𝐓𝗼: 𝐌𝐲 𝐃𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐏𝗼𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝗼𝐧

𝐘𝗼𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐭𝗼 𝗺𝐲 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐭𝐮𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐥. 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐮𝐧 𝐭𝗼 𝗺𝐲 𝗺𝗼𝗼𝐧. 𝐖𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐩𝗼𝐥𝐚𝐫 𝗼𝐩𝐩𝗼𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐬, 𝐲𝐞𝐭 𝐈 𝐚𝗺 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝗼 𝐲𝗼𝐮 𝐢𝐧 𝐚 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐈'𝐯𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝗼𝐧𝐞 𝐞𝐥𝐬𝐞.

D̴͔̖͈̒͋͝o̶͍̳͉͑͝n̸̢̳̝̊'̵̨̭̦̄̔͠t̶̢͔̉̾̍ ̸̻̓͋̒ļ̴͈̃̊͝e̴̹̺͑á̴̬͍̕v̷̧͓̄ẻ̷̝̠̔͝ ̴͆͆̚͜m̸̡̰̔̇ẻ̴̛̳

𝐘𝗼𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 m̴̜̿̀͝o̴̪̼̘͊s̴̨͚̳̈́̈́͠t̵̗̊̃ 𝐢𝗺𝐩𝗼𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝗼𝐧 𝐢𝐧 𝗺𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞. 𝐈 𝐝𝗼𝐧'𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝗼𝐰 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈'𝐝 𝐝𝗼 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝗼𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝗼𝐮.

𝐒𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐲,
𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐞♡

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(I've been having trouble writing since I'm in writer's block and it sucks. This is not an episode from Rottmnt! Anyway, I hope you enjoy the story...for now.)

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<Bonus Chapter>
|𝐒𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥|

[FEARS]
▹Heights
▹Animatronics
[NEW FEAR UNLOCKED]
▸Ice skating

You hung on to the sidelines of the ice rink. Nevertheless, you were shaking for two reasons. One; it was cold. Two; you could barely stand in your skates.

"C'mon girl, it's not that bad!" April skated next to you, giving you encouragement.

You shake your head. "I'm gonna fall. Is this really what Christmas is!?"

Yes, you asked... But you asked the right person! The guys went crazy when April told you asked what Christmas is.

"No!" April laughed. "Christmas is a time of year where you spend your time with family or friends!"

"Oh..." You muttered. "That sounds lame. I already do that."

You honestly thought Christmas was some type of object. You watch as the guys skate past you. Yup, they decided to join as well, wearing clothes as disguises obviously. Leo kept slipping along with Raph. Mikey was skating normally, enjoying himself.

Donnie watched as you struggled with standing. He skated to you slowly, reaching his hand out to you.

"...what?" You stare at him confused.

"Just grab hold of my hand before I regret my decision." He demanded.

You hesitantly place your hand on his. He slowly pulled you away from the sidelines. He held both your hands, making you unable to go back.

"I don't really want to do this..." You complained.

You don't wanna fall like the others. That honestly seems painful. (It is really painful)

"...Don't worry, I've got you." Donnie whispered. "You always say that when you catch me from falling, so it's my turn."

You stare at him for a few seconds. Your eyes soften as you give him a small smile. He looked away, embarrassed by what he just said.

"Stealing my lines, I see." You chuckle.

"Har, har." Donnie rolls his eyes as you two skate around hand-to-hand.

You spent of that time hanging on to Donnie for support for the rest of your twenty minutes before you all had to leave.

Donnie got to have that warm feeling again... His hand grew cold as you finally let go of him.

What is this feeling?

꧁꧂

You were now walking around the New York streets with April and the guys. You were mesmerized by all the lights and decorations surrounding the buildings. You would get excited for the smallest things.

"That tree is enormous!" You pointed at the tree in middle of Times Square.

You don't remember the last time you were so thrilled. You watched as the snowflakes fall onto your face gently. You stick your young out as you catch one.

"I caught one! I caught one!" You exclaimed.

