5:54am

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Oh okay
Mai so Gaya tha
Aj se test hai.. u k right?

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
Ha, best of luck

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Itni jaldi uth gayi?

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐢
No I didn't get to sleep actually

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Ohh🥲
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𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐢'𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯

What did he even delete? I can't believe this is happening to me. It's like my mind won't let me focus on anything else. Every time I try to study, his face pops into my head, and I can't shake it off. But I know deep down that it's just a silly fantasy. He's a celebrity, and I'm just an ordinary person. There's no way anything could ever happen between us.

It's so frustrating because I really need to concentrate on my studies right now. This is my final semester of medical school, and I can't afford to let anything distract me. But every time I see him on social media or hear about him in the news, it's like a blow to my stomach. I know I should just ignore him and focus on my exams, but it's easier said than done.

And then there's the guilt. I worry that by ignoring him, I might be hurting him somehow. But then I remind myself that I'm probably not even a blip on his radar. He's got millions of fans and admirers; why would he care about me?

But still, the frustration and the guilt weigh heavy on my heart. I wish I could just snap out of it and get back to my studies, but it's like I'm stuck in this endless cycle of longing and disappointment.

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛𝐦𝐚𝐧'𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯

I struggled to understand what was happening with me lately. How could I possibly fall for someone I'd only known for such a short time? It felt like my emotions were completely out of control. I kept trying to rationalize it, telling myself it was just a passing infatuation, but deep down, I knew it was more than that.

My eyes fell on her photo in my gallery, it was like a wave of warmth washed over me. I couldn't help but smile, and all those rational thoughts about not getting too attached just disappeared. It was like she had this magnetic pull on me that I couldn't resist.
I was tempted to reach out to her and ask why she'd been ignoring me, but I deleted that message. What if she thought I was being too forward or desperate? What if she didn't feel the same way? The fear of rejection paralyzed me.

But despite all those doubts and uncertainties, I couldn't shake the feeling that there was something special about her. Something that drew me to her like a moth to a flame. I just wished I understood what was happening to me. It was like I was caught in a whirlwind of emotions, and I didn't know how to make sense of it all.

6:24pm

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Hey

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
Hi

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Sharmili I wanted to ask you something.

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
Yes pucho

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
I've been trying to ask constantly but I failed

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
What's it?

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Why the hell are you ignoring me. I can perfectly see when you are online and not. You come online many times a day but you choose not to reply to me... Can I please know the reason???

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
You want to know the reason? Ready to hear right?

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Yes absolutely

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
I'm getting fucking attached to you!! And you are a fucking celebrity. Once you are done talking you will just forget about me and all I'll be left with would be my feelings. I have attachment issues

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Attached? Like a friend?

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
I don't know how but... That is not important don't change the topic

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Sharmili I am already attached to you. I check notifications for your messages twice a minute and you think I'll leave you once I'm done?

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
What? Are you serious

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Yes I'm fucking serious

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
See shubman. This is difficult for you to understand.

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Are samjhao tab na

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
Shubman you and me belong from a very different world with different ambitions and different ways of life. You are a filthy rich celebrity where as I'm a student working my ass off

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
So you think I just got rich and famous without doing anything?

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
I absolutely do not mean that but you are not understanding my point. It's very difficult to express because you will judge me so much.

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
I promise I won't... Just spit out everything

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
Shubman I had a crush on you since class 8. Like a freaking huge crush. And now you are here talking to me.... and I can't stop myself from fantasizing shit that's never gonna happen.

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
And what if it happens?

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
What r u talking about?

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Never mind. You just continue then I'll speak

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
Ok.. so it's getting more and more difficult to contain my feelings.
But the reality stands harsh for me... You are a celebrity and I'm a common person. You are 'Shubman Gill' with thousands of admirers and I'm just one of them. You have a big life out there and I'm not a part of it. But when you talk to me give me the attention... I sometimes feel that I could be the part of your life someday somehow but it's just not possible right. So I think I would be better to bury my fucked up emotions and part ways before it's too late.
I'm done

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Okay so please let me speak.
I don't know what emotions and feelings you have for me but I have fallen for you as it seems. You are very very correct that our paths are different and I have a big life out there but I see myself reaching out to that bright future while holding your hands... Can't we just be an exception and make this possible?

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
You have fallen for me?

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Yes

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
After seeing my picture?

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
No
It was way before that.
You know Sharmili you were right... I never reply to random fanpages but I don't know why, my fingers commented on your post. I don't know how I accepted your dm request and how I started chatting with you. To be honest I have got so so so many dm requests that I can't check most of them. But suddenly my eyes fell on yours and I couldn't just resist myself. All of that would have a reason right?
It's because we were destined to talk, to know each other and .... To fall in love

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
Are you sure about what you are saying? You won't repent it later right?

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
No I won't

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
So where do we stand?

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Idk.. just that I don't wanna let you go

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
Hmm

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Please don't ignore me ever again... And I'm glad we cleared out everything.

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
Okay I won't.... But now I'll have to study🙂

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Haan 😭

𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢
Kal century marna... Byee❤️

𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐛
Byee🫂

....they confessed feelings for eachother and then it just ended with I don't wanna let you go?.....

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