On stage, two empty chairs sit angular to each other, upholstered in chestnut leather and illuminated by globes of light. Behind the chairs, the folds of a velvet curtain billow. One would think we're all here to witness some sacred ritual rather than listen to a simple reading.

The college's auditorium is packed to capacity tonight. Adjusting my thick-rimmed glasses, I overhear attendees talking about him. The poet.

His book is called 'Undress'. It's his first one, a collection of erotic poems that has been catching attention and literally seizing the town by the nuts. Even high school girls have flocked to this event. I'm eighteen, not much older than they are, but being a freshman in college draws an invisible line between them and me. I'm happy about that line. I hated high school.

Those girls are the opposite of me, sporting peach lipstick and social skills. They're the kinds of girls who used to judge me for wearing oversized, ugly clothes. They're not the types who go to poetry readings. They must be here because of the hype and the rumors. Supposedly, the author's young and hot.

Have you read it? the girls giggle. They recite passages from his work, dissolving into nauseating NC-17 sighs. The lines make it to my ears. You...drips of impatience...your thighs on the auction block...later, absorbing me...my mouth makes another bid for you...this one is private...oh, you...absorbing me...sprawled on...

Listening to the rest, I feel my eyes round behind my lenses. My fingers find their way to my hair.

"Holy fucking moly." Sitting beside me, my best friend Dahyun kicks the toe of my boot. "Alana Lee, are you blushing?"

"Go away," I mutter, wiping my cheeks with the back of my hand. I pull out my notebook and lucky pen, just in case the poet actually says something worth remembering.

Dahyun kicks me again. "You shouldn't feel bad for eavesdropping on smut. That's one of my favorite poems of his. When I first read it, I was in the library, and I swear, if the nerve-endings in my vagina were plugged in, I would have blown a fuse, and the building would have had a blackout."

"Dahyun," I warn under my breath.

"What? You go away," she volleys back. "No one's forcing you to be here, Your Prudeness."

She's wrong. My writing professor is forcing me to be here. It's Dahyun who didn't have to come along, but she did because she's a fan of all things sexy and, naturally, she bought a copy of Undress when she heard about the reading. As for myself, I'd rather be home in my pajamas, giving my cat a bath, eating canned lamb stew, and polishing off the night with an episode of A History of Archers on the Discovery Channel.

I'm not a fan of sex verse. I don't even read that sludge in novels. It's just not literary. It's gratuitous and only meant to shock people, or to stimulate them. Moreover, I shun books that reach the boiling point of success too fast and become "popular." They're never as good as the world claims they are.

But hearing those girls reciting that poem, it felt unsettling.

I shake my head. No, I'm being silly.

"Erotica isn't real writing," I say.

"Oh, get over yourself," Jo says. "Writing that stuff takes skill."

"So does sword-swallowing, but that doesn't mean the world needs to see it in action."

"You are one little..." Dahyun trails off. Her eyeballs lurch from their sockets as she gawks at something behind me. "Aye yai yai."

Whatever she sees, it also tramples the teenage girls' conversation. Throughout the auditorium, people begin to stir, all of them glancing in the same direction.

"Oh, my God," one woman says.

"Gorgeous," another says.

Curious, I twist around. Sauntering down the aisle is a guy. His body must have been designed by an architect, but the rest of him is a study in leisure: soft hair, as though he just threw himself out of bed, a blue Henley and dark jeans that shift lazily with his movements, and the kind of walk that's slightly off-center, with a boyish slant to it.

He's unaware of the brushfire of attention he's getting. He tips his head down as he listens to a grossly overdressed woman who's trotting beside him and rattling off a bunch of things from the clipboard in her hand, like she's his assistant or something.

"I think that's him," someone whispers.

I squint. Him whom?

In addition to the woman, two men accompany him: the dean of students, as well as the evening's moderator. A heartbeat later, my face goes slack. That stud carrying a messenger bag and drinking from a stainless steel thermos. That's the poet?

That's—I consult my notebook—that's Kim Taehyung?

He is young, probably in his mid-twenties. The ruckus elevates into applause and cheers as everyone registers who's just arrived. He glances up and offers us all a disarming smile. The sight turns my insides to gelatin, and I shrink into my seat, chastising myself. As if someone like him would ever look my way. As if I should care.

Indeed, he walks right past my row. Forget that two-thousand people cram this auditorium. I've never been the sort of girl that people notice.

Dahyun waggles her brows, then gestures at Taehyung's retreating form. "Nom nom," she teases.

I roll my eyes. Her and her stupid sound effects.

Taehyung and his entourage disappear backstage. I wonder what they're doing, what they're talking about, what he's thinking and if he's nervous. His broad features had been relaxed, on the dreamy side of handsome.

Good grief. I swipe off my glasses, only to shove them right back up the bridge of my nose.

Dahyun titters at me. "You okay?"

"Yes," I growl.

The dean crosses onto the stage and glides into a fairly predictable speech. How great it is to see everyone here. Our university's appreciation for the arts, especially for risk takers. An innocent pun about the nature of Taehyung's work, earning a round of polite laughter.

