After we reconciled, I can definitely sense that my mood just got better after all what happened with my father and his sickness I was just out of my mind all the time my feelings were confused so my relationship with everyone I wasn't even in a in a good mood with my children and it sudden me, but I can excuse myself .

We got ready early in the morning. I took all of the children with me and so did Selim , I didn't really want to take Ahmet But I know he wouldn't forgive me if I left him out or even worse if this was the last time he would see his grandfather . We all got in cages and we set off

As soon as we arrived, my mother was already waiting for us in the entrance and she hugged all of them one by one  .

" All of you are the apple of my eye welcome" she said lastly as she hugged ahmet who really liked her, I could even even say she's the second person he loves after me and his father.

" your majesty" my mother bowed down to selim and he smiled when he looked at her " you must be going through very tough times, I didn't have time to come over, but now that I'm here I want to see ibrahim pasha"

My mother welcomed us all inside and we all had to my father's room.
My heart was beating very loud at each step we were making towards his chambers. I could see my room in the very far corner of the hallway I couldn't help but remember the time where I would play hide and seek with my father and this hallway

I brushed  those thoughts away and regained all of my courage and got inside my father was laying there unconscious and his face was so pale. It pained me so much to see him in such state and I couldn't help but back a little and let my children take a closer look

Orhan stared at his grandfather and fought back his tears he tried to not cry and I could tell that from his face because he was my first born and he saw his grandfather and his most greatest years , he spent a lot of time with him .

" the doctors have already found the medicine and now we're given it to him every day, but I don't see any changes in his state " my mother explained out of the blue . I was surprised to hear this fact because I was not aware of that. I didn't expect them to find the medicine this fast ,I was happy to hear that.

" so do you mean that's my grandfather will get better?" ahmet asked as he looked up at both me and his father .

"Inshallah , he will . Our empire needs such great men as ibrahim pasha , your grandfather sultan suleyman relied happily on him and he put his blind trust on him and the trust was passed down by my father to me" he explained to ahmet while he just blinked and noticed after everything his father was saying .

"and inshallah he will accompany my crown prince too" i I glanced at him very fast as he said that .

" now that we saw him I think it is time for us to leave him rest alone" Selim put his arm on Orhan's shoulder and looked at all of us .
"Hiranur you can stay if you want but I will be taking Orhan with me"

I was surprised at his sudden request of him taking Orhan with him, but I didn't really mind.i glanced at all three of my children .

" I think I will stay here for more time. I will see you at the palace" i replied as selim and orhan walked away , I saw the doors close behind them and I was now with Gevher , Hatice and Ahmet .

Gevher didn't blink. She just looked at her father with such sadness but behind her sad eyes I could feel some rage. She suddenly turned around and looked at me.

" who can possibly poison my grandfather? I don't understand there are so many guards in the palace and yet no one could protect him very well this is so fishy" she was absolutely right and that was the question. I've been asking myself this whole time. How could he be poisoned inside the palace and have no one check his food or taste it before my father can eat it .

" he was poisoned ?" Ahmet asked innocently , I completely forgot that he didn't notice and we just told him that he had a high fever . I didn't want to explain to him what poison meant so hatice explained to him instead .

" Mother this is so unfair. I cannot stand seeing him like this. Whoever that this should be punished no matter who they are or how many power they hold" Gevher was talking with such anger and spite it reminded me of myself. I could now see that her personality was becoming just like mine.

" you don't have to worry about it I promise you whoever did this will regret it very very soon . And they're going down I don't care if we go down together, but this person is going down no matter what even if your grandfather stays alive" I looked at my father and my anger resurfaced again .

" I know that you will my beautiful daughter , his Majesty will not let something slip like this" as she finished speaking the door opened just to reveal my sister akça .

her daughter was with her and she immediately ran to my children , my sister came inside and hugged me first before hugging my mother too .

"How are the best nieces in the world doing ?" she asked all three of them and they all smiled when they saw their aunt .

It's very rare for us to see each other  , I realise that this was what I needed .

My family .

We done all decided to leave the room to let my father rest. We went to the living room and we all sat down to drink some tea.

Ahmet was playing with my niece Kaya in the opposite side of the room . we chatted about so many things and tried to avoid the topics that were bothering us since we met only a few times and I don't want to remember those times negatively .

But my mind was elsewhere I was still thinking about what  Selim and Orhan were doing , I he didn't also bring Ibrahim or else another problem would happen between the both .

We glass upstairs and noticed that the doctors were rushing  out of my father's room. They had pleasant expressions and that just made everyone jump out of their seats.

"Your majesty , good news" the doctors announced " Ibrahim pasha has finally opened his eyes"

I didn't realise that these six words would impact me as much. I felt like my whole world got built again and that all of my heart wounds just weren't there anymore.

We rejoiced as we looked at each other everyone was happy but it took us sometimes to do something and rush towards his room , my mother was the first one to come in and as soon as I set a foot in I put a hand over my mouth as I saw my father looking at us .

"Baba" me and my sister called as we immediately sat on the side of his bed , I couldn't help but let all of my tears out . no they weren't tears of sadness. They were tears of happiness and thankfulness.

He tried to utter some words, but we stopped him to do so , it took him  sometime to open his eyes so he obviously wouldn't have enough energy to talk or say something even small .

My children also rushed next to us the amount of happiness that was radiating from the room was incredible . We were all looking at him and he was looking at us and I could read from his eyes that he was grateful that he had the second chance in life. .