"you came" wooyoung said and stood up from the cold stair of his house to greet san.

"yeah, i did. but just to make one thing clear for both of us" san said and sat on the stair.

the stair where they shared so many moments. just a simple stair was full of memories that were once good ones. now they hurt just like every other thing about wooyoung.

it hurt san even to stay in front of the blonde now. but he had to convince wooyoung to forget him and most importantly to convince himself to forget wooyoung.

"i'm okay now wooyoung. it hurt so bad but i'm better off without you. you have to be the same without me. after all you chose hongjoong"

"why can't you understand that i didn't! just think about it. if hongjoong was my boyfriend, now would you still be here, in front of me? no.

if hongjoong was my boyfriend would i have texted the fuck out of you at 1 a.m in the fucking morning? no.

i love you san and i will love you till i'll die! you made me happy and you still do! everything became about you and i can't stop it even if i want" wooyoung explained frustrated and san just looked at him.

he cannot fall in this trap again. wooyoung will get bored of him after one month and he'll be hurt again. he had to be strong and resist if he wanted the wound to stop its bleeding.

"say something"

"and what should i say? that i belive you when i'm not? that i will be able to trust you from now on? to lie that i don't love you when i do?" san said and felt his eyes becoming wet.

no he won't cry. not in front of wooyoung. he already said something stupid, crying will just make it worse. once again his brain was telling him to leave and never come back and stop loving the one in front of him yet his heart wasn't listening.

his heart wanted to be close to wooyoung's. san decided to put his heart in a cage and stop it from beating for wooyoung, as wooyoung released his heart from the cage and let san's one beat for it.

their hearts were far away from each other yet they still beat for one another. far away in the distance they both hold hands and are free from the vicious loop that became their home. they are still together lost in the stars.

"you still love me?" the blonde said and whipped one of his tears before falling on his cheek.

"so fucking much...this is what i hate the most. that even if i try my best you are still part of me"

"then why don't we stop this? why don't you come back to me?" wooyoung said a bit of hope in his voice.

"because i was hurt. hurt by everything since the beginning. i was helping you and then you were running to hongjoong. i was spending nights with you and during the day you didn't even know me.

i took pieces of me to cover your missing ones and you didn't give a single fuck. where were you when i was collapsing? where were you when i tried my best to fake a smile?

you have never been there for me while i was the first one at your door when you texted me that you are not okay. you are too indifferent wooyoung. i'm in the middle of falling apart and you don't even notice. when i trusted you the most you went to hongjoong. it was always about him.

it was never about san that spent nights crying silently so he won't disturb you. it was never about san that was there when hongjoong fucked someone else. it was never about san. i loved you but you never loved me"

san took a deep breath. he finally managed to tell wooyoung everything that he has been living these months but never had the courage to say, until now.

wooyoung looked at him with his starry and wet eyes as he whipped his own tears with the sleeve of his hoodie.

"sannie..." wooyoung sniffled and then let the tears out. all of them. he was hurt as well by the fact that he couldn't help the one that he loved so much.

san then sighed and hugged him. it felt like he came back home. he just opened the door that locked his feelings and memories and let wooyoung in.

now wooyoung was breaking and if he hasn't been there for san, san will be there for him. again...he knew he's going to leave the blonde but for now he wanted to be there. more exactly, his heart wanted to be there and for once he decided to follow her without doubting.

if the pain will leave his tired soul only tonight he will stay. and they stayed like that, in the silence of the night, the moon's light falling lazy on them and the stars shined bright.

"we have to let go of each other" san said sadly as one tear left his eyes.

"i don't want to" the blonde said and snuggled into san's neck causing more tears and sobs escape his lips.

"i can't trust you wooyoung"

"what if i promise?"

"you broke enough promises don't you think?"

"then i swear" wooyoung said and looked up at san. he smiled sadly and whipped his tears.

"you swear?" san giggled.

"i swear that i will never ever make you feel useless. i will never make you feel that you are not loved. only now i have realized how much i love you and how much i miss you when you're gone. and i swear on everything that we had and will make" wooyoung said with his hand on his heart.

san looked at him and smiled. he didn't know if he should belive him this time but yet again his heart decided to do so. the blonde seemed sincere this time.

"okay then...one more chance. but just because i cannot convince myself to let you go" san saw the glow in wooyoung's eyes twinkling again.

did he really managed to make some empty eyes come back to life this easly? yeah but at the same time he took the life out of them.

maybe wooyoung will change for real now. he had seen how hard it is to let go of someone. maybe they can finally be close to each other from every point of view.

san felt his heart fuzzy. the common feeling that died when wooyoung hurt him was now blooming again inside of him.

the wound will be just a scar and his soul will thrive again. he's ready to free his heart and let her do whatever she wants and maybe just maybe wooyoung will learn how to take care of her.

if someone told san that flowers can bloom in november he would have laughed in their face but now he has the proof. flowers can bloom even in november with the right person and if the hearts beat next to each other.

THE END~~

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a/n: i really hoped you enjoyed this book!! it is my favorite one so far and knowing that you liked it makes me happy :)) ily thanks for reading <33