After yesterdays events i finally managed to relax a little bit and the tension was practically not there anymore . Orhan in contrary was still not over what happened he has been avoiding contact with anyone and i didn't force him to socialise with me .

« Valide , are you even listening to me? » Ahmet distorted voice finally became clear to my ears , i was shaken back to reality .

« Mommy is not okay today , excuse her your highness » i joked while pinching his nose and kissed his forehead .

«  Are you still upset with my brother ? or with me » i looked away once and let out a laugh .

« No of course not how can i get upset as long as i have you , you're the best thing that has ever happened to me » i hugged him tight but he wouldn't let me go .

« Me too , i'm glad you're my mother » what he said melted my heart , he was the sweetest eight year old i've ever encountered.

My door suddenly opened and we both looked at it , it was selim . i haven't been able to speak with him since that argument and honestly i was still not over it .

« My dad arrived » ahmet looked at me and went towards his father , i watched them from afar waited a little bit then approached them .

« How are you doing ? » selim asked me while playing with ahmets hair , i nodded quietly clearly showing him that i was not having it .

«  Are you upset ? » he stared down at ahmet and looked at me again «  Leave me with your mother alone for a minute i'll get back to you » Ahmet nodded after his father and left my room .

« Is it what happened yesterday? » he asked as he sat me down , i just stared back at him waiting for him to understand

« I didn't like the way you spoke to me yesterday , im not like Turhan . and you know that if i am disrespected i can just go to my father » he looked stunned by what i said as if he didn't excpect this .

« Hiranur look , i just got back from a very long and difficult campaign and the last thing i want to hear are problems . You're the only one with a sense of responsibility so i am waiting for you to understand me » I didn't know why i felt little after what he said , he was calmer than i was .

« And i also excpect you to respect me just how much i respect you , i don't like turhan and her and I will never be on good terms . I hope our problems will keep the kids away from them » Selim nodded after everything i said , he looked like he was genuinely understanding me .

« And i myself don't except you two to get along , i have a different relationship with each one of you and i won't force you both to act like sisters » He rubbed my back gently and i finally sensed comfort , i love it whenever we talk our our problems out .

« And one thing i wish ibrahim would learn how to respect me , he said many stuff to me that were disrespectful and i couldn't let them slide » i didn't want to say it but i had to point it out because no one wants to be disrespected by a kid .

« I understand , and i promise that this will never occur again i'll talk to him and he will respect you . any disrespect towards you is considered one towards me , i really care about you and i don't want you to feel upset » what he said just made me feel lighter and so much better , i am glad we had this talk because it was comforting .

« I wanted to tell you that i've decided we all go to manisa together , i haven't been there in so long and i've wanted to take you and the kids with me »This is exactly what my soul needed i wanted to free my mind from problems .

« That's a great idea i would love to , and the kids will be excited about it too » ahmet was the one who never traveled so i was sure he wasn't going to talk about anything else other than this trip .

«  I will have to go now , i have many things to do . I'll see you tonight » he kissed my forehead and made his way to the door , i watched him leave and i immediately called nurbahar to help me pack .

Today i had lunch with hatice who had so many things to talk about , i was trying to make sure to give time to each one of my kids and let them know that they can count on me in everything .

No mother would prefer a child over the other one , i had a special bond with all of them but the one i had with ahmet was way different . maybe because he's my last born but he loved me in a different way , he would never do anything by himself if i wasn't with him , maybe it may seem normal because he's a kid but no he was way too attached to me .

« Mom i've tried to tell you this but i'm shy and i don't even know how will you react » i dropped my fork down and looked at her confused , Hatice never really said something like this , she usually gets to the subject .

« What is it ? should i worry ? » she looked around and i dismissed the maids around us so she could feel comfortable.

« Mom i don't know how to say this , you're probably gonna be angry at me » she started playing with her fingers under the table and i grew more curious about what she had to say .

« No im not gonna get angry i promise , just say whatever you have to . I'm your mother after all »her anxiety started wearing off when i comforted her .

« Mother i wanna get married » i felt my heart drop to my stomach when she uttered those words , she looked taken aback still waiting fire a reaction .

« There's no way forget about this subject » i grabbed my fork and digged into my food again , she couldn't speak back .

« Mom just hear me out , you know how i am older than my age and i even look older than my sister gevher . I found my person please don't say no » she tried to persuade me and i was just not having it , this was out of question .

« Hatice i don't even want to start naming how many wrong things are in what you said , you're still young and no matter how mature you are at this age you aren't ready to be married . Marriage is a big word and it's not something to be taken this lightly » She seemed to be disappointed by what i said but as her mother she had to hear it .

« Mom i promise , we love ecahother a lot and i just want to settle already . Don't stop me » i was shocked because i never knew she was seeing someone .

« So now you're doing stuff behind my back ? congratulations » I dropped my fork down abruptly and took a sip of my water .

« Close this subject and i don't ever want you talking about this , Once you're mature i will let you but at this age you can't hatice .. understand it » she didn't talk back this time , she just nodded after me and didn't argue back .

Hatice knew when to stop talking and didn't take things personally , she always searches to understand things from each one's point of view and i hope that's what she did right here .