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serenity
glendale, california

I laid on Paul's chest as he took slow breaths and smiled to myself before he began to rub my shoulder blade softly with his fingertips.

"Do you want more kids?" He asked lowly

"I really don't know...maybe. What about you?" I replied

"I guess I'll know in the future..." He replied

"I want another little girl and a boy...but hopefully the right way and environment." I then admitted looking up at him

"Do you want to get married again?" He asked making me slip from his arms and lay in the opposite direction cuddling into my pillow

"If I'm being honest with you, marriage scares the hell out of me. Before I got married to Aiden, we spent 4 years together dating...he was perfect. He never even showed the signs of the monster he really was, other than his possessiveness that I tried to look over. But I realized why he was so insecure when I finally had sex with him...then he became a bit more aggressive until we got married and he began hitting me. I tried to leave and he found me and...uh I really don't want to talk about him anymore." I ranted as I began to silently cry to myself

He then wrapped his arm around me and said "You don't have to talk about that asshole anymore...just please don't shut me out. Not anymore. I genuinely love you with all of my heart and I want to take care of you and Sarai."

I sniffled lowly and he kissed my cheek gently before leaning over to wipe my tears with the pad of his thumb.

"Let me be there for you...please." He plead before I turned over letting him hold me close in his arms

"I'm sorry." I said

"There's nothing for you to apologize for...just let me hold you." He consoled

❍ ❍ ❍...𝐅𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊

Aiden's hands tightened around my throat as he pushed me as hard as he could against a nearby wall making me gasp for air as I cried.

"You embarrassed me in front of my entire family! My mother already doesn't fucking like your stupid ass and you decide just because you're pregnant you can disrespect her!" He shouted in my face

His mother never liked me. She said at the family dinner tonight that Aiden could do better and she didn't like me. I didn't even respond to her the whole night though she continuously insulted me.

And here my husband was beating me for the second time today, because his mom didn't like me, which he knew before we got married.

I was pregnant for the second time and he still wouldn't stop putting his hands on me, I already had a black eye but that wasn't enough for him.

"Ai-Aiden...sto-stop!" I begged as a excruciating pain ran through my stomach

"You're a waste of damn air and space. You can't even give me a healthy child." He seethed before slapping me to the floor making me reach for my stomach as I laid against the cold floors in pain.

"Get up!" He yelled in a demanding tone

I placed my palm on the wall trying to lean against it for support before dizziness took over causing me to fall back down.

"Oh, so you want to play that game." He roared before he grabbed me by my long hair dragging me to the outside balcony as I screamed for him to stop.

It was pouring down raining outside and cold, no one could hear me. It was no point, I was alone.

He then threw me against the railing causing my head bang against it as everything in my body seemed to numb as pain ran through my body.

Aiden then disappeared around the corner before returning with a single pillow and thin blanket throwing it at me.

"You're going to sleep out here tonight and think about what you've done." Aiden said before slamming the balcony door behind him and locking it leaving me on the hard concrete floors of the balcony.

Rain steadily poured onto me as I shivered turning onto my side as thunder began to erupt making me jump in fear.

Aiden knew how scared I was of thunder and rainstorms but did it bother him that he put his wife and unborn child in this surrounding, no.

Rain washed down over me running away the tears from my eyes. The cold weather causing my body to shudder repeatedly. And the thunder clouding my thoughts.

❍ ❍ ❍...𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓

"Serenity! Baby, calm down." Paul said lowly as my eyes opened

I had cried a river onto his chest and vastly moved my body from his covering my face with my palms embarrassed by my PTSD.

I can't control it sometimes and it sometimes creeps into my dreams to make me relive these dark moments.

"I-i am sorry...I'm sorry." I cried holding my head low before Paul tried to reach out for me making me softly push him away before I quickly got up and rushed into the bathroom inside of the room locking the door behind me.

I didn't want him to see me like this more than he has, he'd probably think I was crazy.

I knelt next to the toilet beginning to vomit into it. This was another thing I hated about PTSD, it can get so bad that it causes you to throw up and get sick suddenly from the mere thought of things.

I wiped my mouth with a piece of tissue and flushed the toilet going to the sink washing my hands before I sat down in front of the tub in the bathroom.

"Serenity..." He called lowly

"Yes...?" I replied just above a whisper

"Please let me help you."

"You can't help me when I'm like this." I replied wiping my eyes

"Well I'm coming in..." He said before popping the lock and walking through hurrying beside me

"Look I know you probably think I'm crazy-"

"I don't think you're crazy, I think you're hurt." He rebutted cutting me off pulling me into a hug

"How'd you get in?" I sighed

"You don't want to know the amount of times I've locked myself out of my own bathroom." He replied making me laugh lowly

"See, I'm making you laugh already!" He beamed making me shake my head before he helped me from the ground

"Come on." He then said dragging me gently from the bathroom to his closet, grabbing a Nike jacket and handing it to me.

"Why do I need this?" I asked now confused

"We're going to go out for a bit." He smiled

"Paul it is 3 in the morning." I rebutted making him grab my other hand and whine "You trust me?"

"I mean, yeah."

"Then let's go!" He replied lifting me into his arms

"Alright, Speedy, let me brush my teeth and then I'll go with you."

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Me and Paul sat in another one of his Porsche's in the McDonald's parking lot eating ice cream.

I softly poked his cheek making him look over and smile at me, "See, what happens when you trust me!?" He cheered making me laugh and nod

He had the sunroof of the car down showcasing the stars as the inside of the car illuminated itself.

"I want to listen to music!"

"Connect your phone to the bluetooth." He replied making me begin to connect it as I ate the Oreo McFlurry I had

As my phone connected, the first song that played was Can You Stand The Rain by New Edition.

"I know you probably don't want to hear this, I'm going to change it."

Paul then turned it up and said "Woman, do not change the song, this is a hit."

I began laughing wondering how in the hell he knew about New Edition, before he laughed and said "You didn't think I knew about this, huh?"

I shook my head in laughter and turned facing the other direction before he said "Don't make me sing the song to the top of my lungs."

As I continued facing the other direction, I smiled to see what he was going to do before he laughed and said "Alright."

"But I need somebody who will stand by me, when it's tough she won't run. She will always be right there for me!" Paul sung off key making me smile hardly as I turned looking in his direction seeing the big smile he had across his face as he sung.

"Sunny days, everybody loves them. Tell me, can you stand the rain? Storms will come, this we know for sure...Can you stand the rain?" He continued to sing also trying to sing the background vocals making me laugh as he made my skin fluster from his constant eye contact

"Can you stand the rain?...Can you stand the rain?...No pressure, no pressure from me baby!" He continued to sing softly pinching my cheek

"'Cause I want you and I need you and I love you girl!" He sung flashing a heart to me making me shake my head in laughter as I couldn't help but smile so hard my cheeks could've broken.

"Boy let ralph sing the song!" I laughed making him stop with that lingering smile on his face before he softly laid his hand on my cheek pulling me into a kiss as the song continued in the background.

Can you stand the rain? Can you stand the rain? Will you be there girl? Can you stand the rain? Storms will come for sure. Can you stand the rain? Can you stand the rain?

A/N: How'd you guys like the chapter? Yes, I am currently listening to New Edition😂 What did you guys think about Paul's questions to Serenity at the beginning of the chapter? What about Serenity's response?

What about Serenity's PTSD flashback? You guys feel bad? Hate Aiden even more? What about Paul cheering Serenity up by taking her out? What about him singing to her and being silly?

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