{The untold story...}

This is a chapter dedicated to Jimin and Jhope's past and their now broken friendship.

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Jimin's POV

It was a cold spring day, I remember; the day our friendship had ended.

His last words to me rang through my ears:

Don't expect me to come back after this.

The wind was strong and the cold embraced me. I should have been shivering but after those words I froze. It was unlike Jhope to say words like those. Jhope was never the type to give up on anyone or walk away. He would always keep trying. He would always try his best to make a situation better.

But that day he gave up on me. Maybe now I was just too much to handle. I mean, he had put up with me so long already, I should have known it was going to happen eventually. Still, I was speechless after those words.

A strong wind came by and he walked past me emotionlessly. The wind blew and we drifted apart. I would never see his smiling face again. I really did go too far this time.

* * *

It all started two years ago.

Jhope and I were the kind of best friends that joked about everything with each other, told each other everything and even when we were 12 years old we'd act like we were 5. The most childish and playful energetic kids ever. Since our parents were friends, we've been best friends ever since we could remember and discovered we both had a passion for dance. I was the only person Jhope would ever force to do girl group dances with him. I think he enjoyed it way too much...

But two years ago when we were 12 years old was when everything started to fall apart...

Hoseok said she was like a butterfly; the girl he had met. She was beautiful and even though she was close, he knew she'd leave at some point; he couldn't have her. He said a whole lot of things like that which I did not understand. My best friend was falling in love. He was talking with me on his mother's phone like he usually did every night while he was at the holiday resort. Hoseok and his family were at their usual holiday place.

He met her when he was seven years old. At the time I remember how he'd said he really didn't want to go since things weren't going so well with him and his family. But the girl he met changed everything. Apparently he had met her at this "special" place of his. She in actual fact showed him there. After that he was never the same. He wasn't so mopy and sad anymore. When he came back from the holiday place he had insisted that from now on I should only call him Jhope. He said it was because he wanted to be just as hopeful as the girl he had met. I refused and thought it was ridiculous but soon I gave in and always called him Jhope. That hopeful girl... Her name was Y/n.

But one day when Hoseok got back from the holiday resort, everything changed. He came back from the holiday resort and he was dead quiet. He barely ever spoke. Something was wrong with him. I just kept joking about it, saying he probably just misses his crush. All he would do was just shake his head and keep quiet. He never smiled even. But the one time he did speak with me was when I called him Jhope again. He snapped and told me never to call him that again. I decided to do just that considering how serious he looked.

I decided to sleep over at Hoseok's place for a while to try to cheer him up a bit and make sure he was doing okay.

One night I was woken up by a loud sound coming from the bathroom. I noticed Hoseok wasn't in bed and I rushed to the bathroom door. I tried opening it but the door was locked. I called out Hoseok's name a few times, asking if he was okay and when he wouldn't answer, I kept telling him to open the door but he wouldn't listen. I decided to wake up his parents to help open the door. Everyone in the house was panicked and worrying about Hoseok. Finally they got the door open and a horrible sight was found. Hoseok was lying on the floor, pills scattered on the floor.

We rushed him to hospital, hoping it wasn't too late. Luckily the doctors were able to save him and he was in a short coma for a few days. When he woke up, he had to stay in hospital for a few weeks to ensure he was going to be alright. During those weeks he would not speak to anyone. But when when he did finally speak, his first words to me were very shocking:

"You should've just let me die," he said when I was alone with him in the hospital bedroom. I sat on the chair next to his hospital bed. My eyes grew large at his words. What twelve year old would say things like that? Especially the all hopeful Jhope.

I started laughing nervously, trying to lighten the mood. "Hey, Hoseok, you don't actually mean that, right?" I said nervously.

He looked at me seriously. "Do I look like I'm kidding? Why are you even here? Just leave."

I scoffed. "Do you think I'd leave you after pulling a stunt like that? I'm never leaving your side ever again," I said.

He just sighed. "Great," he said sarcastically. "Now I'll just have to suffer for the rest of my life. I was better off dead, Jimin. I don't deserve to live..." He said, not looking at me.

"Why'd you do it, then? Why are you doing this to yourself?" I asked.

He looked further away and stayed silent. I looked at him closely. His eyes were tearing up.

"I'm not letting it go this time, Jhope. Tell me," I said.

"I told you not to call me that," he said quietly.

"Then tell me why I can't call you that," I said.

"No," he said simply.

"Why can't you tell me?" I asked.

Hoseok got irritated and shot me a look. "Because I don't want to," he said trying to end the conversation but I didn't stop.