On cue, he relinquishes the spotlight to the moderator, who struts out from behind the curtain, flashes his pearly whites, and gets down to the interesting stuff: His unprecedented success as a poet. How his collection of erotic poems hit the ground running. Awards. Gushing reviews. A playwright who's adapting one of Taehyung's poems into a theatre piece.

How he grew up here, in this college town, and has just moved back indefinitely. How he recently became the university's new artist in residence.

I pause in the act of writing, my lucky pen scratching across the paper. Taehyung l Kim lives here now?

The moderator presses his palms together like he's praying. "And now, it's my honor to welcome a poet who's not only brilliant and daring, but so very fucking cool. Taehyung Kim."

The crowd goes nuts, courtesy of the undergrads and teens whooping like there's a rock star in the house. Taehyung steps onto the stage, fresh-faced and humbly waving off the introduction. He and the moderator take their seats. The commotion fades, though not before someone whistles suggestively at Taehyung, which makes him chuckle.

The moderator primps his pompadour and jokes to his guest, "They always do that for me."

Once the audience settles down, he ticks off a bunch of questions. Did Taehyung ever expect this kind of response to Undress? Is he worried about the curse of rapid success, a fate that leaves many artists crashing and burning before their careers have really begun? Why does he write about sex? Why does he think this collection is so provocative?

Taehyung has a voice that's deep and masculine. His words have a tendency to crack like a kid's, but it's sturdy, like something one can physically hold onto.

He tackles the Q & A with confidence and traces of humor. He doesn't think his book should be considered provocative, since every poem or story is about sex, love, or death—and he just happens to write bluntly about one of them. He sips from his thermos in between answers. Riveted by the way his throat rocks up and down, I forget to take notes.

"Is there someone who inspires your poems?" he asks, leaning in close.

Code for whether Taehyung is banging someone. Very subtle.

Taehyung's laugh is electric. "Not really. There's no special lady in my life."

That answer is a charm-infused current that sweeps through the auditorium. It's airborne, elating nearly every woman here, and some men to boot. When he gets up to read from his collection, it's the calm before the storm. He makes his way to the podium and flips through the pages of his book, the leaflets whipping gently in the quiet. He clears his throat, a guttural noise that is inexplicably sexy, and scans the audience.

Those eyes sail past me. Halt. Flit back to where I'm sitting.

Even from this distance, I see that his irises are a vivid, spellbinding dark brown, how was this not the first detail I noticed about him? His eyes force me to grip the armrests. I'm in no way ready for this moment and, thus, I glance down.

"Look at me," he says.

My head darts back up. A second passes between us. Then he regards the rest of the crowd.

Look at me, he says again, and I realize that he's reading the first lines of his poem. Of course, he wasn't speaking to me. It was the briefest eye contact, so slight that it must have been a figment of my imagination.

I've always thought poetry to be tedious, guilty of never saying what it means. A literary jigsaw puzzle that rarely produces a recognizable image. But hearing it recited is different. The verse becomes clearer, a shape taking form.

Do what I say...let me commit a deep crime...let me thaw you out.

I peek around. People are hanging onto the poem by their fingernails.

...the stuttered rhythm of your cursing...a half-smile between your thighs.

My right foot rides of the side of my left calf.

...toes choke the sheets...your moan, incense to me.

On the final line, his gaze seeks me out. I'll wreak havoc in you, if you'll allow it.

I tear my eyes away. After a dozen or so poems, Taehyung finishes to wild applause, and I sag into my chair, exhausted.

Dahyun drags me with her for the book signing, even as I grind my heels into the floor. I've already made up my mind to dislike Taehyung Kim and his effect on me.

The line is ridiculously long. Taehyung sits at a table, at the front. His perky assistant with the pink-frosted hair stands behind him as he chats with fans. They butter him up with compliments, offer him a prize view of their cleavage, and basically do everything short of giving him a lap dance. Either he doesn't notice or doesn't care.

Meanwhile, I tilt my head, studying the way his wrist moves as he signs books. When Dahyun's turn finally comes, I ignore her protests and bolt off the side.

"Have mercy," Dahyun says to Taehyung, dropping her copy of Undress onto the table. "You, sir, are a life-ruiner."

He laughs at the playful accusation. Up close, I discover that he has a tiny mole and, for no reason, hitch the strap of my backpack in place. Unfortunately, this catches his attention. Those eyes lock onto mine and glitter with recognition. I scowl, erasing the grin he'd been about to wield.

"That's my friend, Alana," Dahyun says. "Don't take her scowl seriously. She's a mouse."

"Is that right?" he says while staring at me. "Does Alana want an autographed copy, too?"

I can't decide what rankles me more. Dahyun's offhanded comment, or Taehyung's use of the third person, or that we've suddenly got the attention of hundreds of people.

"Not from you," I say and then march off. Behind me, disapproving mutters from the crowd strike me in the back.

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"You don't fucking think ahead, do you, brainless? I've been waiting for-fucking-ever for you to climb out of your own skin. I've been praying at my bedside for you muster up the cojones to live out loud. And when you finally do, it's irony's way of punking me. Of all the people to snub, you chose Taehyung Kim!"

