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b i l l i e

"what?" i asked her, my eyes widened in surprise. i put her down and backed away from her a little...i didn't except his.

"i want you to take my virginity," she responded, blushing. "i trust you, and..and i know this'll sound bad, but i promise it's not. but, i want to get rid of nathaniel from me. you're somebody who's treated me amazing and i think you deserve a present for protecting me,"

"yeah?" i asked her and she nodded. "what's that?"

"me," she whispered. "your present is me billie,"

we looked deeply into each other eyes and she stood on her tippy toes, wrapping her arms around my neck and pulling me down to smash our lips together.

she pushed herself off the wall, pushed me on the bed and got on top of me, reattaching our lips together. i tried placing my hands around her waist, but she grabbed them, lifted them above my head and intertwined our fingers together.

"are you sure about this?" i asked her as she began making kisses on my neck softly. "i want you to be sure. and plus, i'm super angry still. i have to go punch some shit,"

"no, you're knuckles," she replied. "oh my god, your knuckles. does it hurt? i feel so stupid,"

she tried getting off of me but i held her waist and made sure she stayed on top of me and she looked at me with her big pouty brown eyes. i'm glad she stopped wearing contacts, i love her brown eyes.

"baby it doesn't hurt," i whispered. "i just want to know if you're sure,"

"i'm sure,"

i flipped us over and she laid her head on her pillow. she's such a pillow princess and she looks so good as one. i smiled at her and pressed our lips together. our lips moved slowly together. i felt her hands crawl around my neck and she tugged at my back hairs which made me moan softly, she knows i like when she does that. it's my weakness.

i opened her legs and laid between them. her legs wrapped around my waist, pressing us closer together. i grabbed her thighs and began massaging it softly as we kept kissing and i felt her shudder underneath me.

i stopped kissing her and began planting kisses on her neck. i heard her let out a soft sigh and she began scratching my back softly. i went back up and reattached our lips together, my hands now at the end of her shirt. i went up her shirt, my fingers grazing her soft skin.

"can i?" i asked her and she nodded, blushing lightly.

i sat up, and i began removing her shirt slowly, noticing she wasn't wearing a bra underneath the shirt and she was completely bare at the top. she tried putting her arms over her chest, but i shook my head and i held her hands, intertwining our fingers together.

"baby, you're beautiful, you hear me?" i told her. "you don't have to be insecure around me. i will always make sure to tell you that your flaws is what makes you beautiful. you're beautiful princess. every part of you. you don't have to hide around me, okay?"

"okay," she replied softly.

"is this okay?" i asked her, as my hands began touching her breast softly. her eyes widened in shock, but it got softer and she nodded her head.

i pressed a kiss to her lips and i went down, making eye contact with her and i attached my mouth around a nipple and she let out a soft moan which was music to my ears.

my other hand began playing with the other one, making sure i have attention to both. i paid attention to the other one, wrapping my lips around the nipple and i nibbled on it softly.

i went down, making kisses on her stomach and i stopped right above her shorts. i looked up at her and she nodded her head, but i needed more.

"say yes. i want to hear you say yes that it's okay that i'm doing this," i said, my voice breaking slightly.

"billie, i trust you. okay?" she responded with a small chuckle.

"please," i swallowed. "i want you to give me consent with words. i don't want to go further. i need to hear you say yes. don't nod your head, just say it,"

"billie.." i heard her say nervously. "i love you,"

my eyes widened. this was the first time she's ever said this. i went back up and looked at her as she looked at me. her eyes told many emotions, but all i saw was love. she loves me.

"okay billie? i love you," she repeated. "i love you, because you're patient, respectful. you're kind, you're funny and you treat me amazing. i wouldn't want to do this with anybody else. i trust you with my whole life, okay? so yes billie, yes. i give you consent. i know you're gonna make me feel good and i know you're not gonna hurt me. i know that's not your intentions. i love you,"

i pressed our lips together. the kiss was soft and pure. her lips were so soft and it was amazing. i love to kiss her.

i went down again, making kisses from her neck to her stomach and i stopped right above her shorts. my hands began unbuttoning her shorts, but i stopped and i looked up at her.

"i love you more," i admitted and she smiled.

i pressed a kiss on her stomach and i began unbuttoning her shorts. i pulled them off softly and now here she is below me, naked, except for her cute yellow underwear. she is so beautiful and i'm in love.

"you're so beautiful baby," i groaned out and i saw her blush.

i went down and saw the scars. she looked at me with full eyes and i kept eye contact with her as i began kissing her scars, telling her she had nothing to worry about anymore when she was with me.

i went back up and i began kissing her softly and my hands began rubbing her clit over her underwear softly and she let out a shaky breath underneath me. i began going faster, but not too fast and she began moaning softly.

