🪷 NAMJOON POV 🪷

My heart skyrocketed the moment I saw Natasha. With every year passing, she gets more beautiful, more gorgeous, more attractive and more interesting. Interesting as such she had the audacity to slap me. If it was someone else, then god knows, I would have killed the person right then and there but she's the woman I love, and that reason is solely enough to keep her away from my wrath.

She grab the collar of my shirt with her one hand while the other holding onto her gucci bag, "Where is my Taehyung?"

I have never seen her this reckless before, except the day we changed our paths and I decided to divorce her. I know how to calm her down in a situation like this and I'm the only one who could handle her anger.

I slide my palms onto her arms, caress them gently. Her eyes softens and so does her face when she figured that I won't fight back with her but instead I will console her.

Within seconds, her voice becomes calmer, "Where is our baby boy, Namjoon? I can't reach him. He's not picking up my calls. He's not responding to my texts. He never does this. You know how much I love him. One day without hearing his voice is giving me heartache."

My Natasha never cries on simplest things. She is one of the emotionally strong women I have met in my entire life and if today I see tears in her eyes, it means it is something serious. The last time I saw her crying was on the day we both separated. And the thought she is here to ask for help from me is more dreadful than it looks like. She never asks for favours from others, especially me after our separation.

Even when I proposed to marry her years ago, she didn't ask questions like other girls, "oh, would you love me to death? Would you keep me happy for the rest of my life? Would you take me shopping every week? Bla bla..." Of course the answer to all that would be yes but she asked me something which made me fall in love with her even harder,

"Are you sure you love a woman like me? You know, I am not the generous girl you think. I am the selfish one. The one who don't think twice before hurting someone to protect her peace. And what that mean is, Mr. Kim Namjoon, that I won't think twice before making your life hell if you ever tried to play me."

That was the exact version of her I fell in love with. No one would be able to understand those thoughts at such a young age but we both were so alike so I didn't waste time proposing her when we were right in our high school. That was the day I decided I will spend rest of life loving this woman even if she would not choose me. At that very moment, I showed her my love by a kiss, a seductive, rough and a wild kiss which she returned with more energy and warmth.

She was going to be my wife and I made sure of that.

"Why aren't you saying anything?!" She speaks louder again and this time with more force to bring me back to the present. Yes, she is right. Where is Taehyung? I know he must have gotten to know that I am all awake by now. Is he scared to face me that he has decided to elope himself somewhere?

I am not angry at Taehyung for trying to kill me. I can understand that anybody at his place would try to erase the person from their life who tries to meddle in their illegal activities. But your own blood would do that, that is what that hurts me a little. But the thought that Natasha supported Taehyung in his wrong doings makes me more upset. But again, now is not the time to confront her for that because she is already struggling.

The love of my life is not okay, and that reason is solely enough to stop everything I am doing and make sure I take the unnecessary stress away from her. Because at the end of the day, I am the man who chose her, I am the man she's married to.

We might be legally divorced, but our bond is still same, at least from my side and when I choose people to be a part of my family, I do not leave them behind, no matter what they do. And this right here is my wife, the mother of my children, the woman who I am in love with no matter what she does.

So I hug her then, kissing the side of her head. She wiggles a couple of moments but then she gave in. She's not making a sound, but I know she is crying. She don't like to show her tears to the world. The only times she had cried was all in front of me because she told me the night I married her that only I get to see her true self and no one else.

"Natasha, I will find Taehyung and I promise you that."

She hugs me back then and whispers, "You're the president of this country, how come you're so weak to find your own son, Namjoon? I could have moved mountains to locate him."

We stay like that for a few minutes before I address the question in my mind, "you tell me Natasha, why did you support Taehyung's crimes?"

I know Y/N and Jungkook are right there but how long can I hide these things from them. They are a part of this family now, although I still have some doubts about Jungkook.

Natasha shivers and let go of the hug at my words, "why did you support your daughter's murder?"

"Those are two different things, baby. Aren't they?"

"No they aren't. Do you know why he came to me when the first time he killed someone? Because he knew his mother would help him, not you, Namjoon. You might think you were taking care of Taehyung but in reality, you were just pushing him away in name of earning respect. You didn't even realize how he had been mentally suffering all these years. You saw Y/N, but never my son. If you couldn't care for him, why you didn't let me have his custody?"

"Natasha... I never. I never thought like that... you know me, my children are always equal to me..."

"Tae thought otherwise, Namjoon. He told me, you don't love him like Y/N. You cannot deny this now."

"I can't win with you, Can I?"

"That's all this is to you. It's all I've ever been to you. One big game you want to win!"

"You're carrying my last name, Natasha. I already won you years ago. My family is never a game for me."

Her lower lip trembled as two big tears find their way out of her eyes, "I want my son back, Joon. And you will bring him back."

"I will."

"You will talk to him. You will apologize to him for making him feel that way. Do you get me?"

I nod and just then I hear Y/N cry. My heart almost stops beating seeing the two most important women in my life crying. I know this is too much for Y/N to handle. I know she have so many questions about her brother right now but I will tell her everything when the time comes.

The very next moment Natasha looks at Y/N too and I could see the rage boiling in her eyes, "how come this man right here is still alive?" She points at Jungkook.

"I will explain everything to you, Natasha. This is not the best time. Let's find Taehyung first."

I say before calling Hoseok out, "Track Taehyung's number. Find out where him and his car was last seen. Contact the military head, I want all roads blocked and announce the curfew for the whole country till I find my son."

"Dad, wait!"

