⚠️ WARNING ⚠️ IMPLICATIONS OF SU¡CIDE,HARSCH LANGUAGE, AND DEPRESSION. IF YOU ARE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THESE TOPICS,PLEASE CLICK OFF

Update: I PUT THE DISCORD EDIT BELOW NOW AND CHANGED "Cr-" to "Aya-"!!!

Note: Mika's prounous have changed quite a bit. When I first started this fic,they went by She/Her. But I've changed this. They go by They/Them now. So please remember this,and ignore their She/Her prounous here.

Mika scribbled down in their notebook "-May 15th,11am." They were keeping a journal of her life,however, they hadn't truly felt safe writing down in there. ".....ugh."
They looked out the window,all they saw was rain.

"There is a lot of rain. The flowers are wilting I should take better care of them." Is all she managed to think of. She didn't know what to write in there,so she decided that maybe the rain would give her ideas. There wasn't anyone at home to stop here, so she went outside.

They sat on the grass. Well, at some point,she just gave up and lay down on it. The forest was nice and quiet. She didn't know what to do, so she simply took her phone out. She may have felt guilty going outside just to use her phone again. Nonetheless,she continued. "Oh,yeah. Discord." She downloaded the app,however, she simply forgot to sign up."Maybe I should put my usern-hmm..?" Her mom had texted her that she was back home and needed her back home. "..." She put her phone back in her pocket and looked around. The rain was barely there anymore, and no one was here. "...I'll take a nap..."
So the idiot took a nap. "Huh.." She was back in her room, and she felt quite awake. She sat in her chair,dumbfounded. "Hey." "What,who was th-!" "Shh" a smiling version of her was behind her and toke her hands gently,leading her to a void that was infecting the room. But the version of them,their smile, was nice and sincere. Not sadistic. "Isn't this nice?" "What..." The smiling girl let go of Mikas hand and went around her. "There's no one here." Every word of hers made Mika feel uneasy: "No one to hurt you,no one to disappoint and fail. Here, you can fall into despair."
"...What are you talking about?"
"Tsk,tsk, and you lied again. I know this is all you've ever wanted!" The mysterious figure raised before her hands,then went behind Mika. "Here..." At this point, Mika had felt on unbelievable pain in her stomach. "...you can dissappear,in silence." Mika had fallen to the ground, and she kept falling."You Nuance." Still shocked by her words.

Could this be? Does she really hate herself that much? "OWW," lost in thought,the hit her head on the...floating ground? "Come on,catch the ball already!" A little girl with short blonde hair with a pink accessory wearing a basketball uniform yelled at her. "What do you mean-DON'T YOU SEE WHERE WE ARE?!"Yeah,we're in the basketball room. Are you blind?" "What-Who even are you?" The little girl seemed sad at the question and was even more angry. "Y-y-YOU BROUGHT MY HER,YOU KNOW MY NAME.IT'S KA-

as the girl was talking,Mika fell off her little island. "WAIT-MIKA-"
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"Darling,we're gonna be late." "Wha-what?"Oh,silly dear. You promised to go with me to the ball..."
"What ball?" The black haired girl was simply amused by Mika. "Hehe,fufu~" "=͟͟͞͞(꒪ᗜ꒪‧̣̥̇)". "Miss!" Someone knocked on the door. At this point, Mika knew she was in a dream and just proceeded to play along. "Mika,dear." The girl said,making Mika snap out of her thoughts. "I-u-uh,yes?" "You're dress is ready." she said while putting a strand of her hair behind her ear."Ok,thank you," the girl simply smiled. "Oh,and.." The girl looked back with a piercing gaze."What was your name?" "Hehe." She walked to face Mika. "It's Mar -" she then woke up,in the sand...

She could barely breathe,so she simply closed her eyes. "Mika."Then she saw light. "Mika,do you want cupcakes or not?" A boy with brown hair wearing a t-shirt and shorts asked."Hmm?"A girl with a sweater and what seemed to be male shorts then spoke."Have you not been getting enough sleep again?"which was a thoughtful sentence,just not one with the kindest tone. Mika looked at the girl. "Isn't it a little warm fur a sweater?"I didn't know you had eyes -"AYA- and then she actually woke up.

"Oh..." they got up and wiped the tears off they're face "Hmm,I cried..."
She went home after deleting discord because she knew her mom would search her devices.She opened the door to her annoyed mom. "Why were you out late?" "I'm..sorry.". "Alright, sweetie,just don't be out late now. Go study ." "Yes, mom,sorry." They were scared. They felt pathetic for feeling tears. Hours past
and it was 1am. While it was past their bedtime and their mom was asleep,they used her computer playing games.
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Today, they went to school. "Hey,Mika." Her favourite teacher Ms.Grim came. "Hey,ma'am." She walked towards Mika."I assume you've seen the baking contest flyer." "Yes, " Mika shifted their gaze to the flyer."It's truly no wonder that one has applied. The other contestants are much better,prestigious schools and such."
Ms. Grimm had a thought. "Why don't you apply, Mika!?" "What?" Their usually monotone voice was caught of guard."Why me?"

"Why you've told me you cooked and baked when you were a cute little child."Well,perhaps I'll think about it." "Wonderful." Then the bell ran. "Goodbye,ma'am." Mika bowed and went away. "Goodbye,dear."
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"Hi,sweetie." They opened the door to their house. "Hi, mom."
"How was your day?"It was fine. I'm going to go study now." "Alright,I'm going to make dinner."
"Please bring to my room." Their mom smiled."Wonderfull,go ahead now." Later in her room....
After eating in their room, they decided to bake for the contest.

This was it:

"Oh,my Mika. Who did my little girl bake this for?" "Um...for you...mom."
"Really,darling! Wonderfull!" Mika took a picture of it with her mom. "My little boy!"
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Later at school...
"Hey ms.Grimm...I'll apply." "Really,dear?" "Yes, " Ms. Grimm smiled softly. "You're a wonderful person,just don't overwork yourself,dear." "Alright." She applied on the flyer and left after school.

"Hmm..." She signed in on discord, and then she was putting in her name. "What should it be?..." they looked outside to the rain. "Ame." She typed on her computer. What about the other name. "What about..." She then typed: "Weird Dreams."

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