Dahyun strangles the steering wheel and curses at the front windshield all the way to my house. I grew up only a few blocks from campus, so the ride isn't long, but she makes the most of it. "If you hadn't been such an Ivy League bitch to him, you could have gotten his help. For a former high school valedictorian, you sure are stupid."

She's right, I realize. My first short story for class has been bugging me for weeks. My professor had had everyone draw a genre from a bag, and I'd gotten stuck with erotica. That's why I went to the reading tonight. My professor suggested it would help give me a better perspective on my work. I've finished the story, but I have no clue if it's any good.

If I'd been friendly, Taehyung Kim could have given me his opinion. He's the artist in residence, after all. He'd probably be willing to help students who reach out.

The thought cements in my mind and plagues me into the next morning. After locating a university email address for him, I drum my fingers on my desk and stare at my laptop. After the way I acted, he'll definitely say no. Still, I hate loose ends.

Mr. Kim,

I've recently been assigned to write a short story for class. As you're familiar with the subject matter, I was hoping that I might get your thoughts on my draft. See attached.

Thank you very much.

Sincerely,

Lee Alana.

Chances are, he won't even remember
who I am.

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It's been a week, but he hasn't replied. It was a dumb idea anyway. Whether or not he remembered me, he must have been turned off that I sent my story without asking first if he'd care to read it—a presumptuous and entitled move. And if he did remember me, he must have also thought I had nerve, soliciting his help after cutting him down in public.

It's late afternoon on Friday. Mom's at work, my little sister's at the movies with a friend, and Dahyun's got a date. My cat, Ruby, is preoccupied with mice in the backyard.

I'm alone. Clad in fuzzy socks and a Snuggie, I'm listening to a podcast marathon of NPR's Puzzle Master, chucking popcorn at my laptop and booing because the current puzzle is way too easy. The challenge is that every answer is the name of a tree, and the goal is to identify the tree name from its anagram. The first word was reap, and the answer was pear. It's supposed to get more difficult, but it hasn't yet.

"Allure," the host prompts.

"Laurel," I say, exasperated.

The contestant still can't figure it out. Patience lost, I check my email and lurch forward. There's a reply from Taehyung Kim. My heart leapfrogs into my chest. Tentatively, I open the message.

I'm finished. Come pick it up.

—KTH

I jerk my hands in the air, palms up, in mystification. He actually read my story. Does he like it? Does he hate it? When does he want me to pick it up? Right now?

Anyone else would be fangirling. This is exactly what I hoped for, but my thought process doesn't steer me to a happy place. It steers me toward dread. I didn't expect him to humor me.

Or to provide his campus address, when he could have just emailed his critique. What is there to say face-to-face? Does he hope to see me squirm while he bashes my descriptions of... My skin burns. It officially sinks in, what I sent to him. A story about a girl's first time, which happens in a cave, on an island, with a boy she barely knows but who claims to have loved her since he was five. Which ends with her breaking his heart, because how could she not?

Her first time. In detail. Just by reading it, Taehyung must have discovered that I'm by no means an authority on sex.

I wring my hands. He did me a courtesy. I have no choice but to go.

Jumping into my clothes, I purse my lips at my reflection in the full-length mirror. The rebellious strings of hair that have come loose from my braid. My faded leggings, which have begun to stretch out. The long sleeves of my sweater draped over my fingertips. The only thing I have going for me is my pair of rain boots, even though it's not raining.

The walk takes twenty minutes. He lives in a residential neighborhood, where the university owns a few houses for staff clubs and department offices. I adjust my glasses and do a nervous jig on the porch. My sleeves keep flopping over my knuckles no matter how often I shove them up my forearms.

The door opens. I jump and scuttle backward, mindful that I hadn't even knocked yet.

Taehyung leans his shoulder against the frame while holding a steaming cup in his hand. He looks the same as he did in the auditorium, with bed hair that curls at the ends, and ruler-straight brows. Only this time, he's sporting a burgundy knit sweater and black jeans. They ride low on his hips, landing in a frayed puddle around his marled socks.

Thank you for seeing me. You didn't have to do this. I hope I'm not troubling you. I apologize for my behavior the other night. I wasn't feeling well, as you most likely deduced. Haha.

"Nice to see you again, Alana," he says, which must be a lie.

My sleeves droop over my hands yet again. He notices, his gaze sliding over my ensemble. I should have worn something more presentable. I never would have shown up to the dean's residence looking this sloppy.

"I didn't think you'd remember me," I confess.

He lets out a masculine chuckle. "You're hard to forget."

My face scrunches. Now, he's really lying. Or he's referring to the way I turned my back on him at the book signing.

He seems to hone in on my discomfort and amends, "With a name like Alana."

Well. That makes sense, too.

I hike up my sleeves and fold my hands in front of me. "Um, you said to come over, but you weren't very specific. I just assumed you meant now. But if this is a bad time—"

"No, I meant now," he says, straightening from the door and jerking his chin. "Come in."

That would suggest we need privacy, with solid walls boxing us in. Out of the question.

"What would my grade be?" I blurt out, by way of stalling.

"Excuse me?" he asks, perplexed.

"If you had to grade my story, what would you—"

"I'm not a professor."

"But—"

"Come inside."

