𝐠𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐨 𝐞𝐫𝐚
𝟏𝟗𝟗𝟑-𝟏𝟗𝟗𝟖
𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐳𝐚𝐛𝐢𝐧𝐢 𝐱 𝐨𝐜
𝐨𝐜 𝐱 𝐨𝐜

❝ We were two kids just tryin' to get out
Lived on the dark side of the American dream
We would dance all night, play our music loud
When we grew up, nothing was what it seemed❞

EXCERPT OF NYLA SHAFIQ'S JOURNAL - CIRCA 1965

...when i was a child, my mother told me this philosophy and it has stuck with me throughout my entire life: it is always best to be prepared.

now when i was young and up until the point i was married to your grandfather, i didn't really digest what my mother meant. but upon coming to london, meeting all these people and landing myself in circumstances, my mother's words clicked to me.

it is always best to be prepared.

deception becomes second nature, gluttony is prevalent, vanity is everywhere; it's all so inescapable and quite frankly my loves, it's so hard to distinguish genuine nature.

you see, life is a funny thing in itself; throwing in all sorts of bullshit unexpectedly and so unprovoked. you wake up, do your thing, sleep and its just an ongoing cycle of monotonous nothingness. unless you give yourself a purpose. you'd want to save everyone, and even if you possess the power to do so, you have to realise that you can't abuse the power that you are given. don't play the maker, and as harsh this may sound, you have no fucking right to do so.

you are merely an actor in a play called life, and once your role is over, it's heard no more. you're merely a pawn of a greater being.

the most imperial and lustral house of avisa, though so powerful, there's a common denominator in every blood-born avisa: we all have a downfall, so cataclysmic, that none of us barely make it out alive. this is a feat one or maybe even all three of you may face, yet 

look at me, you're learning more about me through this damned journal of mine rather than myself being with the three of you right now.

day by day, the carnal urges of evil grows, like a parasite prevailing against its host. the three of you must learn more about yourselves and therefore your powers to overcome this.

i have a hope whereby even if i cannot hug you, not comfort you or be there for you, that my words can offer you far more sanity and comfort than anything. may my words at least touch you, when my hands cannot.

for you three, i will do anything and everything infinite times over.

evermore,
nani nyla xxx

if one is happy in a dream, does that truly constitute to real happiness?

━━━━ altair elio black hates imperfections and failure. all O's? check. extracurriculars? too many to count. prefect? check. altair was one who yearned and went above and beyond for academic validation. you call it an obsession, he calls it a mindset. craving academic validation over people validation.

but you see, that was all a rouse. altair would first like to say that sirius and leela black had never and will never give their children pressure. as parents, they were always supportive of their children's endeavours. yet it was altair's strong belief that as the oldest of his siblings he had to be perfect, he had to be the best example for them. and why? so they didn't have any of the burden of perfection and they had someone to look up to. altair the smart kid. altair the optimist. altair the perfectionist. altair the mediator. altair this, altair that. what no one saw was that he wasn't an optimist (at least in his eyes), he wasn't always rational and he was definitely not always perfect. it's never easy being the oldest.

altair knew that this obsession of his was a thorn on his side. fake it till i make it. a common mantra that he convinces himself to believe. a suffocating mantra. he was a weird one and he knew it. why does he get electric shocks when he touches everyone? there's even an imperfection in the electric charges in his body for fucks sake! oh only if he knew what that truly was ....

━━━━ atlas leo black quite frankly could not give a single fuck. hey aren't you leela black's son? it's actually leela black-shafiq. mrs black-shafiq to you weirdo. don't you think you should wear trousers? it's more appropriate than skirts. oh shut the fuck up sarah, what are you, the fucking uniform police? don't you think it's inappropriate that you want to go into fashion? kathy, you're wearing triple camo and blue eyeshadow, why should i listen to you?

atlas leo black (labelled as the black sheep) quite liked his life. i meant who wouldn't? he was pretty, has the best fashion sense and he's hot. he's a big believer in the saying YOLO. you live your days, regretting nothing and doing everything you possibly could. you see, his ultimate goal in life was to completely revolutionise wizarding fashion, as according to atlas 'robes, hats and capes are so cliché'.

weed. drugs. alcohol. the three things blocking atlas from building his fashion empire. you call it an addiction, he calls it a distraction. from what? atlas will only tell you one thing: the voices. the voices. the fucking voices.

━━━━ alya venus black was a slytherin and boy was she proud of it. she could be the nicest person to someone one second and the next thing you know, she could be stabbing by you in the back hard. a negotiator, to the point that her uncle reggie took her to disneyland florida for a day and bought her everything (leela and sirius weren't happy- though sirius for different reasons).

there was this common stereotype that slytherins were planned, resourceful and ambitious. yet despite that, she didn't know what she wanted to be. healer? nah, she's too blunt for her own good and could kill someone. wand maker? nah, that's altair's shit. auror? fighting gets tiring after a while. it was a big lingering question. she liked questioning morality and philosophy (besides reading, composing and quidditch, it was a good use of time, in her opinion). was someone truly light, or do they always have some underlying dark magic to them? what is exactly meant by dark magic?

a crossroads. that's where alya venus black was at. a crossroad where she could either fly to the high heavens or make a quick and easy descent to an inferno. i mean, the weird things she says sometimes got to mean something, right ?

