"joong I found you a flower!" dunk said showing the purple flower to joong as he smiled "pretty." joong said "like you." dunk said and smiled.

although that would never happen again.

"dunk!" the teacher screamed which woke me up "sorry ma'am" I said as I stopped daydreaming but I always remember joong.. I mean it's not like the movies where they move away and you forget about them it's a different feeling.

I miss him of course but I'll never forgive him even if it was never his fault anyway.

the bell rang and I got up out of my seat, catching up to pond as quick as I could "pond!" I screamed and he looked at me "hm? also what was the daydreaming for?" pond asked smirking "just a weird dream, it was a memory from a few years ago." I said taking a deep breath and pushing the truth away from him about who it was.

"oh okay." he said looking at me and nodding "where's phuwin?" I asked "oh he's in science, I wish I had the same classes as him." pond said sighing "well I mean we can hang out?" I asked him curious of what he would say.

"Of course." Pond smiled and we sat down in the gym together "I miss someone." I said "is that the same person you dreamed about?" pond asked drinking water out of his water bottle for a quick moment "yeah." I said looking at him "then go tell this person." Pond said blinking softly "oh they aren't here anymore." I said looking away "oh, I'm sorry." pond said "it's okay." I said playing with the fabric on my pants.

after school I went on call with phuwin "pond was waiting for you." I said "yeah I know." he said with a giggle "your lucky." I said "for what?" phuwin asked me confused "having a boyfriend." I said "oh you romantic." phuwin laughed "I gotta go." I said smiling "bye." Phuwin said and I hung up the call as I got home.

I went to my room and looked through my old photos, finding one of me and joong.

it hurts me to know he's gone.

I looked at the picture for a second and then went to text joong, I overthought for a moment thinking about if I should actually text him or not.

I'll do it.

I texted his number and said "hi joong, it's dunk and I don't know where you are now but I miss you I'm sorry." I sent it to his phone and shut my phone off quickly.

I layed there in the silence and slowly feel asleep thinking about where he could be now in life, I feel like everything was my fault and know he would admit to it to.

fuck feeling this way

✶𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐂𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