He disappears into the house. I glance over my shoulder, then back at the open doorway before tiptoeing after him. The latch clicks softly in place as I shut the door. Wavering there, the soles of my rain boots make suction noises on the floor. It might be rude not to remove the boots, but I don't want to give the impression that I plan on staying long.

The muscles of Taehyung's back shift under his sweater as he migrates toward the kitchen. "Make yourself at home," he calls out. "Would you like tea or coffee?"

"Water," I say. "No ice."

It's the scratchy echo of brass instruments that unglues me from my spot, luring me further into the living room. A jazz record spins on a tabletop player, the jaunty tune coaxing me closer. The house is all wood, from the beamed ceiling to the floor. Flames coil from behind the glass panes of a fireplace. He likes plaid wool throws. And art. Among the moving boxes wedged into a corner, a few abstract canvas paintings lean against the wall, waiting to be hung.

The shelf above the fireplace displays a childlike toothpick sculpture that's hard to decipher. It kind of looks like a bird.

"I made that when I was in kindergarten."

I flinch, ambushed by Taehyung's proximity as he looms beside me. Sandalwood cologne wafts into my nose. That and the scent of cinnamon.

He offers me a cup. "Dark hot chocolate." His eyes glint with mischief. "Sorry. I ran out of water."

Wise guy. As I accept the chocolate, his thumbs ghost over mine, the sensation stupefying me so that I almost lose my grip on the handle. He delays for a second before pulling away, then saunters to the record player as if nothing happened. He turns off the music.

"So we can concentrate," he explains.

I would have rather left the jazz on. I'm not ready to concentrate with him.

He settles into a chair. I perch on the edge of the sofa, mustering up a poker face as he slides my story out from the coffee table drawer. I spot pencil notes along the margins. Most of them end with question marks.

Taehyung scans the first page, his thumb propped against his chin, the length of his index finger rubbing his lower lip in silent contemplation. I drain my cup and then proceed to gnaw on my pinky nail. Poet Taehyung Kim is critiquing my writing. And he doesn't look impressed.

He tosses the story onto the coffee table. "What are you studying?"

Oh, no. Chitchat. Hence, he wants to be nice before crushing my prose to smithereens. I'm terrible at polite conversation, yet the warm, encouraging light in his eyes causes me to answer automatically. "Forestry and Environmental Science."

He cocks his head. "A woodland girl?"

"Something like that." I focus on the cushions separating us. "It's not really that interesting."

"I disagree. You see, Alana, the way this works is that we have to get to know each other before braving the deep stuff."

"The deep stuff," I repeat.

"Deep," he confirms. "Like, do you like coffee or tea? Or water? Or what do you study? Or what's your favorite color? Mine is right out there." He points to the window where the gray clouds have shifted, allowing ribbons of dusky sunset to squeeze through. It's going to be dark soon.

I hesitate, then tell him my signature color is blue, that it's the color of my lucky pen and my room when I was a kid. And yes, it's the color of the sky. And I love looking at the sky.

We talk for over an hour. He asks me things, and the more I reveal, the more the knots in my shoulders unwind. I find myself wiggling into the sofa, even laughing shyly at his jokes.

Eventually, he contributes tidbits about himself. He loves to paint, grew up in a farm, has a brother and a sister, and has a passion for art history. He hated poetry in high school. He didn't appreciate it until later when he discovered that his father used to write verse.

"But, um, why this kind of poetry?" I ask, because I just can't understand it.

"Why erotica?" Taehyung shrugs, unsurprised by the question. "Sex seemed like an easy place to start my writing, but then I discovered it's not easy at all. And I guess the more difficult it became, the more I wanted to stick with it. I'm stubborn."

"That pretty much sums me up, too," I say.

We laugh.

"Also," he admits, "as a kid, I saw how violent people can be. So I wanted to explore the opposite: how passionate people can be."

He falls silent, entombed in his own private thoughts, then gives me an apologetic smile. I long to know more, but I don't want to pry. As it is, I can't believe that he confessed as much as he did to a stranger like me. Or that he managed to waylay me this long.

He inclines his head toward my story. "I'll tell you what I think on one condition."

I retrieve my work, hold it protectively on my lap, and wait, sensing a challenge.

Taehyung doesn't disappoint. "Read it," he says.

I grip the stack of pages. "What? You mean... You mean, out loud?"

He stares at me. Internally, I panic. Is he serious? But he's already gone through my story himself. Why does he need me to read it to him? My fingers are sweating and leaving smudge marks all over the third paragraph.

"It—it's twenty pages long," I reason.

Taehyung arches an eyebrow, the firelight carving through his notoriously chiseled features. "I'm aware of how long it is."

"I can't read this to you," I insist. "It's about..."

His lips twitch. "It's about what?" he inquires in a smooth voice.

It's about sex. He's Taehyung Kim, a sorcerer of words. And I'm just a student. A nobody. I don't care how patient he's been with me. I can't read a graphic smut scene to him. Not when we're alone in his house, when I barely know him, when he's older and wiser.

I adjust my glasses and shake my head. "I-I don't want to."

Taehyung reclines in his chair, his burgundy sweater spanning his chest. He twirls a pencil between his fingers. "Why not?"

A simple question. Which makes it a difficult question.