I hear Y/N scream behind me as Jungkook holds her steady from her waist. I am somewhat relieved that at least he is doing good in performing husband duties. I still don't trust him around my daughter though but I doubt he would want to hurt a woman who's carrying his child.

"What happened, princess?"

"I think Jimin might know where Taehyung is."

"Who's him?" Natasha asks.

"My very close friend and... ahm... his close friend too."

"Call him now and ask."

"Yes, wait."

She brings her phone out, dial a number and put it on speaker.

"Hey bestie, what's up? Long time no talk. Are you so busy fucki..."

"Listen, my phone is on speaker. Dad's listening. I want to know if Taehyung's with you?"

There's a few minutes silence on the other end.

"Hello? Are you still here, Jimin?"

"Yes," he clears his throat, "Taehyung's not with me."

He says and all of my hopes are shattered. I am about to turn around to Hoseok again but Jimin speaks again.

"Is everything alright? He called me last night asking if I could go see him. We both are sort of not talking right now so I declined. He did send me his location last night, he was almost five hour drive away from the city."

"Would you be able to send us the location?"

"Yes, I can," there's a tremble in his voice, "is Tae Okay?"

Y/N's phone beeps indicating we have received the location from Jimin. I motioned her to cut the call.

"I will let you know when we find him. You take care, bye."

She hung up the phone at that. Hoseok hurriedly try to track the location which Jimin sent. Yes, Taehyung is almost five hours drive from the city and almost six from our mansion.

"Get the private jet ready right away, Hoseok."

"On it."

He runs while tapping on his bluetooth earphone and speaking something in a rush.

"Everything will be okay, baby." Jungkook tells Y/N as she hugs him while sniffling. Just then Natasha sits down on the couch, holding her head in her hands.

I think it is really my fault that Taehyung's missing. If I had been more careful, I would've met him right after I made sure that Y/N was okay. I was late to meet my son and now my family is suffering.

I sit beside Natasha, carefully placing my hand on her thigh. She looks up to me, "Tae must be scared of you, Joon. What if he does something to himself? I won't be able to live. You know how much I love him. Even more than you."

I pull her to my side then as she places her head on my shoulder. She is my strong woman, but there are times when you need your partner to hold you and tell you that everything will be fine. Sometimes you need that courage from someone else and in Natasha's life, I am the only one who gives her strength.

"He will be fine, Natasha. I know my son. He is not a weak man. He won't run away just because he is scared of me."

Just then my phone chimes. I am bewildered when I saw Taehyung's name flash on my screen. He sent me a text. Without bothering looking at what he sent, I hit the dial button but it gets to voicemail right there.

"Fuck" I curse before looking at the screen again.

'Dad, don't try to find me. Have you thought what would happen if the world would know that the serial head hunter killer was your own son? Everyone will hate you. And if you don't want that to happen, do not come for me. I am removing myself from your life permanently.'

Natasha holds my phone hostage when she reads the text. I'm sitting there with empty hand as she types faster than a software engineer.

'Listen, Tae, it's your mom. I am coming to find you baby. I won't let your dad do anything to you. I am on your side.'

The next text is instant, 'Mom, I'm sorry. I am sorry, I didn't say you a final goodbye.'

"No no no no no no!" Natasha shouts, dropping the phone on the carpet, she holds the collars of my shirt again, "I told you he's going to do something reckless! I told you. Oh my god, what will I live without him. I will kill you Namjoon. I will fucking kill you if something happens to Taehyung."

I want to say that Taehyung's threat didn't affect me but I will be lying to myself if I say that aloud or even to myself. My forehead turns sweaty, my palms turn wet, my body stiffens. I am blank for a moment. I'm unable to think something clearly.

"The plane's ready!" Hoseok announced getting me out of my thoughts as Natasha jumps up from the couch, rushing to the front door. I follow her after along with Y/N and Jungkook.

We are inside the plane now. All ready to take off. I am sitting beside Natasha. I can see her bawling in her seat and no matter what I do, I just can't make her stop crying.

In this moment; I am grateful that Jungkook's holding my daughter gracefully. He is taking care of her. And this makes my pain somewhat bearable that she is married to Jungkook, my best friend who can understand the situation and handle it on his own accord rather than with a guy of her age who wouldn't even have been able to handle himself in such a stressful commotion.

I am scared too. I really have no idea if Taehyung would really do what he told us on the texts. I have already lost Nicole, I can't lose my other child.

It roughly took us one and a half hour before we reach the country side. The pilot lands the plane in a private airport and we shift back to cars for a fifteen minutes drive.

As the location on Y/N's phone indicates, we reached an old abandoned building. I was contemplating that Taehyung would not choose a place like this to hide but Y/N confirms that Tae would not lie to Jimin about his whereabouts as he loves him dearly.

Loves him dearly? I repeat in my head but thats a discussion for another day. I want to have my son safe and sound in front of me at the moment.

We leave the cars after, running here and there. Trying to find where he could be. My men are searching the whole place like crazy. Several minutes pass, but there's no clue. I am about to deny the fact that Taehyung could be here but then, I heard Natasha's scream. It takes everything in me to not jump to the floor she's at.

I am thankful that she is only two floors below from me. I rush to her, and my eyes couldn't believe what I was seeing.

We were late and we were so late.

I lost as a father.

I lost as a husband.

I fall on my knees, shocked to give a reaction. I am unable to move. I think, I should kill myself too.

A/N: Well, hello pretty people. I hope you were still waiting for an Update For "Sadist"

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