i had just stepped in the palace , my heart was racing so fast i thought it was going to burst . i shouldn't be nervous but i couldn't help it .

i wanted to see nurbahar first and then go see him , i didn't let anyone tell him that i was coming . i went to my room and so many surprised faces came in my way but i couldn't care less about them

I opened my room and it was empty , it was as if it was never there . the room had only few tables in it and i was very confused , i double checked if this was the right room but i was sure .

« Sultana welcome » sumbul agha came running towards me and i shoot him a glare .

« Mind explaining this right here ? » i pointed at the empty room , he glanced at it and then back at the floor then met my eyes .

« Those were the ordres of sah sultan , she changed this room and will use it for other purposes » i was angry , very angry because this room was special to me and she had no right to change it without my permission .

but of course she took advantage of my absence .

« You will go tell your sultana to get my room done here once again or i'll fire you » his eyes grew wide open that he immediately left .

This ruined my mood so bad but i had to calm down and go meet selim now , nurbahar was probably in the harem but i didn't want to go there . just not yet

« i want to see his majesty » the two guards looked confused but one of them immediately went in to inform him , he cameback very fast and let me in .

I was welcomed with selim walking towards me , he had a wide smile on his face but he still didn't get close to me yet .

« Welocme back » is all i managed to say for now , he acknowledged my words and smiled .

« I can't believe you actually came here just to tell me this » his sarcasm was still the same , iheld back a laugh and replied with a straight face .

« I was thinking about us this whole time » i took a step close but we still weren't that close . he stopped smiling when he heard me talking .

« So you decided to give us a chance ? » his tone was as if i said the most unbelievable thing ever and i nodded .

« But » i breathed out « i don't want anyone coming between us , nor your aunt or turhan or whatever , and i don't want you drinking again » he was taken aback and didn't excpect that i will set rules this time but it had to be done .

« Look , i've tried my best to stop drinking and it's a whole process i have a lot to do so i can fully stay away from it , but i promise you one day i'll be clean again » he walked closer to me that now we were facing each other .

« I'll give you time for that but i don't want to see any other woman step here . Don't think i'm insecure because i'm not , i just want you to respect this marriage and respect me » his smile was starting to show and he finally put his hands on both sides of my arms .

« I promise you , i cherish you and appreciate you so much i would never do something in purpose . i respect this marriage and i'll change whatever i'm lacking for the sake of it » his right hand started going down until it reached my stomach .

« I hope you forgive me too » he referred to the baby and i finally laughed this time . « you're forgiven » i finally told him .

He looked down at me because i was way shorter than him , he finally pulled me in his embrace and i felt like all my problems and worries fell to the floor , as if one hug was going to solve everything .

it was what i needed this whole time .

he broke the hug and cupped my face with his hands , our noses were few inches apart and i was blushing so hard i was hoping he didn't see that but i was wrong .

« You're so adorable when you blush » he finally surprised me with a kiss that i gladly returned , i intertwined our hands together before we pulled ourselves apart .

« I bet you have so much to tell me right ? » i dragged him with me to the terrace which was our usual spot .

we would never sit in the room , it's either we're in the terrace or in the gardens . it was our favorite place to be , away from everyone and everything . Just us and the sky

it was already getting dark and cold but we still wanted to sit outside , we got settled down and he immediately wrapped his arm around my shoulder bringing me closer to him .

« I miss this and i miss you » he whispered while patting my head gently , i nodded in response and talked

« Don't you think i didn't realise how thin you've gotten » i remarked and he just sighed « I know , things have been so stressful to us . it was a very hard campaign but what matters is that we secured a victory »

« I knew you would win against them but now that i'm here again i will make sure you eat well » i looked at him and smiled , he gave me a shy smile and threw his head back .

« I won't escape from you now right ? » i moved a little bit from him and frowned . « are you saying that i'm annoying ? » he gave me the side eye and chuckled .

« Of course not » he moved his legs before continuing « I just miss you so much god .. » my frown turned into a smile and i fixed my posture so that im not facing him .

« I dont miss you though » i flicked my hair back and waited for his reaction but he knew i was just messing around .

« I just realised that you look even prettier pregnant you know ? » my hands unconsciously went to my swollen stomach .

« Do you know what are we going to name him or her ? » he looked away and kept humming for a while before staring back at me « I don't know, i just want the baby to be healthy . the gender or name seam meaning less to me »

he was wise for that , he never made me feel pressured to have a boy , not like others who think that we're the ones who control that . he had a big heart

« I love you » was all i managed to say after his beautiful words « of course you love me i love myself too » i rolled my eyes and playfully pushed him .