He expects an answer, but there is none. He knows why I can't read it.

He drops the pencil, gets up, and sits beside me on the sofa. "Alana, part of learning to write involves learning to talk about what you're writing. Not to mention, learning to read it to people. If you do, you'll see the story differently."

"Why would I want to?"

"To understand it better. Deeper."

Deeper. There's that word again. Why does it make me nervous?

I think of when he read his poems aloud, how everything made more sense once it came from his lips. Nevertheless, I mumble, "I'm uncomfortable with that. Reading about..."

"Fucking?" he says softly, as if it's a gentle act rather than a primal one.

My cheeks detonate with heat. My head falls forward, my glasses landing at the cliff of my nose as I stare at my lap. The silence is so sharp, I could use it to slit my wrists.

"Well, I don't want to make you uncomfortable," he says. "If you are, we can stop talking. You can read my notes, and if you have questions, feel free to email me. It's up to you. Just remember, storytelling isn't always comfortable. You have to let yourself go. You've already taken a huge step by tackling a subject you're not at ease with."

"Not by choice. It's an assignment."

His index finger steals beneath my chin and cants my head up. That same finger pushes my glasses back in place. "Reading your work aloud is another step to knowing what you've done. The sounds and tastes of the syllables. The textures and rhythms of the sentences. The words that keep repeating. The thoughts aching to burst free. The narrative's pulse."

My own pulse hammers. His finger is intoxicating me, taking my rationale prisoner.

"And maybe once you take that step, you'll know what to do to mend the story," he finishes.

I balk, his comment extinguishing whatever trance I'd been in and triggering the defensive side of me. "Mend?"

Taehyung pulls back. "You have something, Alana. You have the ability to draw a reader into your story. It's an intriguing, emotional premise."

His carefully measured words only frustrate me more. "I prefer brutal honesty. I can handle it."

He almost grins, a crease rising at the margin of his mouth. "I know you can. Your scowl told me as much the other night. That doesn't mean I can't start with the positive things first. Anyway, there's a carefully wrought nature to the text that concerns me. It just doesn't feel real in the story."

Instantly, I bristle. So much for me having a thick hide.

"Please don't take this unkindly," he implores. "I read between the lines, this fire sealed inside you. It needs air. You care about this piece more than you think. But right now, you're too aware of it as a construction—as a thing to be crafted and polished, with order, conflicts, and resolutions that sound too mechanical. You're not allowing the scenes to breathe and run rampant. Instead, this reads like a formulaic notion of what a story is supposed to be."

That strikes my academic nerve with the point of an arrow. "And what's the alternative?"

"If you'd read it out loud, you might get an idea."

"Then, what do I need you for?"

His eyes flash. "We'll get to that."

I argue, "You're a master of verse. Not narrative."

"So what?"

"So I don't know why I'm even here. The same rules of writing don't apply."

"Yes and no. Either way, I've been doing this long enough that I can tell when a writer is letting their own consciousness, morals, and ideals invade a story. Your character's a teenager. She's led a raw and gritty life, but she doesn't talk like it. She uses words like member to describe the boy's erection. That might work if she were sheltered or some virginal debutante in Regency England, but she's not. I'm betting she'd say, cock."

"I won't use that word," I declare.

"This isn't just about you. It's about the heroine. Look at me."

When I do, Taehyung traps me in his gaze. "You're a good writer, Alana. This can be beautiful, but you're too focused on the end result to dig further. You're holding back when you can do better. I know you can.

"Think like your heroine. Tap into that fragile but impassioned heart. Would she truly engage in intimacy? Or would she make love, or have sex, or would she do stuff? Imagine how sex would be for her and go for it."

My head is protesting. But my chest is not. It's fluttering with apprehension, curiosity, excitement. The logs in the fireplace spark, the flames whipping around like they're trying to bust out of their cage.

Taehyung glances at my lips, which makes them tingle. No one has ever looked at them like that. I must be under hypnosis. He could have anyone he wants, someone closer to his own age. A graduate student with breasts and confidence, who knows how to do the very things he writes about.

At the same time, I'm riled up by his critique. "I'll work on that. The vocabulary," I say, needing to get out of here before I do something stupid like snap at him. Or touch him.

Muttering my haphazard gratitude, I retreat to the door. My hand wrenches the knob to the right when Taehyung taps me on the shoulder. He hands me my story, which I swipe from him. He seems reluctant about something and opens his mouth, but I can't let him have the last word.

Ignoring the doubt perched in my throat, I cut him off. "This isn't my style. Stories of this nature."

He gets the last word anyway. "Then what is your nature, Alana?"

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That's another valid question. It's strange that I'm taking this assignment to heart, when it's not part of my major. My Narrative Writing class is just a Humanities fulfillment.

At home, I bury the story in my desk drawer and then take a very indulgent shower. I toss and turn that night, thinking about all the things he said. Shuffling back to my desk, I light a candle—I decide to experiment with ambiance—and pull out my story. Some of his notes, I agree with. Others, I don't. I reread the story quietly and get out my lucky pen.

