« Sultana are you okay ? » two girls asked me while they were passing by me , i took a few breath in and nodded .

« I'm fine just go back to your work » i dismissed them from my side and went back to my room , nurbahar immediately ran towards me when she saw how pale i've gotten .

« Sultanim why are you in this state rare you okay ? No no why am i asking im calling the doctor » she started panicking more than i was but when i sat down i stopped her .

« No it's just my contractions again it will pass » i said reaching for the cup of water she was handing me . i took off my shoes and let my hair down from the bun i had .

« I feel so weird you know ? i'm not going to give birth right ? i don't want to » i asked myself while she was just staring blankly at me .

« You should get sleep sultana wait » she went to close the curtains but i stopped her again. I didn't want to sleep right now .

I finally started feeling like myself and got up from my bed , i had to think of a solution . I was so angry and pissed off after my last argument with sah sultan .

« Nurbahar go send sumbul , i want him to go personally to the old palace and bring back all of the girls that were under my service , Sah sultan will have no choice but to surrender » She looked at me for a moment then nodded .

« I hope that will not bring you problems » i shook my head « No it will not , she has no right to control whoever serves me here »Nurbahar bowed down and left me alone in my room .

I had to wait until she comes back but this time sumbul was the one who came in , his head was looking at the floor .

« my dear beautiful sultana » he said while tiptoeing towards me , i gave him a weird look and proceeded to ask him .

« I think i was clear ? do you have any questions ? » he hesitated before looking back at me .

« I asked sah sultan about your request and she declined » i couldn't feel my hands until i realised i slammed it against the wall behind him .

« Did I tell you to ask her ? answer me » he flinched when i raised my voice but i was too angry i didn't even care .

« When i tell you to do something do it without taking permission from anyone , i am the sultans wife and whatever i order is what's going to happen » i snapped at him and i never got this angry before , i was so infuriated by this act treating me like i'm some kid whose order doesn't count .

« Now you will either do what i told you or i'll fire you right away » he finally looked at me and i could sense the shakiness in his body and voice .

« Whatever you wish sultana im sorry i caused you trouble » he finally left my room and i turned around to look at the window .

I got really angry that my contractions started again , this wasn't the right time for them to comeback again .

« Dont comeback if you're not done with what i told you » i spoke as soon as i heard my door open , i knew it was sumbul but he didn't make a noise at all .

I struggled to turn my whole body around so i didn't move because i excpected him to leave right after what i said .

I exhaled trying to bear with the pain and that's when i the person who came in came to my side .

« Selim is that you » i asked trying to keep my composure , he grabbed my arm and sat me down carefully.

« What's the matter ? are you okay ? » selim kneeled down and grabbed my hand , i felt like a mess . I wanted to cry from the pain and yell from anger

« No im not » i replied , i grabbed my stomach and i felt that the contractions started getting so much worse . I groaned in pain which made him worry even more

« Oh my god what do i do » he got up from the floor and started searching for nurbahar but she was nowhere to be seen .

He immediately opened the door and started calling for the doctors to come , i was absorbed in my own pain that everything around me was fuzzy.

« Shit shit , i've never done this before » i started cursing under my breath while crying in pain at the same time .

« It's gonna be okay ! i know you can do this but man isn't it early ? » all of the energy i had left was slowly disappearing .

« This is not helping at all » i added while he started blowing air infront of my face , i was starting to swear and the pain was getting worse each second .

« Let's lay you down » he tried to grab my forearms to help me stand up but my legs were not helping , i was giving up .

He slipped his hands around me and carried me to lay down , luckily the doctor came in the right time , every one was rushing inside the room .

« Your majesty can you please leave » they looked at selim and then looked at me already swimming in my sweat crying in pain .

« I- shit okay i just have to tell her few words stay back » he pushed them aside and got on his knees .

« I promise you it's going to be fine , just stay strong for me , for us . start imagining us holding our baby and you'll be just fine » i somehow felt so much relieved when he started talking to me .

« I love you » he finally kissed my hand and left the room , i was going to pass out at any minute .

ive never felt this kind of pain , I was terrified .