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recognise me?

i am the garnished roadside pebble you stumbled on a few ages ago.

and now we meet again.
in a tangle of tongues, in a soft shade of thorn bush.

i build a two-minutes-home with your footsteps, and you let me.

in those few minutes, you become the familiar fairy lights that i had hung on my closet doors, and i'll cling to each of your blinks till your golden lights turn maroon on my face.

i knew you would sing me a song.
i taste the sharp notes and relish in them because this was what i had been waiting for.
they aren't happy notes, but they comfort me.

i knew this too, that your last note will destroy the home i built.

but why do you have to be brutal to me?

your heels dig deep within my lying heart, you do not look back.

i hear the heartbeats in your departure and i catch one and pleat it neatly and keep it under my favourite pillow.

i will go to sleep now for i am tired, and wait for you to wake me up again.

but recognise me?

i am a garnished roadside pebble you will stumble on after a few ages.

and i am washing away.
the more i live, the lesser life i have left.

someday, even if i rain screams upon you, your ears will hear nothing other than the oblivion.

hello?
hello?
hello?!

will you be happy if i am gone?
will you be happy if i am?
will you be happy?
will you be?
will you?

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i didn't take inspiration from the song for this poem. it was a different thought when i began. i just borrowed the title of this poem from a line of the song, lovely.
but ofcourse, i always appreciate the reader's interpretation.

please listen to the song though, even if you don't like it, i promise you wouldn't repent.

(skip the next part if you mind me obsessing over billie eilish)

✨heart made of glass
my mind of stone✨
i honestly do not know which part of the song i am more obsessed with- the lyrics, the perfect melody, the harmonies, the violin, the song video......
just that
every cell in my body screams that i love this song, and i always will.

ps- billie was the first to teach me to dance to the songs i used to cry to.

thank you.