(every '...' means a new P.O.V)

(Pay attention to the dates)

February 6, 2015.

"Isn't that Jeongin?"

"He's kinda creepy..."

"What a freak..."

Yang Jeongin, a 14 year old teenager, was faced with these rude comments as he walked down the hallway. Nobody actually knew what he was like, they just thought he looked weird. And sure he was friends with the legendary Felix, Bang Chan, and Hyunjin but that didn't make a difference to his classmates. The worst part was they weren't even bullying him directly, they were too scared to even have a conversation with him. Not fair.. Jeongin would think. They had no way of knowing who he really was.

"Jeongin! Hi!" the cat-like boy, Felix, called out, before running down the hallway to get to Jeongin. The rude comments immediately died down once Felix called Jeongin's name. Felix and Jeongin had been friends since 6th grade. "Hey Felix." A smile appeared on the younger boy's face. He couldn't help but smile at his friend. "What class do you have first? I'll walk you there." Felix continued to smile brightly, he looked bright and handsome. Why can't I look like that? Jeongin would think to himself. "I have math class first." Jeongin replied, still smiling. "Awesome! Let's go!" Felix smiled brighter, linking arms with Jeongin as he started to walk the younger to math class.

Jeongin had always been insecure like this, he would constantly be staring at himself in the mirror, waiting for his face or body to change. Waiting to transform into someone good-looking and popular like his friends. That day never came.

...

March 2, 2015.

"Minho...can I go to your house?" I asked, looking up at the purple-haired boy. "But Felix, you came over yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that." Minho said, looking at me while walking. School had just ended. "But your parents are still in America, so they won't get mad if you spend a night at your friend's house. Please Minho?" I answered back.

Minho stopped walking to stare at me. "Felix, are you okay? You haven't left my side since...y'know..." He spoke up, those words hit me hard. Was I really ok? Am I ok with the fact that my best friend isn't here with me, right now? No, I'm not. "Yeah, I'm okay, I just want some company, to take my mind off of things." I answer, plastering a smile on my face. "Okay, I'll keep you company, let's go to my house." Minho softly smiled back before walking forward again, with me following.

...

"Hyunjin, open up please. It's Han."

The door slowly opened. It revealed a tired looking Hyunjin. He was wearing a baggy t-shirt that said 'MAHAGRID' and some sweatpants. He looked like he hadn't slept in weeks. He stepped back and held his arm out into his room, motioning me to go inside.

I walked inside, sitting on Hyunjin's bed. Hyunjin picked up his phone off of his desk and sat next to me. Hyunjin didn't open his mouth even once, so I assumed he just didn't want to talk. "I um, went to the convenience store and I brought some snacks. Do you want to just hang out and eat snacks with me?" I looked at Hyunjin, he looked down at my bag full of different snacks and then he looked at me.


"Sure."

We spent the rest of our afternoon watching a movie on Hyunjin's phone and munching on snacks. Near the end of the movie Hyunjin fell asleep on my shoulder, I tucked him into bed and left the bag with the rest of the snacks I bought on his nightstand.

...

It was your fault.

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How did you not see the signs?

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He trusted you.

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A pool of blood covered the bathroom floor. It had been about a week since Jeongin passed away, and Chan hadn't been taking it well. He just wanted a hug. He knew how his other friends were also hurting and there was no way he was going to burden them with his pain. So he took his pain out by doing self harm.

It wasn't the best way to relieve pain, Chan knew. But he was now too deep. Everytime he cut himself a feeling of satisfaction washed over, making him crave more. Stopping wasn't even a goal of his anymore.

...

"Seungmin! Look, a kitty!"

I heard Jeongin call out, I turned  around to see...nothing? "Jeongin? Is that you? Can you hear me?" I called out for him, I knew dang well that was Jeongin's voice.

"Seungmin, do you think one day, I'll be as pretty as this cat? Will I be able to attract people like this cat does?" I heard Jeongin, he sounded sad. "Jeongin, you are already the prettiest, loving, kindest boy I know. You basically brought our friend group together! Stop talking nonsense and come here! Please..?"

"It's too late for that, Seungmin, I'm sorry."

I then woke up, breathing heavily, it was a dream. It was just a dream.

...

Ding Dong!

I opened my apartment door, only to see the puppy-like boy, his eyes were puffy and red. "Hi." He said. He sounded awful. "What is it?" I asked him sternly. "I-...I don't know. I just wanted to be with someone and you were the first person that came to my head..." Seungmin answered me. "Go home, Seungmin. I can't deal with you right now." I said. If I allow him in he will see how bad I'm doing.

"Oh, um, ok then. Bye Changbin..." Seungmin said before he turned around and walked away. I closed the door, before walking back into my small apartment.