"Your my best friend, Hoseok!" I snapped. "I'm worried about you and I want to help you but I can't because you won't tell me what's wrong."

"Why do you think I won't tell you, Jimin? It's because your my best friend and I don't want to worry or burden you with my problem," he said.

"Well you are worrying me already because you look like this. It's my job to worry about you as your best friend," I said then calmed a little and said: "It hurts for me to see you in this state, Hoseok. All I want is to help you feel better again. I want to see Jhope again. I miss the happy, hopeful you," I said softly.

He calmed as well and looked down at the bed sheets in front of him where his hands were. "I pushed her..." He said quietly, gripping at the bed sheets before him. "We went to meet each other at our usual 'special' place before I had to leave to come back home. She decided to surprise me and scare me from behind. I got so frightened that I pushed her back without knowing it was her." He paused as a lump filled his throat. "I pushed way too hard. She fell off the balcony. She landed right beside the pool. She wasn't moving. And I just left her..."

Tears started to fall from his eyes as he stared ahead of himself. He wouldn't look at me.

"What if she died, Jimin?" He said, finally looking at me frantically. "What if she didn't and hates me now. I just left her. I left her," he sobbed, wiping away his tears that wouldn't stop.

I immediately hugged him. I didn't know what to tell him. I was shocked too. Hugging him and giving him comfort was the best thing I could do for him right now.

"I'm sure she's fine, Hoseok..." I said. "Maybe you were imagining things. You never know..." I tried making all kinds of excuses; all possibilities that everything was going to be alright.

He released from the hug and looked at me with sad eyes. He shook his head slowly, his eyes telling me to stop thinking of any more excuses. They weren't helping. "I was a coward," he said. "I just have to live with that."

"We'll get through this, Hoseok. You're not alone. I'll walk every step with you," I said. I then smiled at him. "Just you wait. One day you'll be smiling again. I'll make sure of that," I smiled brightly at him, reassuring him everything will be okay.

I was going to assure him he could still be hopeful, even after something like this. Actually- especially after something like this. He should stay hopeful. For her sake. She was the hope to his life. He should be the hope in everybody else's life. I mean, that was what he always wanted. And I'm sure it's want she wanted.

I was going to bring Jhope back.

* * *

Two years had passed. We were finally going to high school. The same high school too, which was great. By now, Hoseok was doing okay, or at least that's what I assumed. He smiled brightly again, we could call him Jhope, he wasn't depressed anymore. But it didn't mean he had forgotten. Nobody could forget something like that.

It was the first day of school and sadly we were not in the same class. I was sort of shy so I didn't know how I was going to cope without him. Luckily, a girl in my class had approached me first. She was a very bright and happy girl, not to mention sweet and kind. Really I had never met anyone like her. She was quite energetic too. It was enough for me to almost fall in love with her. What girl was so friendly and perfect all at the same time?

Class ended and it was break now. We walked out of the class together, unable to stop talking. Someone had called out her name from afar and she turned around to look who it was. It was a boy. "Ah. It's my friend. I guess I'll go now. See ya later!" She said while running off.

I turned around and found Jhope staring at me. "Hey, Jhope," I said but there was no response. He didn't move. He looked like he'd seen a ghost. "Hey, are you okay?" I asked.

He snapped back to reality and pointed towards where the girl was standing, his hands shaking. "Who was that girl? What's her name?"

"W-who? Oh, Y/n? She's in my class. She's really cool," I said.

"Y-Y/n? No, that can't be.... How?" He was acting very strangely.

I walked over to him. "Hey, are you okay?" I asked.

"It's her, Jimin. The girl from the holiday place. She's okay," Jhope said.

"What? That's her?" I asked. A bright smile crawled its way onto my face. I grabbed his arm and pulled him in the direction Y/n had gone. "Come on. You should go speak to her again," I said.

He pulled away. "No. Are you crazy? After what I did, she probably hates me. She can't see me," he said.

I sighed. "I'll let you give it some time. But you should talk to her one day."

Almost three weeks had passed and everytime Jhope saw Y/n, he would quickly hide away somewhere. The same thing had happened once again when she walked with me to my dance class and then headed to her music class which was next to mine and Hoseok's dance class.

I walked towards him and pulled him out of the corner. "Hoseok, this is getting ridiculous," I said. "It's been three weeks. Are you planning on hiding from her forever?"

"No... I'm just waiting for the right moment," he said, excusing himself.

"Just come. We're doing this now," I said and took hold of his arm.

He immediately pulled away. "No! I can't, Jimin!"

"Fine. Then I'll call her here," I said.

I just figured: if you can't take the horse to the water, bring the water to the horse (xD).