Raph smiled at you and chuckled at you excitement. His smile faded once you turned back around. This saddened him. You, the oldest out of all of them, don't know what Christmas is? Didn't your parents ever show you?

You walk past a jewelry store, although something caught your eye. You walk back slowly to find a crystal flower hair clip. Donnie watched as you stared at the hair clip with starry eyes.

"Do you like it?" He questioned.

"Oh! Uh... I guess." You lie, scratching your neck. "Let's keep going."

Donnie glanced back at the hair clip before entering.

You all walk to a park. You run around like a child throwing snow in the air. Leo smiles and throws a snowball at you. You shiver as the cold snow hit your face. You grab a handful of snow on your hand throwing it back to him. He ducked, making the snow hit April.

"Oh, it's on! No mercy!" April declared.

April starts throwing snowballs towards everyone. Soon, everyone joined the snowball fight. You've never had so much fun in your entire life. You threw a snowball at Raph, laughing. That laughter died when he held a giant amount of snow in his arms, dumping it on you.

"HAHA!" You gasp for air.

"...Did I go overboard?" Raph asked concerned.

"Nope!" You shivered. "But why is this white stuff so damn cold!?"

Leo shook the snow of you as he picked you up bridal styal. Needless say, he was struggling to keep you up.

"...you look like your gonna shi- crap yourself." You corrected yourself. "I can still walk."

"Nope. It's my turn." Leo groaned as he adjusted his posture.

You shrugged and let him do what he wants, you honestly didn't mind (nor care). You were to cold to move, so you just let him.

"...where's Donatello?" You asked concerned.

"Right here." Donnie announced.

He jogged towards all of you, hands in his pockets. He helped Leo carry you towards the lair.

꧁꧂

You were confused about this part.

You stared at the wrapped boxes under the tree. How did they manage to get a tree in the lair without it dying?

Why do people give presents on Christmas if they already do it for birthdays? And why so many?

"Usually we open our presents at night, but since you have to spend time with your family as well, you will open your presents now." April explained.

"My presents?" You muttered.

I thought... I already got it?

I thought you demonstrating what Christmas was about was it...

"I made this for you!" Mikey smiled, handing you a small box.

You open to see a customized bracelet with your name on it.

"I...I don't know, I'm not much of a... jewellery person."

"You don't have to wear it if-"

"No! I'm gonna wear it forever. Shut up." You put the bracelet on quickly.

You smile it the accessory in your wrist with pure admiration. Mikey was more than delighted to see that you liked it. Leo was next.

"And I got you, this." Leo handed you another present.

You start sweating. You've never received so many presents before, this was new to you. You open the present slowly to find a unicorn onesie.

"...isn't this what you wanted though?" You asked.

"No worries, sweetheart. I've got my own. Now we can match!" Leo exclaimed showing off his onesie.

You laugh as you wrapped your arms around him. Leo returned the hug with a big smile. You feel a tap your shoulder. You turn to see Raph with a nervous smile, handing you a bag.

You open to see a handmade scarlet scarf with your name at the end. You were confused. Did he make this? You didn't know he could knit.

"Do...do you like it?" Raph asked nervously.

"No."

"Oh..." He frowned.

"I love it!" You exclaimed, wrapping the scarf around your neck.

Raph's face lit up at your confession. He was more than happy to hear you love it. He worked really hard to make it.

"Thanks..."

You embraced him as he hugged you gently. You let go to see Donnie's robot hands handing his gift. You grab hold of the small box and opened it slowly.

Your eyes widen.

This was not what you expected.

Your lift the bright crystal flower hair clip in the air. It was the same one you saw at the store, only it was purple.  You stared at it for a whole minute before looking back at Donnie.

"It's...gorgeous." You smile as you admire the shiny object in your hands. "...where do you get the money for this?"

"Don't worry about it." He shook it off.

You smile nevertheless, patting his head. You know he doesn't like physical touch much, so this is the most you can do without him pushing you away.

"Thank you, Donatello."

"You know you can call me Donnie."

"Right, I apologize. I just really like your full name." You admit.

