Nothing could've prepared me for this, i was so furious and sad at the same time . yes we got into arguments before but he never dared to do something like this .

I got in the carriage and was contemplating if i should go back home and stay with my father or go back to the palace , i didn't want to look weak . because the news were going to spread before i could even set a foot there

I had to go back to the palace , no matter what happens . i ordered the aghas to take me to the palace which they did , once i arrived i knew for fact everyone was going to stare .

I got back alone without my kids in the middle of the night , i was so infuriated and couldn't speak to anyone .

"Sultana , what happened why did you come back ? i hope nothing bad happened" sumbul followed behind me and i didn't want to talk or see anyone but i felt like i was going to burst .

Once i got inside of my chambers i couldn't help but smash the nearest vase on the floor angrily .

"Sumbul i don't care , this woman has to leave before i actually do something to her"i looked at him and he gave me a surprised look .

"He sent me back , because apparently i shouldn't interfere and that he can take his kids whenever and wherever and with whoever he wants" i explained to him but he didn't answer me right away .

" Sultana excuse me for my boldness but his majesty is right and wrong at the same time" i gave him a look and he immediately looked away .

"Why is that woman with them that's what i am trying to understand" i sat down on my bed and started thinking about it.

" This woman is no good your highness , i agree with you we should send her back" he agreed with me on that , i trusted my gut feelings .

« I was never fond of her, since the first day . I have to think about something that's clever , i'll make her pay for everything she damaged » i had to sit with myself and get my thoughts together so i can come with a plan that's going to send her back to where she came from .

I had a difficulty sleeping tonight , i couldn't shut down my thoughts as i kept recalling our conversation and planning what i was going to do to send Monica back .

The morning was already here and i knew for fact they were going to comeback today , there was no way they were going to spend five days there .

I got dressed neatly and prepared myself to welcome back my children , i have missed them and last time i couldn't even have a proper conversation with them .

my door opened and there were my kids coming in one by one , my oldest son Orhan kissed my hand .

« Mother it is great to see you here again » he hugged me as i patted his head « my beautiful son , welcome back » Gevher and Hatice kissed my hand and moved to the side then i saw ahmet who was holding gevher's hand .

« You don't know how much i have missed you » Ahmet spoke as he hugged my waist , i couldn't help but laugh as i hugged him back .
« I have missed you even more »

« Ahmet was one of the main reasons why we're back , he kept whining about how much he missed you » i couldn't help but laugh , he was too cute and honestly i was glad he brought me up many times so that princess can know she will never replace me .

They all sat on the couch and i finally joined them , ahmet sat by my side as i started to ask them .

« How was it did you like it ? » They all looked at each other and gave me one look which was obviously a negative one .

« No we didn't like it , we lied that we liked but honestly it was not it » Orhan expressed and i have already known that , i guessed it way before .

« That princess is no good » ahmet added and we all laughed at once , if he didn't like someone it was over for them .

« But still you have to appreciate your father's effort , he had positive intents » i added and they all agreed .

« We did that mother don't worry about us , and we all want to see our grandfather » Gevher added and i felt moved , it felt unreal to take my children to see my father.

« If your father agrees then why not i will take you , don't forget to keep him in your duaas so he gets better » they all agreed with me and asked me about his sickness furthermore .

i have already told sumbul to ask around who served my father in his night shift so that i can get more informations about this matter .

Me and the children kept talking for a while until one maid came in , she bowed down to all of us while i exchanged curious looks with her .

« Your majesty, His majesty Sultan Selim asked for you » i looked at my kids and they immediately understood that they had to go. Gevher grabbed ahmed and bowed down to me before they all left .

« He's asking for your majesty to the private chambers » was he serious ? did he think i will just forget about what he said and come running to him ? i obviously wasn't going to prepare myself or bother to go to him

« Tell your sultan if he wants me he can come by himself »i tell the girl as i rose from my seat,her eyes shoot open from what i said .

« S-sultana i can't say this » she stuttered as she looked at me and i just smiled.

« Just do what i said don't be afraid » i reassured her before she left to his chambers , i didn't care an ounce . he had to apologise, i was hurt by what happened

I waited patiently and was currently getting a back massage from a concubine as i sat infront of my mirror . She knew her work very well

it was just a matter of time before the aghas announced selim coming in and the door opened wide . he came in look in challenged

« Leave » he ordered the girl that was giving me a massage, she immediately shrinked and left my chambers quickly .

i take my time to turn around and look at him , he had an unpleasant expression on his face.

« What is wrong ? why didn't you come to me » he asked as if i was forced to listen to him « because i don't want to » i simply answered .

He raised an eyebrow and got closer to me , i stood up and still looked down .he got dangerously close and raised my chin up using his finger . in other circumstances i would've melted but now i was fighting back demons to not react to this

« You've been quite .. »i was waiting for him to finish his words but he was just looking at my face « you've been messing up lately and i can't seem to figure you out » he continued and i felt like i forgot how to speak , my throat felt tight and i couldn't even speak.

I refused to look submit to his words, i had to say something so he doesn't know how he was affecting me .

« You are the one who keeps messing around » i finally said and he didn't have any reaction he just waited for me to continue but i was not planning to continue speaking either .

« You forget sometimes who you're talking with » he finally phrased it, i would be lying if i said this didn't intimidate me because it did .

« You also forget that , i am your wife and i have the right to speak to you just like you speak to me . you don't realise how hurt i was yesterday especially when you know how much i don't like her » he moved his finger away and put his hand on my shoulder .

« So she makes you jealous ? » he asked and i knew it was the question i was trying to avoid all the time , i was not insecure but i couldn't hide my jealousy .

« Just admit it , why did you fall silent all of a sudden » he asked trying to get those words out of me but i was not going to let him hear them from me .

« No i am not » i finally said but he didn't really look convinced « i am not insecure i just think that her being here is causing me discomfort and i wait for you to understand that »

« She's here for a reason , these are politics i can't just send her away until i fix her problem » he explained but i was just not buying this excuse it was not worth risking our relationship.

« I didn't appreciate what you did yesterday and i said those words because you had to hear them , not everything can go your way . i excpect you to respect my decisions like everyone else and understand that i can take my children whenever i want » i felt like a kid being scolded .

« I admit it , i was wrong and now i think you know exactly where the problem is » he backed away slowly not looking away from me .

« Do you really think i will ever get with a woman other than you ? you can't even imagine what you do to me . No one can come between us and i don't think i have to explain that to you » his words were hanging in the air as i didn't even find the words to respond back .

« I promise you that there is nothing between me and her and there will never be » i looked at him unsure but he was starting to get more open with his feelings which rarely happened.

« Fine then , i will let this pass but i can't even guarantee you what i will do if i feel something going on between you too , i don't think you realise how crazy i can be » he laughed at my last sentence but i was so serious with it .

« Promise » i finally smiled after the argument , it felt good to make up after each argument . i hated it when our relationship is always pending because we can't discuss our feelings .

« Come here » he opened his arms and i finally agreed to hug him after a long time , he brushed his fingers on my hair .

« I asked about your father numerous times , it's time for us to take the kids to see him » i felt sorrow when he brought that up . « you're right they asked me earlier and i think we should do it » i added , i wanted them to see their grandfather hopefully he feels their presence and they see him again before something happens to him