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❝𝙈𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙚𝙣 𝙖 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙡𝙮 𝙠𝙞𝙨𝙨
𝙊𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙝𝙪𝙧𝙩 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨.❞

𝘖𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘓𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘊𝘢𝘯 𝘏𝘶𝘳𝘵 𝘓𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴,
𝘗𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘮𝘢 𝘍𝘢𝘪𝘵𝘩

「𝑰𝑺𝑨𝑩𝑬𝑳𝑳𝑨」

𝑰 𝑯𝑶𝑳𝑫 𝑶𝑵𝑻𝑶 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑩𝑬𝑫 𝑺𝑯𝑬𝑬𝑻𝑺 𝑨𝑺 Nico took his time with me. I moaned loudly my legs wrapped around his waist. ''Tell me if it gets too much.'' He said in between moans. I closed my eyes and gasped when I felt him deep in me. His hand went on my neck squeezing it before pulling me in for a rough kiss.

It was our second day here at the beach house. As fast as we woke up at the beach we went for a swim then came back to have a shower and ended up fucking. I smiled when we both released. ''We need to take a shower again.'' I said causing Nico to laugh and throw himself on top of me.

I wrapped my arms around his body and kissed his head. ''I love you habibti.'' He said softly taking my hand kissing it. ''I love you.'' I smiled. Nico got off me and stood up. ''Lets take a shower and then walk at the beach.'' He smiled.

''You think I can walk?'' I chuckled. ''I'll carry you.'' He grinned. Nico picked me up and I let out a surprised scream as I wrapped my arms around his neck. He walked us in the bathroom and run a bath for us. We got in the bathtub and I rested my head back. Nico was at the other side and did the same.

He took my hand and intertwined our fingers. ''So when did you realise you fell in love with me?'' He asked causing me to chuckle. ''When did you realise?'' I raised my eyebrows. ''I asked first.'' He pouted. ''And you also said I love you first.'' I said. ''Okay.. I fell in love with you... when you rushed my way and looked in my eyes and our eyes met.'' He whispered. ''I just didn't know yet what that feeling was.'' He whispered looking at our hands.

I smiled and bite my bottom lip. ''That's creepy.'' I joked. ''It's not. It's called love at first sight. Have you heard of it habibti?'' He asked making me smile wider at the nickname. ''Hmm.'' I hummed and looked at him. ''I fell in love with you the first time we kissed. Maybe earlier but that's when I realised it.'' I whispered looking at ours hands. ''Would you still love me in the near future even if you found stuff about me?'' He suddenly asked causing me to frown.

''What's that question about?'' I asked. ''Just a random one.'' He said shrugging. ''I would love you no matter what.'' I smiled. ''Promise?'' He asked. ''Promise.'' I said making a pinky promise with him.

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We walked hand in hand with Nico at the beach. The fresh air the breathtaking view made everything so much better.

''Can I ask you something?'' I asked looking up at Nico. He had his arm around my shoulders holding my hand. ''Hmm anything.'' He said looking down at me. ''Have you ever been in love?'' I asked waiting for his answer. ''No.'' He said without thinking twice. ''I've never been in love before. That's why I was scared.. because you made me feel things I never felt.'' He whispered.

I smiled and kissed his chin. ''Proud to be my first love huh?'' He smirked. ''I'm trying to be your last love.'' I said softly. ''Hmm.'' He said and pulled me in a kiss.

We pulled away when we heard Nico's phone ring. He sighed and pulled away from me. ''I have to answer this I'm sorry habibti.'' He said. ''It's okay.'' I smiled softly and he kissed my cheek before taking a few steps away.

''Yeah Alex say it. I can't come it's impossible. I'm away okay? I can't come right now so just deal with it alone can't you?'' I heard Nico say through the phone. I bite my lip listening to him. He sighed pulling his hair stressed.

''Fine fine Alex I will try bye.'' He mumbled and sighed looking at me. ''Nico it's okay if we go today. It must be something important that they're calling you there.'' I said. ''I just didn't want our trip to end like this. It was suppose to end tomorrow. I still had plans for us.'' He said grabbing my hands in his after putting his phone in his pocket.

''Nico it's okay. I understand. Work is also important.'' I smiled. ''Not as important as you.'' He mumbled closed to my lips. ''We have to go De Luca.'' I said and grabbed his hand pulling him towards the house.

Nico groaned as I packed some of my clothes. To feel comfortable during the ride I put on a light blue hoodie of Nico's and grey sweatpants. Nico didn't bother to change. He stayed in his black t-shirt and grey sweatpants.

