(I'll make it ✨aesthetic✨ and such tomorrow, it's just been a busy day and i completely forgot about actually getting this posted here rather than the other socials I have lmao ANYWAY!!)

Name: (unknown) - explained later -

Alias: Nael.

Alias meaning: "he who reaches his way."

General image of him:
- Neal is around his mid twenties, he is a mysterious man who stands around 5'10. He wears whatever clothes he can get ahold of, usually being black ripped jeans (both in the sense of style and zombies ripping them), grey tank top (covered in blood) and a black jacket.

As generally seen here, his outfit consists of little-to-no colour. This is because he noticed sparks of colour seemed to attract both the living, and dead, to his location. (Also because he's a plain person).

However, his combat boots do have a slight red colour within them. He has deep green eyes, and dark black hair. (His face is muddy, and his appearance is rough due to the apocalypse).

Likes:
- the night : he finds it calming and relaxing.
- animals : specifically foxes, ducks and rabbits.
- cold weather : it makes him feel angsty.
- rain : it comforts him, and it helps cover any sounds he makes.
- black (obviously).
- "Seren" (his friend/"lover")
- whenever he gets to eat something.
- killing zombies, sometimes he gets the thrill in hunting human's too.

Dislikes:
- large crowds, and people in general.
- the outbreak : everything changed.
- himself : depression is a BIIITCH!!
- noisy sounds : he flinches at it, and also is generally just irritated because it brings unwanted attention.
- bright lights.

Fears:
- to let anyone get close to him again : this includes emotionally and physically.
- to become the very thing he despises, to lose control and go further insane than he was.
- that the apocalypse was never going to come to an end.

Hobbies/Interests:
- listening to music : he has a radio and listens to it constantly.
- stargazing.
- journalism : he creates a journal (also a guide) on his life, the apocalypse, etc.
- dancing in the rain romantically.
- BL/MLM Stories.
- taking out his anger on trees, humans or zombies.

Personality trait/Behaviors.
- mysterious, quiet, aloof, independent, calm and collected (majority of the time), adaptable, cold, monotonous, intelligent, secretive, careful and alert, paranoid, passionate, aggressive, HIGHLY introverted, pessimistic, Stoic.

Extra:
- he has scars over his body, both from being attacked by humans, animals and zombies. And from self harm.

- he is extremely pessimistic. Believing the world hates him and that he's cursed.

- he rarely eats, uses the excuse of "needing to save food for the future" (he has PLENTY of food).

- he never stays in one spot, ever. He has abandoned vans all over the place full off equipment and such, he has a lot of zombie guts inside the van to keep it clear of survivors. If he meets anyone worthwhile, he'll usually lead them to one of the vans and allow them to take whatever they needed.

- he doesn't tend to talk too much, only spiking in whenever he needs to. He usually communicates through gestures (not sign language) or giving people certain looks.

- he has a fox pendant, and would TORTURE anyone who took it. (It was a gift from his friend/"lover").

- he's a heavy smoker, uses it for stress relief.

- due to it being so long since the apocalypse, he had forgotten his own name, and even age (he looks around mid twenties, so he rolls with it) one of his "acquaintances" called him "Nael" with a funny voice to try piss him off, but he stuck to it.

- Nael is left handed and has an ambidextrous skill, using his dexterity as an advantage I every situation.

- he has a very strange sense of humour, which only he (and "Seren") understood.

- he has a slight stutter and unique speech pattern due to his lack of human interaction for a long time.

- Nael has a tattoo on his wrist, it's hard to describe properly, so i'll just call it a "ying-yang" symbol since it's similar to that, with red "string" (lines) initially "stitching" them together.
(it's a symbol of his promise, and adoration for Seren).

- he has amazing survival skills; has a book on everything he learns.

- he has a pet fox named "Yipp". he had found the fox (girl) on one of his adventures, he wasn't sure why a fox was in a place like this, but he had immediately adopted her.

- Nael, despite his seemingly intimidating appearance and demeanour, has a soft spot for children. Especially those who have lost their friends or family during the apocalypse. He would go out it his way to protect them from harm and help them. (He would never admit he enjoys their presence, and continuously calls them a nuisance if they join him).

- like i said, he has extreme trust issues and is pessimistic to the point of believing e had been cursed. He has little people he trusts, he would never go out of his way to claim that he trusted anyone, the best thing people that knew him personally could get ranked was "best acquaintance". Even then, he prefers to keep his distance.

- loves exploring the abandoned places that have yet to be touched by survivors.

- he has extreme depression, PTSD, BPD, anxiety, and other mental illnesses. But finds it extremely hard to talk to people about his issues, even if he knows that he needs help. (He takes meds, but seeing it's an apocalypse, he tends to run out a lot).

- he's French, he tends to speak more normally in his native language, but that makes it even more harder for people to understand. (He can speak French, broken english - Trauma, and none human interaction -, and a little bit of Chinese.)

- Nael's main weapons of choice is the following : his bare hands/nails, a baseball bat, knife/dagger, bow and arrow.

- he has the habit of twirling his hair, biting his nails, and chewing on his own flesh (not CONSUMING, just nibbling) whenever he's nervous, scared, frightened, panicked, on the verge of breaking out.

- he carries a photo around of 'Seren' always and forever in his jacket pockets.

General background:

Nael was, believe it or not, a complete ditch over from what he is now. Although he was still introverted, rather than being genuinely disgusted to see one, in the past he was simply being shy, awkward to talk to people.

Up until he had met 'Seren' an extremely extroverted blond male that was around him constantly. The male became Nael's closest (and only) friend, although Nael had originally hated the young man because of his general personality, the two slowly got along and became the BEST of friends (eventually gaining my a massive crush on one another).

All was well, the two were around nineteen, and still in collage... Nael had finally gathered the courage to ask Seren out, he was about to do so. A nervous wreck, all until hell broke loose.

The outbreak had began the moment he had tried to speak up, luckily he managed to take Seren to a completely different and safe area. But due to the shock of the situation, both males had forgot about what Nael was trying to say.

Nael watched his parents die once he tried to take Seren to his home for safety, he had to suck in any emotions he had during the time to comfort Seren - the boy being close to the couple as they saw him as their "son (in law))".

A few weeks into the apocalypse, and Nael was already beginning to lose thoughts. Trying to speak about his feelings once more as the two were walking around an abandoned hospital for supplies, the two got ambushed, Seren just *had* to be the hero.. sacrificing himself for Nael.

Nael would never forget that day. The day he watched the love of his life get taken right be for his eyes, the day he SAW how terrible the transformation was.. the way, the way he saw EVERYTHING and couldn't help.

After that day, somehow getting out alive, he became a simply shell. There was no soul left in him, because Seren was that soul, the light that shined brightly into his own shadow.

Nael now explores alone, only trusting few however never staying long enough to grow a "bond" with anyone. Eventually, he forgot his own name, there was no Seren to constantly say it in order to make him smile.. he forgot his birthday, his parents weren't around to celebrate with him. He forgot his age, there was never a point in keeping track of the time he was trapped in the world's current state.

The only thing he did remember, vividly, was his life.. though, only the moments with Seren and his parents. He remembered so much, missed so much, regretted so much.

[an oc used for anything apocalyptic, originally explained on my quotev and shit, I'll work on making this aesthetically appealing.]

CarmenJohnson599  <3