The setting changes from a cave to a lush forest, a rough landscape teeming with wild noises. Ideas sprout and multiply, and my pen flies. It's a clumsy thrill between the boy and girl. After they force themselves to calm down, they learn how their legs and lips work. He comes, but she doesn't, so his mouth takes care of her by following the navigation of her sighs. My fingers shake, my chest beating out an unfamiliar tune.

It's not that I haven't thought about it before. It's just that I've been busy exercising my brain for my family, for scholarships and honors. But in between the sentences, I wonder what's it like to be with a man.

Rustling sheets. Arch. Shiver. Wet. Hungry, naked bodies. Spread. Pain. Burn. The darkest eyes, hard on me. Yes. Right. There. The hiss of my name as it leaves his lips.

Fuck.

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All through classes that week, there's a bounce in my step, which Dahyun grills me about. I haven't told her that I met with Taehyung Kim. If I do, she'll want to know everything, but I'm still processing what he makes me feel, what this new type of writing makes me feel. It's like I've just discovered stories. Places where, besides the wilderness, I can let myself go.

The girl still breaks the boy's heart in the story. Whenever I think about that scene, and the look on his face, I ache. I guess what I care about, what matters to me, is always going to be scary.

On the following Friday night, I brave a final read-through. When I'm done, my adrenaline spikes. I want to show this to Taehyung, to thank him for his help. I want to do it today.

My choice of outfit is more considerate this time. I borrow one of my sister's floral print dresses. She's a couple of years younger, so it's a bit snug, but I drape on a long cardigan and pair everything with my favorite boots. I tug my hair loose and let my hair cascade in waves around my shoulders.

By the time I get to Taehyung's house and knock, I'm eager to see him again. Until the door opens.

A blond head emerges. It's not Taehyung. It's a girl. A stunning girl, maybe a couple of years older than me.

My heart sinks to my ankles. Right then, I understand why I was so intent on coming here. I don't know Taehyung, but I do know that he prefers tea over coffee, likes jazz and art, and has a sense of humor, a sweet smile, and a sexy voice. I know more about his poems, too, because I finally read his book. I like him. A lot.

Now, I know something else. He's taken.

The girl shrugs on her jacket. "Hi," she says. "Can I help you?"

My ability to handle chaos has been finely tuned over the years. But for once, I cannot formulate a response. "Hi, I... I was just..."

"Are you looking for Taehyung?" Before I have the chance to scream nooooo, she twists around and chirps, "Taehyung!"

Then he's there in a robe, tank, and flannel pants. He isn't dressed for company, but his eyes dance when he sees me. "Alana," he says. "Hey."

The girl says something about being in a hurry. She gives him an intimate hug, hops down the porch, and heads to her car.

Taehyung scratches his chin ruefully. "Sorry about that. Cara really was in a hurry, otherwise she'd have let me introduce you."

Introductions are the last thing I want. And her name is Cara? Even for a poet, that's taking his fetish for words to a whole new level. And now that I think about it, how did he manage to find a girlfriend so quickly? Is she also a student? Did come over one afternoon, also asking for help with her story?

"Alana?" Taehyung asks, concerned.

I could leave. It would be easier to send a formal "thank you" note later. That way, I wouldn't have to stick around, feeling lackluster compared to his girlfriend.

I've waited too long to speak because Taehyung ventures, "I'm glad you came back. I've been thinking about you. How's the story coming?"

It's burning a hole in my bag. A big hole.

He must misinterpret my silence for literary distress. Creases buckle in his forehead, and he walks backward, beckoning me inside. "Let's talk. I'll make you more hot chocolate."

I try to object, but he's already gone. If I have any dignity, I won't make a huge deal of this. After all, I only spent one evening in his company. I'm not a shallow girl who falls for a guy at warp speed.

Stepping inside and closing the door, I inhale the comforting aromas of cinnamon and baked cookies. It's ridiculous how sad I become from smelling those two things.

There's no fire brimming in the living room, though a few lamps are dimly lit. There's a new bookshelf packed with gold leaf titles. Nosy, I check out the shelves, then stiffen when Taehyung approaches with a steaming mug—the same one from last time. I take it but don't drink.

"I wanted to email you," he says. "But I figured it was best for you to contact me. I mean, not that I expected you to contact me. Just if you felt up to it."

Of all the things to shoot from my mouth, I go for rudeness. "With Cara around, you actually had time to think of me?"

Taehyung frowns. Whatever expression lurks on my face, it broadcasts my feelings loud and clear, and dawning sweeps across his own features. "Alana, that doesn't sounds like something a student asks a mentor."

I set the hot chocolate on the bookshelf. "You're not my mentor. I just came to say thanks for the help."

Taehyung's gaze searches mine. The last thing I sound is grateful. At best, I'm being an envious bitch.

"My pleasure." He clips his head toward the hall and challenges, "There's the door."

"Bye," I say.

"Bye," he says.

Neither of us moves. The shriek of a buzzer pierces through the house, and Taehyung vanishes into the kitchen, giving me a moment. I snatch a volume by someone named Erich Fried from the shelf and flip to a random poem, needing to keep my hands busy.

His footsteps return. He plucks the book away, checks out whatever poem is on the page, and reads it in a voice that would snap a thermometer.