He placed the bags at the back then opened the car door for me. I smiled and kissed his cheek before getting in. He closed the door then walked to his side and got in the car. He put his seatbelt on and checked mine as well before he started driving. I turned the radio on and rested my head back. ''Do you mind if I drop you at my penthouse? I'll come back later and we can spend the night together.'' Nico smiled glancing at me then back at the road.

I smiled and nodded. ''Sure.'' I said softly. I rested my head on his shoulder as he drove. I looked at the road ahead of us.

The only thing heard in the car was the soft music that was playing. Both Nico and I hummed softly along at times. Nico kissed my head causing me to smile.

Hours later he pulled over a huge building. He stepped out of the car and opened the car door for me. He took my hand and we walked in the building after greeting the doorman. We walked in the elevator and I smiled resting my back against the wall looking up at Nico. Nico smiled and grabbed the back of my neck pulling me in a kiss.

I smiled through the kiss running my hand through his hair as I got on my tippy toes. I don't know how far we would go if the elevator doors didn't open. We pulled away and Nico took out his keys and unlocked the door.

We walked in and I looked around. ''Wow.'' I smiled. ''This is a very organised clean and luxurious penthouse.'' I chuckled. ''Hmm. Glad you like it.'' He smiled. ''I have to go get dressed and leave.'' He said and walked off. I looked around the living room and when I noticed the huge glass windows I smiled. The whole city looked so breathtaking from here.

I heard footsteps and turned to see Nico dressed in one of his suits. ''Okay so stay here don't leave the penthouse. I'll be back as fast as I can. Okay?'' He asked cupping my face. I smiled and nodded. ''You can do whatever this is also your home.'' He smiled before giving me a soft kiss. ''I love you.'' He said. ''I love you. And Nico be careful please.'' I said causing him to smile and nod before walking out of the penthouse.

I sighed and turned the TV on while taking a seat on the couch. ''One of the very well known businessman Theodore Castillo was found dead in Brazil in his own mansion-''

I frowned not liking these kind of news. I tried to find something else to watch but I found nothing so I turned the TV off and decided to change since it was too warm in here and I couldn't stay with a hoodie and sweatpants.

I made my way upstairs and found Nico's room. I don't think he would mind if I took a t-shirt of his. I walked in his closet that was really organised and satisfying to watch. I chuckled shaking my head softly at the way Nico took care of his stuff. I went to grab a t-shirt when something fell causing me to look down at it. I let the t-shirt fall right next to the weapon.

''No.'' I whispered placing my hand on my forehead. ''No it's not real.'' I said closing my eyes. I rubbed my forehead and opened my eyes. I looked at a door that was a little hidden with some clothes and walked towards it. It was unlocked so I opened the door and saw newspapers and piece of papers all around the wall of murders. I saw more weapons and swallowed.

I felt as if I was on the edge of a panic attack.

My eyes wondered around the room until they fell on a picture of Theodore Castillo. The guy the TV news were talking about.

''Fuck.'' I said rubbing my forehead. ''Fuck no.'' I whispered. I closed the door and tried to catch my breath as I sat on the floor hugging my knees. I looked at the gun that had fell earlier and rested my head back on the door.

How didn't I notice? A rich man that was involved in gun war twice in front of my eyes.

How can I be so stupid? I stood up and grabbed the gun in my shaky hand before making my way downstairs.

I put the gun on the coffee table and took a seat to wait for Nico.

How can I trust someone so easily and let them fuck my life like this?

My happiness didn't even last that long. It got ruined in seconds. I let a few tears fall and held the necklace in my fist. The one around my neck that was gifted by him.

I'm so fucking stupid. I should have seen that. I should have looked deeper into it. 

I wiped the tears as fast as I heard the door. ''I'm back.'' I heard Nico say. When he walked towards me he noticed the gun on the table and clenched his jaw. ''Issie-''

''Do not call me that Nicola.'' I said standing up pointing at him. ''Do not call me that because you can manipulate me very well if you call me that and you know it.'' I said getting teary not able to even hold my tears.

''I can explain.'' He said softly, calmly. So calmly I hated it. ''Explain?'' I chuckled with no humour and nodded. ''Explain then.  The weapons the newspapers. What is there to explain Nicola huh?'' I asked. ''I didn't want to tell you because I knew you would never want to be with me.'' He said looking down then up at me. ''So you decided to lie about everything. You lied about your whole life. What did you think Nicola? That one day I wouldn't find out about the real you? How long were you going to hide this from me?'' I asked.