"Whatever." He rolled his eyes.

Yet he smiled lightly.

"My turn!" April pushed Donnie away. "I got you this!"

You look at the heart necklace carefully. You notice it's a lock. You open to see a picture of the both of you smiling and embracing each other. You felt you eyes welled up. You cover your face from embarrassment.

"...Thank you..I appreciate it." Your voice cracked.

You held your tears in. For you, crying was a sign of weakness, so you had to bottle them up. You calmed down as you brought April into an embrace.

"Anything for my family." April rubbed your back soothingly.

You felt someone staring at you. Their aura was quite....weird. April probably sensed it as well 'cause she let go of you.

"Well....Now what?" You asked.

"You should go home and celebrate with your family!" Mikey exclaimed.

You saw the time. It was getting pretty late. You nod in agreement. You put the necklace on. You tried clipping the hair clip on, but you had no mirror.

"Let me help with that." Donnie offered.

You turn, back facing him. He grabs a handful of your hair an places the hair clip in. You touch it as you smiled.

"Thank you, Donnie." You smile wider.

Donnie felt his heart...leap? Flutter? What would April call it? He's not sure. But he definitely liked it.

"Not a problem." He replied.

"One question." You said quietly while you pointed above you. "What's that?"

Donnie grew confused. He glaced up to the ceiling to find a mistletoe hanging. Who the heck hung that up there?

"Uhh..."

Donnie didn't know what to say. This was way more than embarrassing. He watched as April whispered into your ear about the meaning.

You seemed surprised about it but put no mind into it. You lean towards him, kissing his cheek softly. Donnie's face flushed as you waved goodbye to everyone.

Everyone started laughing once you were gone, teasing Donnie.

All except for one...

꧁꧂

"

Dad, I'm home." You called out.

"(Y/N), you've arrived. I have a surprise for you." Draxum announced.

"Really?" You asked. "Six presents in one day!"

Muninn and Huginn land on opposite sides of you shoulder excitedly. Draxum handed you a giant box. You walk towards it slowly. Cautiously you lift the top of the box to see a helmet...

...like his.

A black helmet with two horns coming out of it, just like his.

"...isn't this yours?"

"No, this is what you will be using for when the day comes to destroy those turtles." He explained.

"...Lowkey looks like Loki's helmet." You  grin.

"Honestly, I thought you were gonna cuss..."

"Who are you, Captain America?" You mocked.

"Who-"

You shushed him and placed the helmet on your head. It fit you perfectly. But you didn't feel the joy you imagined. This would have felt better if....

You hadn't gotten attached to them, have you?

You force a smile on your face as you face Draxum. You brought him into an embrace. He gently rubbed your back, hugging you back.

"...I love you, Dad." You confessed.

"...Me too, kid." He ruffled your hair. "Me too."

"Merry Christmas"

"What is that?"

"I have to show you!"

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|AUTHOR-CHAN SECRETS|

▷Guess who's birthday it is?
   ↪MINE!✌😙🍰

▷Donatello actually used his brother's money to buy you the hair pin. And he feels no regrets.

▷I feel like Raphael would be the type to knit, so I immediately thought he would make that for you.
   ▹ He also wanted to give you something in return for helping him and his brothers in battles or with their problems.

▷You were able to show Draxum some things that you did for Christmas without human interaction. The snowball fight was definitely one of your favorites (although he won using his stupid vines to cheat.)

▷Leonardo was the one to hang the mistletoe. He wanted you to at least give him a kiss somewhere, but his 'twin' ruined it.

▷Leonardo Hamato
  ▸ [ERROR]
  ▸ [CAUTION]
  ▸ [DATA REDACTED]
    ↪[PERCENTAGE ERROR]

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|𝐌𝐞𝗺𝐞𝐬|

Leo: I saw you hanging out with (Y/N) yesterday!
Donnie: But Leo, it's not what you think!
Leo: *pulls out gun* I won't hesitate!

April: So, I have made the decision to trust you.
(Y/N): A horrible decision, really.

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