Your distant voice so near

on the phone and soon

when we're close

I will hear it

from much further away

because it will have to travel

from your mouth

to my ears a great distance

past your breasts

across your navel

and the small mound

along your entire body

on which you look down to watch

my head

and my face

buried

in your thighs

and in your hair

and in your womb

He slaps the book shut with one hand and levels me with a candid gaze. "Cara is my cousin."

My back hits the shelf. "Oh."

I'm mortified. This isn't to say my assumption wasn't warranted, or that I suddenly have a chance with Taehyung. I'm not in his league. I'm not even in the same solar system. The other evening, he probably thought to entertain himself by charming the geeky undergrad wriggling on his couch, never considering me for something more.

That has to be it. It wouldn't have been the first time a guy has done that to me.

Yet. His irises reflect a gradient of brown shades, one emotion shifting into the next. Amusement, then affection, then hope. "I thought you were leaving," he says.

The problem is my legs have short-circuited. I can't move.

Taehyung sets the book next to the hot chocolate. "I've been meaning to ask. Why did you want me to read your story if you don't like my work?"

"I never said I didn't like your poems," I contest, breathless. "I said I didn't want an autograph."

He smirks. "Okay." He steps forward and murmurs the worst thing he could possibly murmur. "Alana."

I jump from my spot, scrambling backward and gesturing to the bookcase. "I-I see you don't alphabetize your titles. You really should, though."

Taehyung begins to stalk me along the length of the shelves.

"Or I could h-h-help you," I suggest. "I mean, of course you know how to spell."

And honestly, with the way his eyes blaze a trail across my dress, I can barely recite the alphabet at the moment. But I can't shut up, either. "It's just that you've got hundreds of titles here, and that's a lot of work to do alone. Especially since you've already unpacked. Or maybe you do have your own method. Like organized chaos."

He pursues. The intentional look on his face trips a wire in my pelvis.

"Or th-they could be rearranged by genre," I say.

His arms stretch out, reaching for me. I snatch a heavy anthology off the shelf and dump it into his empty hands. "I'd start with the anthologies first," I say desperately. "And then..." Then I get to the end of the shelf. Turning away, I pretend to examine his collection. "I would move onto the..."

Taehyung's robe brushes the back of my dress. He smells like blown-out candles and kitchen spices.

"I would move onto fiction..." The words fade as one hand curves over my hip, the other swipes aside my hair, and his mouth makes contact with my skin. Hot, lazy little kisses ascend the column of my neck, causing a riot in my bloodstream. "After fiction..." My voice comes out weak and rickety, like it's about to collapse. "I'd finish with the...the, um...the..."

His moist lips find my pulse point and suck on it gently. I gasp, my head listing to the side, my lashes batting to stay open.

"The what?" he whispers.

I don't know anymore. I had no idea that anything could generate this kind of response from me, that my body had this kind of power, or that it could be this painfully, impossibly good. Such a simple touch, yet I feel faint.

Taehyung cups my jaw and twists my face to look up at him. He moves in to kiss me, but when he mumbles my name, I remember who I am and wrench myself away, stumbling from his arms.

"Enough," I say. "This isn't funny."

His eyes widen. "Funny? Alana, did I do someth—"

"You think you're the first guy to make a sport of me? I know how this works. You're teasing me because I'm plain and gawky—and you're anything but."

Frustrated tears prick my lids. I think of my crush in high school. A guy named Jackson, who pretended to like me on a dare, turned my affections into a game, stole a kiss and then asked me to meet him for a date. When I got to the movie theatre, excited and dressed up, he was there. So were his friends and dozens of kids from school, cheering meanly, laughing and taking pictures of me.

Taehyung looks horrified. I realize too late that I've been speaking out loud, recapping the memory to him.

I make it as far as the front door. I open it, only for him to catch up and shove it closed again.

"Stay," he says from behind. "Please, Alana."

It aches so good, the way he hisses my name. It resonates in private places that I never knew existed, literally caressing my heart. Now I know what he once meant by words having texture.

Do I really believe he's as cruel as Jackson? No. Taehyung's been nothing but sincere. He encouraged me to believe in my writing. He touched me because he wanted to touch me, and because he knew that I wanted it as well.

He whispers, "When I said that I've been thinking about you, I wasn't clear. I can't stop thinking about you."

Holy Jesus. He's serious.

Taehyung sneaks his lips beneath my earlobe. "I love your righteous attitude. I love the way you fidget with your glasses. I love the way your lips wrap around the rim of my cup."

With a sigh, I fall into him. He takes that as permission and tugs my bag from my shoulder, and the sound of it hitting the floor is the loudest thing I've ever heard—aside from the mad gallop in my chest, because I cannot believe this is happening.

"I love that you're stubborn and honest," he says. "I want every bit of you. Every single bit." My jacket lands beside the bag. "Alana, I promise, I would never hurt you."

"I wouldn't let you," I answer.

"Good."

"This is real?"

He reaches past me and locks the door. "Let's find out."

As soon as we hear the bolt snap shut, an anticipatory wave of goosebumps rides up my skin. Taehyung pivots me around, his lips in a rush against mine. He kisses me with his whole body, his chest trapping my breasts, his hands climbing the back of my head and fastening me in place. I've been kissed before, yet those times wither next to this. The sensual tug of his lips, the wet arch or his tongue flicking over my own. The way he licks at my palate, stirring inside me until my knees quiver and his arms are the only things keeping me upright.

