"i'm sorry i can't pick up the phone."

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"i'm sorry i can't pick up the phone, leave a message and i'll call back as soon as i can."

i looked down at my phone with tears in my eyes, and i sniffed, before putting the phone back to my ear.

"it's me again mama."my voice cracked, as i looked out the front yard of my uncles house finding the sun rising, "i miss you."

"i just keep wanted to hear your voice mama."i whispered, as tears started to slip down my cheeks.

"i love you."and with that, i ended the call putting my hands over my mouth.

i, becca kay gilbert didn't have my mother anymore, and i wouldn't ever have one again.

my mother was dead, buried into the ground at a cemetery near me in georgia.

it had been a month since my mother was last alive, and two weeks since she had been buried into the ground.

it had been one week since summer vacation had started, but it didn't matter to me.

i had been out of school since the accident due to my injuries, they didn't want to push it especially with me loosing my mother.

i tucked the blanket i had brought outside under me, watching the sun come up.

"hey."i looked up finding my uncle chris standing in the doorway of his home, looking at me, "what are you doing up?"

he walked down to sit next to me, and i kept quiet, fiddling with my fingers.

this hadn't been the first time he had found me outside at five in the morning. he ended up finding me outside the day of my moms berial service.

he sat next to me, gently slinging an arm around my shoulders, and pulling me into a side hug.

"is preston and barrett coming over today?"uncle chris asked referring to my best friends, and i shrugged.

"depends if they want to drag me out of bed, and throw me over preston's shoulder or not."i mumbled, making uncle chris laugh.

"well,"uncle chris paused, pushing himself up a little bit on the swing, "kolby is coming over today and i know damn well he won't have a problem bugging your ass."

"oh come on."i groaned, making uncle chris laugh again.

kolby gilbert and my uncle had been friends for years on end from what i'm told, and ever since i started visiting my uncle in jefferson georgia when i was five, he had always come over and loved to annoy me now that i was older.

as much as a pain in the ass he was, i loved him like an uncle, and he was over so much that i suggested that he moved in one time when i was little.

"he said he'd be here by 8:30, so you better be up by then if you're going to take a nap." uncle chase informed me, and i shook my head with a laugh, "only way i'm getting to sleep is those nasty pills that the doctor prescribed me."

we sat in silence for awhile, as i looked down at my left hand all casted up.

broke two bones in it during the accident, with a piece of bone floating around causing me to have surgery on it.

the bruises i had gotten were still all over my body, but were fading a little bit.

originally, they were black and blue. that was the first time i had ever seen uncle chris cry when he saw me.

"what's your plans for today?"i ask, and uncle chris shrugs.

"depends on what your doing."he explained, and i laughed, "i'm not doing anything."

a ford pickup truck pulled into my uncles driveway, and my two guy best friends hopped out.

"well i'll be damned."barrett holt walked towards the two of us with a smirk, "miss.becca kay is actually outside."

"shut it holt."i smiled, as preston lakewood and barrett holt came up onto the porch, and kissed the top of my head.

"morning bec."they mumbled, before sitting at the end of the porch.

"i'm going to go start breakfast."uncle chris got up, and went inside leaving the boys and i.

"did you get any sleep last night?"preston asked, and i shook my head.

"whoever said i went to sleep?"

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"oh miss becca kay!"

i laughed as kolby gilbert walked through my uncles back door with a wide grin all over his face.

"look you don't actually have to wake my ass up today!"i exclaimed, causing my best friends to laugh as my uncle scolded me, "language!"

"you swear all the time so!"i argue back making them all laugh.

"well i'm an adult."he fires back, bringing in the breakfast, and i raise an eyebrow.

"you don't act like it sometimes."

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hi!

i hope you enjoyed the first chapter of just as i am !

should i make the chapters longer, keep it as the same length as it is now or make it shorter?

lemme know !

4/18/19