Before he could say or do anything, I called out to her from where she was standing outside her music classroom. "Y/n!!"

She quickly looked over to us - or maybe just me. Hoseok had disappeared into the dance room once again. I motioned for her to come and she came.

"Hey, remember that friend I told you about that you should meet?" I asked.

"Yeah," she said while giving me a questioning glance.

He's right inside here. He's just really shy. You wanna come meet him?"

She quickly glanced in the direction of her classroom to see if anyone had entered the room yet. Nobody had. "Okay. Just quickly," she said.

I brought her inside. Hoseok froze when he saw her and I brought her to him. "That's him. Hoseok," I said.

She looked blank for a moment then smiled. "Hi. I'm Y/n," she said.

Hoseok and I both looked dumbfounded. She looked as if she'd never seen him before. When Hoseok didn't react, she waved her hand in his face. "Hello?? Are you okay?" She said.

He blinked a few times before he could finally find his voice again. "You don't remember me?" He asked. He sounded hurt.

"Should I know you?" She asked carefully.

"So you don't remember me? Jhope? Anything at all??" He asked. He now seemed more panicked.

"No, I'm sorry. I don't think I've ever seen you before in my life," she said. "I think you've got the wrong person."

I was so confused. How could she just forget him? Maybe the girl he knew was someone else?

Hoseok and I were both speechless. "Uhm, well... Anyway, I think I should get going now," she said. "See you, Jiminie." She then turned to Hoseok, speaking a bit more formally to him. "I hope you find who you're looking for. And maybe we could become better friends too. Enjoy your day," she smiled to him and then left.

Hoseok was quiet. I tried talking to him after that but he barely spoke for the rest of the day. But the next day when he came back to school he acted more than normal and said he thought it was better off this way than having her hate him.

But still... Why didn't she know him? Hoseok was so sure that it was her. Something was definitely wrong here.

A week had passed and I spent more time with Y/n trying to find out how she didn't know him. What I didn't realize though was that it was dangerous spending more time with her. It was getting harder and harder me to not fall in love with her.

One day I spent lunch with her and her best friend, Taehyung. What I learnt was that they were childhood friends like Hoseok and I. Taehyung was quite weird and funny. I liked him. Sitting along with us was another girl who's name was Jisoo who had a very bubbly personality.

"Y/n-ah, did you notice that boy has been sitting there alone everyday since school started? I think we should make friends with him. He looks so lonely," Taehyung said.

Before Y/n could speak, Jisoo did. "Yeah, I did. From what I heard, he is very quiet and shy. I also heard he does karate," Jisoo said.

I looked for the person they were talking about. It was a boy with dark hair sitting all alone. I realized that I knew him. "Oh, him. Are you guys talking about Jungkook? He's really cool. He's in my dance class and he's a great dancer," I said.

The bubbly girl who sat beside me squealed. "Omo. He dances too?? He could be an idol," she said dreamy-eyed. I rolled my eyes. "I think I like him," Jisoo said.

"You haven't even talked to him yet though," Y/n said.

Jisoo stuck her tongue out at Y/n. "You're just mad I found him first," Jisoo joked. "He's mine."

Y/n laughed. "I'm not even interested in guys. I'm way too young for that."

Then out of nowhere a boy popped up behind Y/n. "Good. You better not be thinking of any guys," he said.

"Jin! Stop doing that!" She said, still surprised from him coming out of nowhere.

"Jin-hyung! Hii!" Taehyung said with a bright smile.

I was confused and wondered who he was. He looked older than all of us. Y/n saw my expression.

"Oh, Jimin and Jisoo. You don't know him. He's my brother..." She said, a hint of embarrassment showed in her expression and voice.

Jin put his arm around Y/n and pulled her close. "The best brother in the world!" He laughed and smiled brightly.

"Hey, get off me," she said while pushing him off.

"Hey, is that any way to treat your older brother?" He said back. They gave each other looks before looking away again. "Anyways," Jin started. "Who is this boy here, hm?"

"My friend, Jimin," she said carefully.

"You better not have a thing for my sister," he said.

I immediately felt tense and answered, "No, of course not!" I laughed nervously.

"So are you saying my sister is not good enough for you?" Jin asked.

I instantly regretted what I said. Before I could speak again, Taehyung spoke. "I'm gonna go over to chat to Jungkook. He looks so lonely," he said, almost in a daze.

Jisoo replied immediately. "Yes, let's go!" They had already gotten up to leave.

Y/n's face lit up. "Yes," she said, her eyes hopeful. "Sorry, Jin, we have to go. Let's go, Jimin," she said while grabbing my wrist, trying to get away from her brother as fast as she could.

