to use" Hatice seemed excited after i proposed my idea .

"Yes yes we should ! let's do it mother" Hatice looked at me with so much excitement " I will see what i can do about that"

" I will go bring ahmed back from his classes and we can talk about it later" Hatice answered while looking at her other sister .

Hatice bowed down to me and left me alone with Gevher who looked like she had something to say .

" Mother" she reached for my hand and sat me down on the couch , i gave her a confused look .

" I spoke with Hatice yesterday and , before you get mad i know .. i know you've talked to her about this but she really wants to get married" I couldn't even listen to what she said next so i shushed her up .

" Close this matter for once" i gave her an intimidating look which made her stop speaking , she looked down and tried to think of something else to say

"She's way too young , and you as an older sister shouldn't feed her delusions . You should know better gevher" i scolded her and she didn't talk back but gave me an apologetic look instead .

"I am sorry about that i should've been more careful with this situation , it's just that she wanted it so bad that's why" she tried to explain herself and i actually listened to her .

"I know , she talked to me about this but you're older than her . You can't support her in this , in any way i would marry her off to someone until it's the right time" she nodded after my words understanding my point of view.

"Now go and change for the party tonight , we should celebrate our win" her frown turned into a smile quickly understanding her task , she bowed down to me and left .

This Hatice matter had to be closed , i was sure she was talking to someone and i wouldn't allow that to happen . In no way is she going to go against my will .

I tried to forget about this and only think about Orhan's new title , this needed to be celebrated in all ways . I got prepared and wore my elegant red dress and put my hair in a low bun , i didn't like to admit it but i was starting to age year by year . It's not that i didn't like it but it just marked me , how the years passed by so quickly .

" Attention Sultan Selim Khan" the girls immediately let go of me as they were fixing my dress and hair , i looked at selim from the mirror and stood up .

I motioned for the girls to leave not taking my eyes off of him , he took few steps approaching me .

« My beautiful wife » he said in a low tone before cupping my cheeks with both hands « you're so beautiful »

Hearing him say these beautiful words to me never failed to impress me and make butterflies dance in my stomach .

« Thank you » i said feeling emotional about everything , mostly about him choosing our son .

« I took a lot into consideration, and Orhan is the best fit but it doesn't mean that ibrahim is any less . I love both of them equally » he explained himself but i was slowly drowning into his blue eyes the more i looked at them .

« I am proud of him and your decision , you have truly made me happy but it makes me sad at the same time . May allah. ever take you away from me » i said bringing my hands to his chest .

« If you leave me i don't even want to imagine what i can do to myself » i expressed my true feelings that i've tried to avoid relating the subject « If you want to die make sure i die too the same day » he laughed but immediately stopped after he realised that i wasn't joking .

« Don't  say that , i know i am older than you but i don't think i'm dying yet . i would prefer you watch me die than me watching you die , because i wouldn't hesitate to join you in a heartbeat » I felt irritated by his word but i softened afterwards , it was wholesome .

- Timeskip -

How long has it been , ten years or twelve ? or maybe even nine . my memory was not as good as it was but one thing i couldn't forget was when i held my first grandson in my hands and when Orhan was appointed governor of Manisa .

It has been so long since then , i have been challenged by a lot of events that i didn't think i would go through . When my father passed away and my mother passed away several months after due to sadness and loss of my father , it had taken a toll on my health with both completely destroying my soul and shattering my heart . It took me years to move on a little bit but with the help of selim and my children i could get back to my normal self.

The death of my parents marked me a lot so did the marriage of Hatice and Gevher and the birth of my first grandchild who was Orhan's daughter . My heart never felt so full of love and gratitude for a long time and having my children by my side made everything better .

Ahmed was eighteen now , my youngest one who still loved me as dearly as when he was a little child . He was appointed governor of kutahya and he was also excpecting his first child .

Everything was overwhelming , the most important thing is that me and selim stayed faithful to each other and loved each other since the beginning and still do after many years together . we kept the promise of growing old together and nothing was more beautiful than that .

As for Ibrahim he was a governor of Konya and stayed in touch with his mother turhan who was still exiled , he didn't create problems to us and focused on improving himself

I couldn't ask for a better life with my little family , i loved and still love them more than anything else .

I was so caught up in my thoughts i forgot that selim was talking to me .

« You're distracted as always » he teased as he leaned on the balcony watching the sunset . I smiled covering my mouth

« what do you know about me ? » i realised he was ranting to me about his back pain while i was busy thinking and reminiscing about my life.

« when i said i wanted to grow up i didn't mean this back pain » he put a hand on his side and groaned .

« Well you're older than me aren't you ? » i teased , he knew i liked to tease about his age so he just laughed it off .

« You're so gorgeous as always , i have never regretted loving you . ever since you fell from those stairs the first time ,i knew you'd be perfect for me and now i realised that i won the world not just the prettiest wife ever » he caught me off guard and i didn't know if i should laugh about the stairs incident or feel touched by his words so i smiled while staring at the sunset feeling shy to answer him back .

I didn't need to talk , i could stay silent and he would understand everything i want and feel from my eyes

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It feels like i am saying goodbye to my baby !! i spent years writing this story and i couldn't be more grateful for all of you for bearing with my writing and my lack of updates who sometimes took months .
Love you so much and thank you for everything , i will be focusing on my other book named Fated which i'm also excited to write

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