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k a y l a n i

i needed billie the most.

i was feeling so upset and i didn't want to. today was my mom's birthday and she was turning 41, and damn did she look good for a 41 year old. amazing skin, she just looks so so young and i hope i look as young as her when i'm older.

but, i've been feeling so uneasy since the court. i feel like things are only going to get worse from here and i really don't want to lose billie. at all.

"happy birthday ma!" i greeted her as i came downstairs and pressed a kiss on her cheek.

my mother and kylie made her a whole breakfast. well it was for us, kyree, jayden, billie, finneas and claudia.

my mom is a celebrity, but she said she'd rather spend her 41 with us than having a whole party with celebrities. we were the most important to her.

"hi baby, thank you," she said with a smile and i took a seat. "how're you feeling?"

"i'm good," i lied and she smiled. "where are the others?"

"setting up the backyard for later. we're just gonna celebrate. grandpa and grandma are coming over today too, just going to grill, listen to music, eat," my mother responded and i nodded.

"bil is there too?" i asked them and kylie nodded. "ight, be right back,"

i left the kitchen and went to the back door and i went outside and saw they were decorating while listening to music on the speaker softly.

i saw my angel hanging you things as she sang along to the words and when she saw me, a big smile spread across her face and she came rushing to me and pressing her lips quickly against mine and i chuckled softly.

"hi baby," she whispered excitedly. "i love you so much,"

"i love you too," i smiled. "more than you'll ever know,"

"you good?" she asked me and i shrugged. "yo, i'll be right back. my girl needs me right now,"

"babe no..it's okay," i told her and she shook her head.

the others just nodded and she grabbed my hands and she walked me into the house and she first stopped at my mom and told her happy birthday for like the second time. she grabbed a plate for me, putting me waffles, bacon, eggs, sausage and some fruits and grabbed me orange juice while she got herself 4 vegan breakfast burritos and we made our way upstairs to my room.

"what's wrong? you can talk to me," she told me as we sat down on my bed and began eating.

"i just don't feel good.." i told her. "like ever since the court thing, i just feel like things are only going to get worse. your life was so much better when i wasn't involved. i carry so much fucking baggage and i don't want you to feel like you have to deal with all of this too,"

"you're not letting me go that easily," she told me. "i chose you for my reasons. and me being your girlfriend and you being mine, your baggage is mine. i'll help you through anything and i hope you know that,"

i nodded as i put a bacon in my mouth and she giggled and i shook my head and chuckled softly.

"i love you," she continued. "and with me loving you, i'm going to love you through the best and worst. you got my heart forever and i'm never leaving you..ever,"

"how about if i break your heart?" i asked her.

"it will be a pleasure to get my heart broken by you kaylani lynn," she cheesed quoting augustus waters in the fault in our stars.

"don't quote augustus," i laughed. "ansel is a goddamn rapist,"

"oh shit, oh yeah," she laughed and i shook my head. "but whatever you need to talk about, you talk to me okay? don't ever feel like you could hide things from me and i don't want you to go through tough shit by yourself, okay?"

"okay," i smiled.

she pressed a kiss on my lips and we went back downstairs to finish our food and billie went back to the backyard to finish setting up.

about two hours later, claudia and finneas came with food, presents for my mom and clothes for billie and then we all began getting ready since my grandparents were coming soon.

billie and i took a shower together and we washed each other's bodies, whispering sweet things to each other. i don't want anything to mess this up, at all. i want to be forever with her, i don't wanna live without her.

after we were done, we got dressed. billie wore her powerpuff girls outfit with her all white air forces and i did her hair in two space buns and she told me she looked corny, but i told her she looked beautiful.

for me, i went with a simple pink sundress with white sandals and put my hair into a high ponytail. my hair was growing longer and i like how the black just stands out with everything. i'm becoming more confident and i'm glad that i am.

"so beautiful," my angel whispered to me.

i smiled and pressed a soft kiss against her lips and told her i love her. we grabbed our phones and we made our way downstairs and everybody was in the kitchen and then i saw my mom's dad and mom. my grandparents.

"kaylani is that you?" my grandma, bernice asked and i smiled as i ran to her and pulled her into a hug. "i barely recognize you. the black hair, the glow, and you don't wear your contacts anymore,"

"you got that right?" i chuckled.

i pulled my grandpa curtis into a hug and spoke to him for a few.

"grandma and grandpa, this is my girlfriend...billie," i introduced.

billie smiled as she shook both of their hands. my grandpa began talking to billie about her tattoos and her piercing while my grandma asked her how did she rock both green and black together and i'm glad they warmed up to her.

"so glad they like her," my mother lisa told me as she wrapped her arms around my waist. "my parents would think your mom and i forced you to be like this,"

"yeah," i said. "glad they didn't come. imagine how much negative energy there will be,"

"too much to handle," she giggled.

we went to the backyard where everything was set up. the food, the drinks, the sweets. jayden was the dj, so first he played throwbacks, and he chose say my name by destiny's child.

we enjoyed the day as we laughed, talked about childhood stories and goddamn did my grandparents expose kylie, juliana and i to our lovers and it was so embarrassing.

"no role modelz and i'm here right now, no role modelz to speak up," i rapped along to j cole as no role modelz played loudly on the speakers.

"you need to meet j cole," juliana chuckled.