"bil," she moaned in my mouth.

my hands entered her underwear and my fingers made actual contact to her clit and this made kaylani arch her back, her chest pressing on my chest, but our lips still attached to each other. this was such a beautiful sight and her moans were music to my ears. she sounded so pretty.

i stopped my hand movement, stopped kissing her and removed her underwear and now she was bare. and it was the most beautiful thing i've seen. i was so blessed.

i went down, i was now face to face with her bare area. i bent her knees and i spread her legs and i saw how wet she was, and it was dripping down her thighs.

i made eye contact with her and my tongue flattened out from her entrance to her clit. this made her arch her back, but my hands held her waist down.

i attached my mouth to her clit and i began sucking on it softly, my tongue flickering over the sensitive nub also. kaylani's hands flew to my hair and grabbed it hard, but to me it felt good. pulling my hair was the biggest turn on to me.

"oh fuck billie," she whimpered, my eyes still attached on her. she was so beautiful and i'm so fucking blessed.

my middle finger teased at her entrance and i looked up at her, detaching my mouth from her sensitive nub and i looked up at her with soft eyes.

"are you okay?" i asked her and she nodded. "if this hurts, let me know,"

"i trust you baby. you could never hurt me," she whispered to me and i smiled.

i slowly entered my middle finger slowly and i saw her close her eyes. i went up as i kept pushing my finger inside her, but i made sure to do it gently. she let out a soft groan and i pressed a kiss to her lips which made her open her eyes.

"is it hurting you?" i asked and she shook her head.

"you can move,"

i began pumping my fingers in and out of her slowly. little groans fell out of her lips so i knew it was still painful, and i continued moving slower.

"go faster," she breathed out, and i obeyed.

i began going faster and soft moans fell out of her lips. i attached my lips to her nipples and i felt her arch into me, my fingers going inside her deeper.

and then she let out a loud moan as i went faster.

"shhhh," i shushed. "kylie and juliana are downstairs,"

i went down, my face on her area again and then i entered my index finger inside of her, my mouth reattached to her clit and she moaned my name loudly, but this time, i didn't shush her.

i began sucking and licking on her area while my fingers pumped inside my girl fast, but not too hard. her hand flew to my hair and she pushed it to the side. we made eye contact and she was sitting up on her shoulders, looking at me with low eyes, as she bit her bottom lip and she was breathing heavily, her chest moving up and down and god did she look so sexy.

"you taste so good," i mumbled which made her let out a moan.

i began pumping my fingers into her quicker and her legs began shaking softly as my tongue began flickering over clit in a rapid movement. moans, curses and my name slipped out her mouth.

"oh baby," she moaned.

shit, i'll have her children, stop playing.

i felt her tighten around my fingers and her legs began shaking more so i knew she was reaching her high. my tongue flicked over her clit quicker and i kept the same movement with my fingers, but when i feel her tighten around my fingers more, i moved them in a 'come here' motion and it broke her.

her legs shook violently, she arched her back, gripped my hair harder and she let out a loud 'baby' and then she released and curses fell out her mouth.

i pulled my fingers out and entered it in my mouth, tasting her. i went up and she pulled me into a kiss, putting her tongue in my mouth, allowing her to taste herself and i found that so sexy. everything about her was amazing.

"thank you," she whispered, pressing a soft kiss to my lips. "you made me feel amazing, and i love you,"

"i love you more baby," i responded. "are you okay?"

"my legs kind of hurt," she admitted and i chuckled.

i picked out a white tank top and pajama shorts for her and a new pair of underwear. i gave her thighs a little massage and then we made our way downstairs where kylie and juliana were eating sandwiches.

"y'all got a lil sum on y'all necks," juliana pointed out and kylie chuckled, slapping her hand over her mouth.

"you act like girlfriends can't give each other hickeys," kaylani said with a roll of her eyes.

"i didn't hear any yelling," kylie said.

"because we didn't yell," i responded with a sarcastic smile and kylie rolled her eyes. "anyways, lecture me,"

"lani, why you walking with a limp?" juliana asked as kaylani made her way to the kitchen and i bit my lip so i wouldn't laugh. "oh holy shit, yall were fucking? kaylani lynn, you lost your virginity?"

"shut up," my girl groaned. "yell at billie, she's the one who got into a fight,"

"billie eilish pirate baird o'connell," kylie started and i sat down in front of her. "first of all. did you not fucking hear what i was telling you yesterday?"

"i don't care what you have to say," i responded bluntly. and now my anger was back just thinking about nathaniel. "now the principal knows what nathaniel did, but not to who. him and i didn't want nathaniel to say kaylani's name. now, we caught him and now none of y'all have to see him in class, you're welcome. why are y'all yelling at me?"

"you could've gotten yourself hurt," kylie snapped.

i know she was more worried about me getting hurt, but i have no bruises. i'm literally bruise free, my knuckles don't even hurt anymore. it's just dried blood.

