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𝖳𝗈𝖽𝖺𝗒 𝟩:𝟦𝟫 𝗉.𝗆.

ella
there's still nothing i can do to
change the situation or your
mind is there

no, there isn't

ella
ethan, please

i finished getting my post ready.
did you?

ella
yeah.

ok, i'm disabling the comments.
i don't want to see what people have
to say. i already hate this enough.

ella
mine will be disabled too
and if you hate it so much then
why are you doing this?

i will never be able to compete
with tom, ella
and i don't want to have to second
guess everything i do and if i'm
good enough for you when he's
out there waiting for you.

ella
there's no competing & he isn't
waiting for me. you're more than
enough for me. you're the best
person i know and i love YOU
endlessly. i don't want this.

and i love you.
but i also need to do what is best
for me and i need to be there for
my dad.

ella
idk if you or gray still want me
to, but i was going to fly out for
your bday and stay for christmas.
your mom invited me and i still
want to be here for you & the fam.

seeing you right now will hurt
too much. i'm already starting to
regret this, but it's what's best.
you can come see dad after new years

ella
ok
i love you.
so fucking much, e.

i love you with my entire heart, el.

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❱ 𝙚𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙤𝙡𝙖𝙣 𝗁𝖺𝗌 𝗽𝗼𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗱!

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ethandolan⠀"if you didn't love her, this never would have happened. but you did. and accepting that love and everything that followed it is part of letting to." and "you can learn every language and read every word ever written, but you'll never find what's in your heart. how can you? she has it." — sarah dessen & ranata suzuki.

amandla evangeline jones, you have my heart. you have me wrapped around your finger and we both know it. yet, you never took advantage of it unlike all of those before who had. you acknowledged the fact that if you asked me to do anything or get you anything, i would, but you disregarded it. you didn't care. you cared about me and not what i could for you, which i found very odd at first. nobody had ever cared for me the way you do. nobody saw me for me. everyone saw ethan dolan, one-half of the dolan twins; a youtuber and former vine "star." but you didn't.

from the moment i met you, i knew that i was completely and utterly screwed. i knew that i was going to fall for you and for some odd reason, i let myself without hesitation or doubt. the more i fell for you, the more i began to peel back the layers of who you are. yes, you're a youtuber, a fashion icon, a vlogger, an instagram "baddie," but you're also a daughter, a best friend, an unofficial and unpaid therapist for those you care about, and a strong businesswoman. you're human, and that's what i think is my favorite thing about you.

it's not the way you look at me, the smile you wear whenever you see me, the way you dance to whatever song is on without realizing anyone is around, the subconscious lip bite you do when your nervous, or the way you fiddle with the rings on your fingers. it's not the way you say my name or the adorable nicknames you've created. it's not the way you hold me when i'm upset or breaking down. it's not the way you listen to every word i say and take it to heart. it's not the way you allow me to be immature and silly for a video when that's not who i really am all the time. it's not the way that you accept every flaw, mistake, and toxic habit that i have. it's not the way you understand gray and i's bond and how we need our own time to hang out. it's how you're 1000% human, down to the core.

you're real and honest and supportive and energetic. you're also too honest and always burn our grilled cheese. you're perfectly flawed. you're perfectly human and i love it. i love you.

writing all of this out, knowing what will happen when i post this, is giving me the worst anxiety and making this even harder. i know once i post this, there is no going back. there is no rewind and do-over button. it's official and that fact only makes it hurt more when i cry. we've both been hurting, but we'll heal. on our own.

it's time for me to let go of you, but i know that deep down in my heart, i will still hold onto you to an extent. hold onto the love i had and will always have for you.

loving you has taught me that it is okay to let go and do what is best for me, and this is me doing just that. you'll remain one of my closest friends and we will still talk, but our love story has come to a close and that's okay. it was beautiful and i will never forget all the memories we made.

i love you, ella. thank you for everything.

𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐃⠀amandlajones

𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯
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amandlajones⠀the amount of captions i have scrapped for this post is baffling & i still can't seem to find the right words to explain how i've been feeling. there is so much i want to say and discuss, but for now, i will say this: i love you ethan grant dolan. i love you so much and i will until the day i die. thank you for entering my life at a period where i was at the lowest i'd ever been. my world was in utter chaos and nothing was going well, until you. you (and grayson, of course) gave me so much joy and helped me smile and laugh during a time where i hadn't felt happy in months.

thank you for filling my world with sunshine and color. thank you for unconditionally caring for me and accepting all the good, the bad, and the ugly that is in me. thank you for teaching me how to open my heart to love again and learn to fully trust others. thank you for loving me as i was and receiving my love in return. thank you for being patient & taking care of my mom and i after my father passed. thank you for allowing me to teach you how to dance, despite your insistent protests that you were going to suck. thank you for allowing me to show you different perspectives and communicating with me in a way that was almost effortless. thank you for being honest, no matter how painful the truth was.

even though i acted like i hated it when you woke me up at 3 am to go ride skateboards because you couldn't sleep, i loved it. i will forever cherish all the pranks, cooking fails, pretend wrestling matches, bowling tournaments on the wii, late-night conversations on the top of the roof, impromptu cuddle sessions, spontaneous tattoos, road trips, arguments over who was the strongest avenger, our debates on conspiracy theories, the "that's what she said" jokes that always made us laugh harder than we should've, the random forehead kisses, the skincare nights that you insisted we have, and the ferocity of love that you showered me with.

thank you for all the unforgettable memories and stupidest jokes i'd ever heard but laughed at anyway because they came from you. thank you for taking me to paris and kissing me at the top of the eiffel tower at midnight just so i could feel like a silly teenager again and check something off my bucket list. thank you for holding me whenever i was upset or having a panic attack. thank you for allowing me to do the same for you in return. thank you for healing wounds i didn't know existed and allowing me to do the same. thank you for giving me reassurance and time when things got rough. thank you for understanding me and the way i think. thank you for showing me that i can be my own person without being tied to anyone.

but most of all, thank you for showing me that there will come a time when i can and have to eventually let you go. that time has come and this is me letting you go. even though everything in me wants to hold on, i can't. we need to do what is best for ourselves and our epic love story has come to a close.

i love you, e-tee-wee-tee. forever and always. thank you.

𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐃⠀ethandolan

𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯
𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘵!

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     hey everyone!! i hope you all enjoyed the eighty-fifth chapter!

     THANK YOU FOR OVER 200k READS AND 9k VOTES LIKE WTF????? I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH <3

     btw... ethandla has ended. it's a wrap, folks. (ignore how bad those manips are... ew.)

     writing this chapter broke a small part of my heart. i related to those captions too much. i took passages of them from my own journals and paragraphs i've sent to someone before, so this was very personal for me. i hope you all enjoyed it and perhaps would able to find some sort of healing and solace in my words. i don't know what any of you have been through, and i don't need to, but know that you're not alone. heartbreak is real and normal and okay to feel. feel it; own it. you and your feelings are powerful and valid.

     before anyone asks, tomandla will not be getting back together right away. they have a lot of issues to work through and resolve before they can ever truly be friends again. their development is slow but quick, and very emotional. all of this drama will have been worth it, i promise.

     𝐑𝐄𝐆𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐏𝐒: all manips made in this book were ALL created by me. as well as the filters i used. DO NOT STEAL THEM! I WILL FIND OUT! if somebody steals any of my manips, it's on sight, bitch. we're throwing hands. making manips is hard as shit and takes a lot of time. please be respectful!

     𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐋𝐘 𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑: thank you all for taking the time out of your days to comment on this story. it means a lot and helps the story be spread to a wider audience &&& gives me the opportunity to grow as an author. all i ask is that people vote on each chapter, please. as a creator, it takes time to write and develop stories. especially social media-based ones because there's so much to take into consideration and the amount of time i've dedicated to finding graphics, screenshotting everything kelsey simone (and other characters) posts, making graphics, etc., is ridiculous. so please, vote on every chapter. it means a lot more than i could ever express.

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