"no, i will make an embarrassment. this is why i don't go to events with my mom, because i wouldn't know what to say," i responded. "i missed you,"

"i missed you too," she smiled, wrapping her arms around me. "i know you've been dealing with your shit. just feels like we've been distancing ya know?"

"we're growing," i told her and she nodded. "but, you'll forever be my bestfriend. also, thank you for picking billie up that day,"

"surprised she called me," my best friend chuckled. "but...i'm glad you're happy..you're happy right? nothing i need to worry about?"

"no," i smiled and she nodded, pressing a kiss to my forehead and we rapped along to the song.

a few minutes later, we were all sitting down on the chairs and i noticed billie disappeared.

"where's bil?" i asked finneas.

"oh she's inside. she's doing something real quick," he told me and i nodded.

suspicious, but i ignored it.

i went to go sit on my moms lap and complimented her on her outfit and told her i love her, and then billie came out with a microphone.

"can i have your attention please?" i heard her say and everybody stopped talking and looked at her.

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b i l l i e

"can i have your attention please?" i asked.

everybody's eyes turned to me and i felt nervous, really nervous, but i was kind of already planned before this. jayden, finneas and claudia knew, nobody else.

"first, i just want to say happy birthday to the most incredible woman aaliyah jackson," i began speaking. "she's taken me into her home like i'm her child. she's shown me so much love and affection. i thank her everyday for treating me like i'm one of her own. i have so much respect and love her. happy birthday, i love you,"

"i love you too my love," she responded and kaylani smiled at the interaction.

"so, this is your birthday gift. i know you always wanted to hear me sing, you've begged me to sing to you, but i was always nervous. but, i feel like today is a good day," i said and kaylani looked surprised while aaliyah just had the hugest smile on her face. "finneas, claudia and jayden helped me get prepared for this and i'm ready. also, we chose a back in the day song kind of..it's a love song,"

everybody clapped and cheered for me and then i nodded at jayden to play the instrumental.

moment of honesty
someone's gotta take the lead tonight
who's it gonna be?
i'm gonna sit right here
and tell you all that comes to me

i began singing along to unthinkable by alicia keys. aaliyah wiped at her tears as i sang to the music and everybody looked at me in awe, because i've never sung this loud before.

you give me a feeling that
i've never felt before
and i deserve it, i think i deserve it

kaylani got off of aaliyah's lap and took a seat on her own chair. lisa got up and grabbed aaliyah's hands and they began slow dancing to the song. kaylani's grandma and grandpa began dancing too, which made jayden and kylie dance, juliana and kyree dance and finneas and claudia dance while kaylani stared at me with so much affection.

why give up before we try?
feel the lows before the high
clip our wings before we fly away

i looked at everybody that was dancing along and i stared at aaliyah's mom and dad as they danced to the music and that is what i wanted with kaylani. to grow old and to be happy.

i was wondering maybe
can i have back my baby
if we do the unthinkable
would that make me look crazy?

i kept singing until i was done, and when i was done everybody clapped and cheered and i smiled, my heart beating the fuck out of my chest. jesus was that scary.

"i love you," aaliyah came to me, pressing her lips against my forehead and pulling me into a hug. "that was the best birthday gift, and your voice is so so beautiful. i can see a future superstar in you,"

"i love you too," i responded.

we danced and danced, ate, made jokes, played games until it was around 10 at night. kaylani's grandma and grandpa left along with finneas and claudia. juliana and kyree was staying over here and jayden was staying here too.

"your voice is so fucking pretty," my girl complimented me.

"thank you," i blushed.

"i think you found your thing," she told me and i furrowed my eyebrows. "remember how you didn't know what you wanted to do when you graduated highschool? this is your thing. singing. my mom can get you signed to a label and imagine how many people will fall in love with your voice,"

"i'll think about it. i promise," i told her and she nodded.

"i think finneas and claudia missed spending time with you," she spoke up. "you've basically been living here. i think finneas is trying to wrap his head around the fact that his little sister is growing up,"

"yeah i missed them too," i responded.

"so go," she said and i furrowed my eyebrows. "i'm going to get you an uber and you're going to spend three days with them, okay? i know you and finneas are bestfriends and i don't want to feel guilty for breaking you guys apart. so, get ready, i'm going to call you an uber and you're going to go see them,"

"babe..seriously?" i chuckled.

"yes,"

i didn't argue with her and she was right. i've barely spent time with finneas and i really missed him and claudia so much. we haven't even spoken and had our talks like we used to do. i think these three days would be fun, i will miss kaylani though.

i grabbed some of my stuff and waited for the uber. when it was here, kaylani told me she loved me and that she was a text away, and she said she was going to tell everybody in the morning that i went back home.

i gave her a kiss and i went downstairs and got in the uber. i texted my girl when i was in the uber and then when i got home, i told her i was home.

when i got out the car, i saw an unfamiliar car parked in front of the house and i just assumed finneas and claudia had company.

boy was i wrong when i walked in the house and i saw the two people i never wanted to see ever again.

maggie and patrick. my worse nightmare.

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awe billie finally sang. y'all think she's actually gonna take that farther and start a singing career?

and uh oh .. maggie and patrick are back!! what do you thinks gonna happen?

plus can we fucking talk about ariana grande's album? goddamn she snapped. my top three are off the table, pov and west side, what are yours?

AND YALL ITS SNOWING IN THE FUCKING BRONX! a day before halloween wtf-

– armani 🦋