"No way," Jin said, grabbing my other wrist. "He's staying with me. I still need to talk with him."

Before me or Y/n could say anything, Jisoo appeared again and grabbed Y/n's arm. "Come on. We have to go," she said and pulled Y/n away from me and Jin. Y/n gave me an apologetic smile from afar.

Ugh, that Jisoo.. It's not that I didn't like her, just that she was always stealing Y/n away from me and she could be quite annoying sometimes. Oh, well.

"Right, let's get started," Jin started, pulling my attention away from Y/n. "What do you see my sister as?"

The series of questions went on and on about what kind of person I was and how I would treat Y/n and in the process I realized that maybe I could also find out more about Y/n from him. What if maybe she was that girl and was just pretending to not know Jhope?

I decided to get on Jin's good side by telling him of how Y/n was like a sister to me and someone I just always felt like protecting, which was true. Jin seemed to like me and in between questions I would always ask him something about Y/n, getting closer to the information I wanted to know.

"You know, you have a really kind sister. She's really nice too. A friend of mine last week thought he knew her from this holiday resort but she said she didn't know him when she saw him. She still offered to try being friends with him though," I said, trying to see if maybe her brother's expression would tell me something.

Jin's expression grew shocked and then sympathetic. "Ah.. He probably mistook her for someone else..." He said.

"Yeah, she said that," I said, looking down. I felt kind of sad. I thought I'd actually get a different answer from him. Maybe Jhope really would never see that girl again.

I had feelings for Y/n but more than that I knew Jhope really wanted and needed her so I felt really bad for him. I wouldn't take her away from him.

"Were they close?" Jin asked, snapping me out of my thoughts. "Your friend and this girl, I mean."

I smiled to him. "Yeah, very. She made a huge impact on his life," I said. I wasn't even sure if Jhope would be okay with me telling other people about this but I felt like people needed to know about the amazing friendship and bond that they had. "He really would give anything just to see her again."

It was quiet for a while before Jin spoke again. "Jimin, I'm going to tell you something. But you need to promise me you won't say a thing to Y/n about this."

I was completely confused. "Um, okay..."

"I'm only telling you this because I don't want your friend spending his life looking for someone he'll never find," he said and I wondered what he meant by those words. My question was answered shortly after. "Y/n is the girl your friend is looking for. She just doesn't remember him because the last time she was there, she fell off some balcony and hit her head. By the time she finally woke up again in hospital, all her memory of the holiday resort was gone. She was never able to get it back again."

I was shocked. So shocked that I was speechless. Poor Hoseok. The only person he has ever loved would never remember all the times they spent together. The good thing at least was that Y/n was doing okay and Hoseok didn't have to worry anymore like in the past few years.

At the same time though, I felt a pang of relief that she didn't remember him. It meant I had a chance. I hated that side of me.

"That must have really been hard and scary for you and your parents. I'm sorry you had to go through that," I was finally able to say.

"It's okay. We're doing fine now. At least she didn't lose any big memories," said Jin. "I'm really sorry for your friend though. He could always try being friends with her again. But Y/n can never know of this. We just think it's best this way."

It was second break and I had just told Jhope about what I had heard.

"No, let me go!" Jhope said, trying to push past me. We were somewhere at the back of the school outside by the trees. "She couldn't have forgotten me! I need to find her."

I was blocking his way from going to find Y/n. He didn't take what I said too well. "You can't tell her about the holiday resort. Her memory won't come back."

"Well I have to try," Jhope said.

"Don't you think they already tried that? She's just going to think you're completely crazy after this," I said. I had to find a way to stop him. "Just create a new relationship with her. Make new memories."

"I can't do that, Jimin. I need her to remember."

"And what if she does remember, huh? She'll remember that you pushed her and she'll hate you," I said a bit harshly and instantly regretted what I said.

He was quiet for a while before he finally spoke. "This is because you like her, isn't it?" He said. The color left my face and my eyes grew big. "I know, Jimin. I see the way you look at her." He paused. "Fine then. I won't try to make her remember. But I also won't try to create a new relationship with her where she doesn't know who I am. She's all yours, Jimin. That's what you wanted, isn't it?"

I don't know why but in that moment I could not move or talk at all. I was frozen. Because part of me actually wanted that; to be with her. That stupid, stupid part of me wasn't even modest about it.

"Just don't expect me to come back after this," said Hoseok. He brushed past me and sudden I realized how wild the wind was. It was reflecting our moods.

And that was the day, that spring day, that our friendship had eventually withered and crumbled away...

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