Pieces of his verse swim through my mind. May I kiss you… my tongue…and your tongue...travel the earth together…synchronize with solid places…with other dampened lips…

My hands rake through his hair, rattling a groan from him. An astonished, needy mewl escapes me as he slants his mouth in a different direction and sucks my upper lip between his teeth.

When I buck my hips, he breaks the kiss. "I'm going to take off your panties."

"Yes," I answer, not recognizing the disorder in my voice, nor the gruffness in his.

His hands sweep beneath my dress, running along the scalloped trim of my panties before easing them down my legs, so very slow, that there's a gravely texture to my moans. The panties slip over my boots and pool around my ankles. I step out of them, and he nudges them to the side. Where my thighs meet, I'm swollen and slick, having felt his kiss down there.

By the time he sinks to his knees, the throbbing has accelerated. He lifts my skirt and presses the pads of his thumbs against me, spreading me and exposing the little bud that's already twitching for him.

"You're exquisite," he mumbles, his breath gusting over my skin.

He places a kiss to that spot, making me yelp in surprise, then hooks my left leg over his shoulder and tastes me in an excruciating way. My entire being snaps to attention while my head thunks helplessly against the door, my arms whipping out to grasp the frame. "Oh, my god," I rasp.

His tongue glides up over the split in my body, slippery, feather-light, and rippling from his own sighs of appreciation. Pleasure curls where he licks around my opening, repeatedly tracing the circular shape, alternating between that and sweeping his tongue inside me. I hear him swallow, and oh fuck, it's like he's drinking from me. I'm incoherent, practically wheezing from the hollow ache that keeps building.

But that's nothing compared to what he does next. There's another spot, a bump right between the opening and the clit, which he moves on to. Humming, he seizes it and draws it into his sweltering mouth, pinching me slightly with his teeth.

"Oh," I keen, lost to the strong rhythm of his jaw. "God, I can't. I can't. Please."

Encouraged, he grabs my thigh off his shoulder and flattens it high against the door. Finally, his lips slope toward the bud and latch on. And don't...let...go.

My mouth falls open. My fingers claw into the doorframe, my joints bracing in order to absorb the full impact of him suctioned around me.

It's the sight of Taehyung's head flanked by my legs that racks my entire being. His mouth bobs faster, working me harder, and my cries splinter through the room as I go blind, the muscles inside me convulsing, spasming against his lips.

He emerges, a look of pure devotion on his face. He catches me before I puddle to the floor, his lips skimming mine. "I need to have more of you."

This is too fast. We're moving way too fast.

I don't give a fuck.

My fingers dare to slip past his robe and under his tank, roaming across the grooves and corded muscles of his abdomen. "Yes," I say.

Growling, he hoists me into his arms, carries me to the sofa, and strips us of the rest of our clothes. I had expected to be self-conscious of my nudity. Instead, I'm a girl on fire. I'm beautiful, and he's beautiful.

We come to our senses long enough for him to rush into his bedroom and return with a condom. Under a blanket, I savor the planes of his torso, the sight of his cock straining for me, our mingled hiss as he maneuvers himself through my body.

It's slow. It's new. The weight of him on top of me, our restless lips fusing together. The revolution of his hips, the tip of his erection teasing my entrance, then his length swooping fully into me, burning bad, then burning good. My knees riding him. The profile of his ass as it pumps. His thrusts whipping me into the cushion, hitting a spot that crackles up my spine. Moment to sweet, uncontrolled moment.

Also, his words. That he's wanted me since he first saw me. That he wants to freeze this moment.

"Do you feel my body fucking yours? Should I make you come now?" he asks.

I whimper in acknowledgment. Taehyung laces our fingers together, balling them into fists at the sides of my head, then lashes into me with more insistent strokes. His body bends at a steep angle with each jolt of his pelvis, our hands squeezing against the momentum, locking us down and keeping my head from slamming against the arm of the sofa.

That amazing, blinding light returns. We tense at exactly the same time, freezing this moment with shout from both of us. As we buckle into the cushions in a sweaty, tangled heap, our heavy breaths overlapping, I know this was real. I've just slept with Taehyung Kim. Words and bliss swirl in my head. I could get used to it.

Afterward, he lights the fireplace and snuggles between my limbs. His goofy enthusiasm makes me laugh. We're quiet for a while, but it's a happy quiet where I explore the skin around his navel and he combs through my hair.

He kisses the rim of my glasses and whispers his flaws. "I'm self-conscious about every poem I write. I'm kind of compulsive. I drink unsweetened tea whenever I'm nervous. I'm still not good enough for my family, but that won't stop me from trying to be. I'm hopelessly hopeful." He smiles. "Like tonight, I'm getting ideas of how to keep you here."

I'm not going anywhere. Though since he's offering... "I do have one request."

Padding over to my bag on the floor, I pull out my story. As I return to the couch, Taehyung sits up and opens the blanket for me. I straddle his lap and clear my throat. "I'd like to read you something."

The End.