warning: rant, complains, frustration, scrambled thoughts, regret, pressure, stress, shallow anger, or basically everything bad.
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I don't even know why I'm doing this - ugh, I was supposed to write two meaningful logs, but life had been just so shittily against me.

Starting off, the damned book. Y'all know what I'm talking about. Or maybe, not. It's the book, "The Nemeses."

Why am I even continuing with the book? Pressure from support? Forced? For the sake of my motivation? My main reason is pretty much hidden.

The book seems so fresh, and I look happy formatting stuff! I look happy replying to comments. Or maybe not.

Sometimes, I just want to drop everything; The Nemeses and Pandemonium, and start anew with a book I'd love to write.

It's just hard to let go. Let go of the support I received from all of you. Even if y'all stop supporting me, those memories will always mark in my mind. How my followers count moved from 31 to 184 -and still counting, hopefully- in the span of a year, how I got a lot of comments in the chapters I wrote, how I won in a contest category... I couldn't even believe it.

Why am I like this? I don't know. Maybe, I was just so frustrated after having your hardwork go to the freaking trash bin. Just gone! Referring to the graphics I made in PicsArt. PicsArt just keeps on crashing because of the fact that I use lots of layers on my graphics. And the outcome isn't even that good.

Doing something that is not meant for me; that's what I felt while I was making those graphics. And oh, I still need to credit the original owners //artists // of the pictures I use. I almost forgot.

Ah, my time is running out. Only two days until the end of May. Maybe, in June, I won't be active. I can't be active. Or, maybe, I'll be gone at that time. Wait, wth? XD

Haha, how funny! This log actually reveals a side of me. Should I publish this log, or not? Hm, it's not much related to constructing charcters, my characters, nor my main book. But who cares? My book, my rules.

I'll unpublish this when I get back to my senses.

I didn't write this to gain pity, nor for you to understand my situation. Probably, you can't just by reading this even more useless log than Log #2. I just want to rant, please let me be.

I'll be on hiatus. Maybe, for a week. Sorry everyone. SORRYYYY TT∆TT

xoxo,
Eth.