''Okay I was wrong okay but I love you.'' He said. ''But I can't love a criminal.'' I said causing him to look at me hurt. That's what I saw in his eyes and I hated it. ''Criminal? Is that how you think of me? A brutal criminal?'' He whispered. ''I gave myself to you.'' I whispered a tear falling down my face. ''Why did you do this to me? You made me fall for you and just like that you break my heart.'' I said wiping my tears. ''I never meant to break your heart.'' He said and took a few steps my way but I took a step back.

''Don't touch me.'' I said holding my hands up. ''I wish we never met.'' I said immediately regretting it. ''Don't.'' Nico said softly. ''NICOLA YOU KILL PEOPLE.'' I snapped. ''I'm gonna fucking lose it you kill people Nicola that's your job? That's what you do? You get these stuff with the dirty money you get? That explains those people that shoot you that day. Then again at the restaurant. How can I be so stupid? You never went to London did you? You were in Brazil and are involved in Castillos murder." I snapped breathing heavily.

''I DID YES. I KILL PEOPLE YES. I LIED YES. I'M A FUCKING ASSHOLE A LIAR YES.'' He snapped slamming the hand on the coffee table that was made of glass smashing it. I covered my ears at the noise and closed my eyes. I then opened my eyes and looked at Nico meeting his eyes immediately. ''Everything I said was a lie but you are the realest thing in my life. The only true thing I have.'' He whispered. ''Don't go please.'' He added.

I walked in the bathroom and grabbed the first aid kit then walked back at him. I grabbed his hand and started cleaning it taking out a piece of glass. Nico didn't even flinch. He's way too used to that. I can see that now. And I hate that I can't just walk away leaving him like this. 

''You don't have to I'm fine.'' He said. When I was done I placed everything at its place and gathered my stuff. ''Bella don't go.'' Nico said grabbing my elbow. ''DON'T TOUCH ME NICOLA. Don't touch me I don't want you to touch me.'' I said trying my best not to break down in front of him. ''Okay okay I won't. Just stay please.'' He whispered.

''Stay? Our worlds are completely different Nico we are not meant to be. It's over." I said a tear falling down my face and Nico's. I placed my hand on the necklace he had gifted me and took it off. I put the necklace in his fist and looked at him. "Don't do this." He whispered his voice cracking. "You can't leave me. Not like this." He said.

"We can't be together. I can't love you. I won't love you and you won't love me. You will hate me okay? You will hate me and I will start hating you too." I cried. "Because we can't be together. I can't love you. I will stop loving you and you won't do anything about it. I will leave and you won't be able to do anything about it." I cried.

"Bella—

"Don't make this harder than it is." I whispered. "Say that you don't mean it. Say that you don't see me as a criminal. I don't care what others think of me but you... I can't stand knowing you see me as a criminal." He said choking a sob.

"I will leave everything behind for you. Just stay. We can leave together. I'll drop everything. I'll find a normal job. I'm ready to die for you." He said looking at me his eyes begging me to stay.

"You don't mean that. This was rushed. Everything about us was rushed." I whispered. "It wasn't. It's love Bella. I love you. It's us it's Bella and Nico. We're not normal." He said and chuckled softly wiping his tears.

"I told you.. I can't love someone that puts his life in danger." I said. "You can't help who you fall in love with." He whispered. "I will make the difference then. We're done." I whispered.

"Bella don't go." He begged as I made my way towards the door. I took a deep breath and looked down.

''Goodbye Nicola.'' I whispered and walked out of the penthouse. I covered my mouth trying to choke a sob as I sat there on the floor.

I sat there like that until I finally stood up and dragged my legs towards the elevator. Minutes later the elevator doors opened and I walked out of there.

"BELLA!" I ignored Nico that was calling my name. I could feel him following me as I walked out of the building. "BELLA!" He stood in front of me breathing heavily. "Look me in the eyes." He said causing me to look away.

"Bella if you look me in the eyes and say you don't love me—"

"You can't do that." I interrupted him. "You can't just force me to stay Nico. I don't want to stay. I don't want anything of your lifestyle to follow me. I don't need this in my life. I've had enough already. I don't have the energy to follow you into this madness. Please let me go." I whispered the last part causing him to look at me hurt.

"For now." He said as I walked off. "I won't give up on you. Even when you do." He said after me. I let more tears fall down my face.

I started walking towards my apartment crying. I didn't care who was walking passed me and saw me. I just felt betrayed.

I felt betrayed by the person I loved the most in the world. The only person I showed my true self. 

Once again I was left broken and alone.