𝒂𝒍𝒕𝒂𝒊𝒓 𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒐 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒌 ; DEV PATEL

GRYFFINDOR.
LIBRA SUN, SAGITTARIUS RISING, AQUARIUS MOON.
ENFJ-T

【🪴 ✨ 🐺 📷 🎞】

'𝒊 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒂 𝒄𝒖𝒑 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒆𝒂, 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒕'

𝒂𝒕𝒍𝒂𝒔 𝒍𝒆𝒐 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒌 ; AVAN JOGIA

GRYFFINDOR.
LIBRA SUN, SAGITTARIUS RISING, AQUARIUS MOON.
ENTP-T

【🎨 🌫 🐺 🪡 👻】

'𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒏, 𝒊𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒂𝒏𝒊𝒎𝒂𝒍 𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒕, 𝒄𝒂𝒎𝒐 𝒐𝒓 𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒈𝒐 𝒑𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒔, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒊𝒎𝒎𝒆𝒅𝒊𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝒂 𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒇𝒍𝒂𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒆'

𝒂𝒍𝒚𝒂 𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒖𝒔 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒌 ; NAOMI SCOTT

SLYTHERIN.
LEO SUN, CAPRICORN RISING, SCORPIO MOON.
ENTJ-A

【💥 🎼 🐉 📚 🪐】

'𝒊'𝒎 𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒓𝒈𝒊𝒄 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒆𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔: 𝒄𝒂𝒔𝒉𝒆𝒘𝒔, 𝒅𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒃𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒕'

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𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊'𝐒

𝒔𝒊𝒓𝒊𝒖𝒔 𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒌 ; ben barnes
𝒍𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒂 𝒊𝒔𝒉𝒂 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒌-𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒇𝒊𝒒 ; deepika padukone
𝒓𝒆𝒈𝒖𝒍𝒖𝒔 𝒂𝒓𝒄𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒖𝒔 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒌 ; tom hiddleston

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐎𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑'𝐒

𝒋𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒇𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒏𝒕 𝒑𝒐𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 ; aaron taylor-johnson
𝒍𝒊𝒍𝒚 𝒋𝒂𝒏𝒆 𝒆𝒗𝒂𝒏𝒔-𝒑𝒐𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 ; karen gillan
𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒋𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒑𝒐𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 ; daniel radcliffe

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𝒓𝒆𝒎𝒖𝒔 𝒍𝒖𝒑𝒊𝒏 ; andrew garfield
𝒏𝒂𝒓𝒄𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒂 𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒇𝒐𝒚 ; helen mcrory
𝒅𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒐 𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒇𝒐𝒚 ; otto seppalanein

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐋𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐍'𝐒

𝒅𝒂𝒑𝒉𝒏𝒆 𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒆𝒏𝒈𝒓𝒂𝒔𝒔 ; amanda seyfried
𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒊𝒔𝒆 𝒛𝒂𝒃𝒊𝒏𝒊 ; reece king
𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒂 𝒗𝒆𝒈𝒂 𝒄𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒔𝒆 𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 ; laura harrier

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𝒛𝒂𝒇𝒂𝒓 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒇𝒊𝒒 ; hrithik roshan
𝒏𝒚𝒍𝒂 𝒗𝒆𝒅𝒂 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒇𝒊𝒒 ; aishwarya rai bachchan
𝒇𝒂𝒊𝒛𝒂𝒂𝒏 𝒌𝒂𝒅𝒊𝒓 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒇𝒊𝒒 ; fawad khan

𝒕𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒆𝒅 𝒔𝒐 𝒈𝒐𝒐𝒅.

𝐢. 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐮. 𝐣𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬, 𝐥𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐫𝐞𝐠𝐮𝐥𝐮𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞. 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐲𝐞𝐬 𝐯𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐲 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐨𝐨. 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐥𝐚𝐝𝐬. 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐭 𝐠𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐚 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧. 

𝐢𝐢. 𝐢 𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐩𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬. 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐦𝐲 𝐨𝐜'𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐢 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐝𝐮𝐜𝐞𝐝.

𝐢𝐢𝐢. 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐢𝐟 𝐢 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐛𝐥𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐜 𝐟𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐦𝐬.

𝐢𝐯. 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐩𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐬 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐰𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩 𝐨𝐟 𝐥𝐮𝐧𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐧𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐞, 𝐝𝐨𝐛𝐛𝐲.

a commentary from an unstable candidate:

first and foremost, welcome to the
newly revamped lucid acrimony!!

how's everyone doing? i quite frankly
am done with uni and life and work, so
i got bored and though i would add a bit of
✨sparkle✨ to this book!

i'm legit doing this 1am in. the morning
cos i'm legit so sleep deprived and
my sleep cycle is so FUCKED cos of my
exams rn. 

#pharmceuticals #dropoutszn

there's a few changes in plotlines,,
some which you've already read,
but mainly for later parts.

altair, atlas and alya are my literal
children and leela (previously diya)
is my fave sword fighting healing
baddie.

if y'all wanna read the prequel to
LA, check out hamartia! all abt my
fave oc, miss nyla fucking shafiq.

dts!!
to the loml's who have supported me
through all of it. here's to you lads
🧃🥂🍾
asterlione
blueichor diorlulls
eristria artcinemas
infantwomanro
halleylikethecomet
delivury aethrastic_dreamxx
SlytherinSilverRose mss_fantasy5
-vedanshii viatrixpotter
heavenduarte divinemelancholy

and to all my readers, who've
been through a heck of a journey !!

cover:
by my bestie bestie
aethrastic_dreamxx
check her graphic shop
and works out !!

layout:
by me.
gifs do not belong to me,
however i have added
borders to them
the family gifs have been
manip'ed by me, but i do
not own the actual gif.

© winnie