"do i look hurt to you?" i questioned her, my head tilting to the side. "if it was hurt, it would've been noticeable. you want to thank me for beating his ass. i got that you were worried about me getting hurt before i fought him, now you see the after. and i'm asking you this right now. do i look hurt,"

"no, but–"

–exactly. so no need to lecture me. i did my part. and now, we have to wait for kaylani to say it was her," i cut her off and she furrowed her eyebrows. she wanted to find a reason why it was bad for me to fight him, but there was no reason. "also, to be clear..to be fair. he called you a whore, and he said kaylani begged him to fuck her. first of all, you're no where near a whore. jayden is the second guy you've been with. and the shit he said about kaylani just pissed me off to the max,"

"i'm scared. okay," kylie admitted and i furrowed my eyebrows. "okay, i know that i can be pushy sometimes, i can admit it, but i'm scared to admit that i'm glad you found nathaniel and god am i so glad you fought him. i'm scared, because of his dad. his dad is the most respected businessman in fucking los angeles. he's a scary guy..and i'm pretty sure he's already talking to his lawyers about this. he's going to take you to court and he's going to press charges. i never liked him when nathaniel and i were friends. he was always a fucking pervert towards me. and he..he tried touching me before,"

"what?" kaylani said, surprised. "why didn't you tell me this?"

"i don't know..you was dealing with your own shit," kylie responded. "that's why during the summer, remember i went from wearing shorts and dresses, to wearing jeans and long sleeves? that was because of his dad. nathaniel also gotta friend, his name is freddie, sexually assaulted me too when i went over nathaniel's house just to be chill, and talk, because that's how close him and i were. i went to the kitchen and freddie was there. he was touching on me, trying to kiss me, calling me nasty words, telling me how he would fuck me, but stopped when he heard nathaniel come down. their family is dangerous and crazy. i know my mom is famous and all, she has high power, but it's only us..they have a whole crew behind them. that's why i'm scared for you and that's why i didn't want you to fight nathaniel. i don't want you getting in trouble. i don't want you going
to jail. i love you billie, okay?"

"okay first," i began. "we're not going to get past the fact that his dad and his friend sexually assaulted you. one. two, we're going to get through this together, as family. i'm not scared. at all. i've been to court before, and i'm not in jail am i? i love that you care and i love you..but we don't got shit to worry about,"

"i love you," kaylani whispered to her sister, pulling her into a hug.

"you're very very strong," juliana added on.

kylie is a strong person. she always puts aside her feelings to make side kaylani, juliana and i are always good. maybe that's the older sister in here, and she is older than the rest of us. i hate that she does that also, because i don't want her to fight her battles alone. god knows how much shit she goes through, but doesn't want to talk about it, because she knows kaylani is going through a tough time right now.

"we're home!" we heard the two moms say and then they made their way in the kitchen.

kaylani's eyes widened as she covered her neck with her hands and leaned against the fridge, trying to not make it obvious. she acts like this was the first time i gave her a hickey.

"lani, we seen it already. you're fine," lisa chuckled and my girl blushed. "billie, are you okay hun? juli, pass me the first aid kit,"

"principal harris told you anything?" aaliyah asked me, as she examined me, trying to see if i had any bruises anywhere, but i didn't. i was perfectly fine. and i shook my head in response. "what's gonna happen with nathaniel?"

"pretty sure he's NOT graduating this year. he might, i don't know, but he's expelled. and i can still go to school, nathaniel confessed, we just didn't say kaylani's name because that's her business," i responded.

lisa came to me with her first aid kit and she began working on my knuckles, and i didn't feel not one pain. probably because my hand was too busy working on kaylani.

holy shit i can't believe her and i really had sex.

"if anything, we have an amazing lawyer, but nathaniel's dad...antoine sinclair is very very respected as a businessman," lisa said as she made sure all my blood was cleaned up and she put a little patch over my knuckles. "your knuckles basically just had blood on it, it wasn't really busted open, so i can assume it was from nate's busted face, wasn't it?"

"yes ma'am it was," i chuckled.

"does finneas and claudia know about this?" aaliyah asked me and i nodded. "well..make sure you don't do too much hand movement,"

i heard kylie and juliana chuckle behind me and i just rolled my eyes jokingly and shook my head.

"we're going to pick up our prom dresses tomorrow and billie is going to pick up her gucci suit after school, so if we're not home, that's why," kylie told her moms and they nodded.

"okay, go upstairs. we're going to make some dinner. come down in about two hours,"

and then it was kaylani and i in her room with kylie and juliana in kylie's room.

"you ever wonder what they do in kylie's room?" i asked.

"oh..one time i walked in there, they were kissing," kaylani said like it was something natural and my eyes widened. "not like french kissing. i just got them pecking each other's lips. they do have a girl crush on each other, but ya know..juliana is with kyree and kylie is with jayden,"

"yeah, i definitely know they have a crush on each other," i chuckled. "c'mere princess,"

she walked to me on the bed and i wrapped my arms around her waist. even with me sitting and her standing up, she wasn't that tall. we were like the same height when i sat down..maybe i was two inches taller.

"i love you," i whispered.

"i love you more. so much. my angel forever," she whispered back.

i giggled and she pressed her kiss against mine sweetly, and shit i was so much in love.

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the smut scene was probably the softest smut i ever wrote.

but, its only going to get crazy after this. so get some tissues, because y'all know i he playing w y'all emotions and i don't keep happiness for too long 😭.

and i lied. i have school from 6:30 to 3:15 and homework is always due next week so i have more free time than i thought. :)

i also updated a chapter for my other book 'call out my name' go check it out if you haven't already !

– armani 🦋